carolinetwin
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lol, not really. True story though. My SO was teasing me about by obsession with these boards and said why don't I check what's going on, he knows I want to. So I jumped onto the relationship forum and saw the thread about how long do you wait before colouring. We saw the responses and on average I'd say most people said 3-5 dates. He asked me how long I waited and I said between 3-5 dates, which is true.
He was shocked and said how can I possibly know someone in 3-5 dates and he doesn't think sleeping with someone should be taken so lightly. I said it was the norm, and it is for me. I said it was my experience and those of my friends that most guys will want to get in your pants in that time period. He went on to say he was sure he would like my friends but 3-5 dates was too soon and he was disappointed in my answer. He has never slept with anyone before 3 months (except me) had elapsed because it's important to him to share his body with someone who matters to him and that he has checked out. He doesn't want to end up having a baby by someone he never really wanted to be with or end up with some disease.
I said he sounded like he was judging me but he told me he wasn't. We carried on the day but I was :
I didn't bring up the topic again until just before bed and told him how peed I was with him judging me, to which he repeated he wasn't judging but was just surprised and he accepts we just have different views.
Next morning he was cold and wouldn't tell me what was wrong. He rings in the evening to tell me
1 - he wasn't judging me but he was surprised at how soon I slept with men
2- i told him I had cheated 10 years ago but it shows my attitude towards relationships
3 - I told him I was someone's jump off ( I didn't know I was , dude was a very good liar and manipulator ...but I suppose after several months I knew in my heart what the deal was but I loved him so much I told myself it wasn't true). Anyway, so according to my SO, sleeping with me is like sleeping with all the people the other dude has been with. Even though I got tested as soon as the whole thing blew up 2 yrs ago and also BEFORE I started sleeping with my SO
4 - I'm obviously into my ex because I keep raising him and telling him stories about our time together. (I've mentioned my ex 3 times! and I was with him for 7 years. My whole family knew him and still ask about him)
My issue is:
1 - my ex is my ex, I have a past and I had good times with him. I only mention him in passing in the context of a conversation about exes. He chooses never to mention his ex because he is "past it" . Fair enough, he doesn't want me to mention anyone I was ever with. I can accept that. If it upsets him then I wont do it.
2 - my sexual habits before I met him should not be his concern. So long as I'm not carrying an STD then he need not be raising this with me. AND if he was that concerned then he needs to stop sleeping with me and go get tested. And he acting like I'm some sort of whore!
3 - why is he using things I tell him against me?
Anyway, he calls me after this conversation to apologise unreservedly for ever raising any of these issues. He was tired and had a bad day at work and realised how stupid all the issues he said were and he really dont care about any of those things.
Meanwhile I was reconsidering whether i really wanted to be with him. In a relationship you are making yourself vulnerable to a person which means bearing your soul. If I have to sensor myself or hide things from you then that is not relationship I want to be in.
This is the second time he has used something I tell him as the basis upon which to judge me. I can't afford to be vulnerable to someone who does this. Can I really spent an entire marriage censoring myself, not EVER mentioning anything that happened before him?
I don't know what to do, but right now, I just want a break from him and honestly the way I feel, if I never saw him again it would be too soon!
Sorry for the long post, but I'm just mentally tired.
He was shocked and said how can I possibly know someone in 3-5 dates and he doesn't think sleeping with someone should be taken so lightly. I said it was the norm, and it is for me. I said it was my experience and those of my friends that most guys will want to get in your pants in that time period. He went on to say he was sure he would like my friends but 3-5 dates was too soon and he was disappointed in my answer. He has never slept with anyone before 3 months (except me) had elapsed because it's important to him to share his body with someone who matters to him and that he has checked out. He doesn't want to end up having a baby by someone he never really wanted to be with or end up with some disease.
I said he sounded like he was judging me but he told me he wasn't. We carried on the day but I was :
I didn't bring up the topic again until just before bed and told him how peed I was with him judging me, to which he repeated he wasn't judging but was just surprised and he accepts we just have different views.
Next morning he was cold and wouldn't tell me what was wrong. He rings in the evening to tell me
1 - he wasn't judging me but he was surprised at how soon I slept with men
2- i told him I had cheated 10 years ago but it shows my attitude towards relationships
3 - I told him I was someone's jump off ( I didn't know I was , dude was a very good liar and manipulator ...but I suppose after several months I knew in my heart what the deal was but I loved him so much I told myself it wasn't true). Anyway, so according to my SO, sleeping with me is like sleeping with all the people the other dude has been with. Even though I got tested as soon as the whole thing blew up 2 yrs ago and also BEFORE I started sleeping with my SO
4 - I'm obviously into my ex because I keep raising him and telling him stories about our time together. (I've mentioned my ex 3 times! and I was with him for 7 years. My whole family knew him and still ask about him)
My issue is:
1 - my ex is my ex, I have a past and I had good times with him. I only mention him in passing in the context of a conversation about exes. He chooses never to mention his ex because he is "past it" . Fair enough, he doesn't want me to mention anyone I was ever with. I can accept that. If it upsets him then I wont do it.
2 - my sexual habits before I met him should not be his concern. So long as I'm not carrying an STD then he need not be raising this with me. AND if he was that concerned then he needs to stop sleeping with me and go get tested. And he acting like I'm some sort of whore!
3 - why is he using things I tell him against me?
Anyway, he calls me after this conversation to apologise unreservedly for ever raising any of these issues. He was tired and had a bad day at work and realised how stupid all the issues he said were and he really dont care about any of those things.
Meanwhile I was reconsidering whether i really wanted to be with him. In a relationship you are making yourself vulnerable to a person which means bearing your soul. If I have to sensor myself or hide things from you then that is not relationship I want to be in.
This is the second time he has used something I tell him as the basis upon which to judge me. I can't afford to be vulnerable to someone who does this. Can I really spent an entire marriage censoring myself, not EVER mentioning anything that happened before him?
I don't know what to do, but right now, I just want a break from him and honestly the way I feel, if I never saw him again it would be too soon!
Sorry for the long post, but I'm just mentally tired.