Hey Ebony,
I saw this post yesterday and didn't have a clue what to say.
So sorry you're going through a hard time with your hair babe. You gotta love forums though, as in true style you have asked for advice and you've probably got too much and my guess is you are overwhelmed and confused, lol! I couldn't really add more to what has been discussed BUT I have a question for you. In your heart of hearts, how do you see this wonderful healthy, lustrous hair you're aspiring to? Is it nappy? Is it straight? If straight - is it pressed or relaxed? Many great points have been made and you may pick whatever calls out to you most. If you want it kinky, then pay attention to points like Suburban Bush Babe's. Perhaps you want it natural but straight, or relaxed/texturised - you have many ladies here practising what they preach, I suggest research in the form of fotki-ing, foruming etc and go with your heart. I know I REALLY wanted natural hair and here's a bit of my story........
I remember feeling exactly like you do now around August 2007 and I made a bad choice out of desperation. In short - I had my hair natural since late 2005 as I really wanted to stop using chemicals. Of course, I knew zilch about hair care, full stop, let alone natural hair, so after my BC I went through the usual frustrations of trying to keep my hair groomed and healthy but without any knowledge. One morning in August '05, in my frustration I walked into this random black hair salon and asked for a texturizer. It was done all wrong, in a haste, one side of my hair was bone straight, the other was pretty much untouched. It lasted 1 day then I asked DH to cut it using his man shears and bought a wig. Weeks later & still desperate, I hot footed it to Morris Roots as I'd decided relaxing was a no no & loose natural was impossible. I got comb twists with the intention of locing. My heart wasn't in it, but I loved the fact I was out of a wig. The straight bits wouldn't stay put though, so about a couple of weeks later (late Sept/early Oct '07) I braided the coils to help them latch. Of course I left the braids in till January with little care. Took them down, wore my hair in it's afro/dreads for a few weeks though I was desperate again and wanted the locs off. Went back to the salon that messed up with the texturiser again, sigh - funny how sense escapes when one is desperate - asked for a cut as I'd decided I'd try natural again. They quoted £40+ for a cut, and it was then I decided I'd do it myself. I got home, grabbed the scissors and chopped off those dry locs and felt a HUGE relief. This was in late January 2008 and thank God, that was the last BC I had. A week or two later, whilst browsing along on the net as you do, I came across a blog comment from a lady on fotki who mentioned black haircare and attatched some links and that's how I started caring for my hair. I was amazed seeing pictures of beautiful black hair, natural and relaxed, but as I really wanted natural, I browsed natural albums more. I also joined pretty much all the hair forums I came across, lol, as I was so hungry for more info! I'm still hungry and always wish I had more hours in the day to browse more, lol.
Long story, I know......you may have given up reading at this point
but hey, you are in good company! I do agree that yoou're probably better off ditching the heat and upping on moisture DCs - too much protein can be drying to hair, especially natural hair. Also find a style that leaves your hair alone for a while - even if it means wigging it for a while, whilst you care for it intensively. Put some focus on your scalp too - a healthy scalp brings forth healthy hair!
I wish you well in your journey..... If you are natural, we do have gatherings ocassionally if you're interested (organised via another site though). We've got a facebook group too for London/England naturals - I can PM you details if interested....
HHG chick, don't give up and do go with your heart. And remember - knowledge is power - get to know your hair and what you want for it and the sky's your limit!
Ps - Pics would be fab! ;-)