Teja
Well-Known Member
Hey ladies,
I am writing this and it pains me while I am....but I have learned so much from you guys I thought that I needed to share this...... if it can help only one person to get the courage to get out of an abusive realtionship my mission would be complete!
I'm now in the process of breaking up with my ex..... who was the most abusive meanest person.... yet I stayed with him for five years,five years I let him beat me manipulate me threaten me......the worst type of physical and emotional abuse that's possible.
I already started off on a ruff path witnessing my mom being physically and emotionally abused by my stepdad most of my childhood life..... only to find myself in the same situation....it's only now that I realise I only let this happen because my sense for what was normal in a relationship was totaly off....When you constantly hear someone tell you..you are nothing..... never will be.... and that you are never going to get a partner better....you will believe it at one point or another....I mean this man has put locks on everything I do in my life he controlled who I speak with..... what I wear where I go....he had so much power over me it was scary...He turned me against my whole family....as soon as something went a way he did not like he would become loud and agressive.... punched me so hard in my gut one time that I thought I was going to blead to ...yet I went back.....some of you are going to call me crazy and foolish..but I am telling you when you once find yourself in a situatuion like that it's hard to get out of....the pressure I was to embarrassed and ashamed to tell anyone because he seemed like the sweetest person from the outside...
I finally got a grip on my situation and moved away to germany to be exact....but it still took me another year to get out .....right now I am hearing everything from his side from him telling me he loves me to him cursing me out usually right after another....I am just very thankfull that he is not here...though about changing my nr but no I will not let him take more away from me.......
I just want you ladies to know that abusive men DONT CHANGE if he hits you once he will do it again....its not your fault either....for way to long I thought I looked or said something wrong and deserved his wrong doings...NO....when you have a partner in your life who is not willing to support you with your goals and dreams and treats you any less than the woman you are....then get the hell out of there....we are lucky enough that god gave us life ..our life not anyone elses and dont let nobody take that away from you... I have a whole new appreciation for life the feeling that I can do what ever I want when ever I want be anything I want ....the saddest part of this story is that I am only 21 years old...Wasted five years??? It helped become the strong person I am now....I am not over it yet but everyday I build back a peace of me that he took away!
I am writing this and it pains me while I am....but I have learned so much from you guys I thought that I needed to share this...... if it can help only one person to get the courage to get out of an abusive realtionship my mission would be complete!
I'm now in the process of breaking up with my ex..... who was the most abusive meanest person.... yet I stayed with him for five years,five years I let him beat me manipulate me threaten me......the worst type of physical and emotional abuse that's possible.
I already started off on a ruff path witnessing my mom being physically and emotionally abused by my stepdad most of my childhood life..... only to find myself in the same situation....it's only now that I realise I only let this happen because my sense for what was normal in a relationship was totaly off....When you constantly hear someone tell you..you are nothing..... never will be.... and that you are never going to get a partner better....you will believe it at one point or another....I mean this man has put locks on everything I do in my life he controlled who I speak with..... what I wear where I go....he had so much power over me it was scary...He turned me against my whole family....as soon as something went a way he did not like he would become loud and agressive.... punched me so hard in my gut one time that I thought I was going to blead to ...yet I went back.....some of you are going to call me crazy and foolish..but I am telling you when you once find yourself in a situatuion like that it's hard to get out of....the pressure I was to embarrassed and ashamed to tell anyone because he seemed like the sweetest person from the outside...
I finally got a grip on my situation and moved away to germany to be exact....but it still took me another year to get out .....right now I am hearing everything from his side from him telling me he loves me to him cursing me out usually right after another....I am just very thankfull that he is not here...though about changing my nr but no I will not let him take more away from me.......
I just want you ladies to know that abusive men DONT CHANGE if he hits you once he will do it again....its not your fault either....for way to long I thought I looked or said something wrong and deserved his wrong doings...NO....when you have a partner in your life who is not willing to support you with your goals and dreams and treats you any less than the woman you are....then get the hell out of there....we are lucky enough that god gave us life ..our life not anyone elses and dont let nobody take that away from you... I have a whole new appreciation for life the feeling that I can do what ever I want when ever I want be anything I want ....the saddest part of this story is that I am only 21 years old...Wasted five years??? It helped become the strong person I am now....I am not over it yet but everyday I build back a peace of me that he took away!