aribell
formerly nicola.kirwan
Just a little story.
I had a couple of irritating and fatiguing dating experiences this past year, and got to the point where I was just adamant within myself that this year was going to be the year that I'd meet *him*. It was time, I felt. I talked to friends about it. I wanted it, and I prayed for it. I even set a timeline for myself, that I'd be in a relationship by my birthday (in a couple of months). So unrealistic, but hey, it's what I was adamant needed to happen.
Then, a couple of days later I met a man who seemed to be everything I wanted. He was cute. Loved his job and seemed like he'd meet all the goals he's set for himself. We shared the same beliefs and values. He immediately expressed his interest in me and was forthright about his intentions, which I really appreciate. And I kept being really forthright about my standards, just to see if it'd scare him off. I talked about faith, marriage, husband being the provider, etc. He was still on board. Said he wanted marriage and kids within a clear timeframe and wanted the next woman he got involved with to be the one he marries. And he wanted to know more and more about me.
Suddenly, I found myself really interested in everything the local Peace Corps recruiter had to say about moving abroad and living on another continent.
Yes, he was everything I had asked for it seemed. And yet when it was actually there, I saw that I really had no intentions whatsoever of getting married and having children any time soon. I still have lots to do. But, I didn't have the guts to let such a good one go. I was honest with him, though, that I wasn't sure exactly what I wanted. He didn't want to risk getting his feelings hurt and let down, and so he bowed out. Fair enough.
So, for those to whom this applies, are you really ready for something real, or do you just want it because you think that it's what you should want or because you think you might be missing out on something? Only a few may be able to relate, but how many of us are like kids who don't really *need* to have that toy until the kid next to us has it?
Do a self-assessment, and if you're really not ready, don't waste your energy running after something that you aren't ready to do what it takes to keep!
I had a couple of irritating and fatiguing dating experiences this past year, and got to the point where I was just adamant within myself that this year was going to be the year that I'd meet *him*. It was time, I felt. I talked to friends about it. I wanted it, and I prayed for it. I even set a timeline for myself, that I'd be in a relationship by my birthday (in a couple of months). So unrealistic, but hey, it's what I was adamant needed to happen.
Then, a couple of days later I met a man who seemed to be everything I wanted. He was cute. Loved his job and seemed like he'd meet all the goals he's set for himself. We shared the same beliefs and values. He immediately expressed his interest in me and was forthright about his intentions, which I really appreciate. And I kept being really forthright about my standards, just to see if it'd scare him off. I talked about faith, marriage, husband being the provider, etc. He was still on board. Said he wanted marriage and kids within a clear timeframe and wanted the next woman he got involved with to be the one he marries. And he wanted to know more and more about me.
Suddenly, I found myself really interested in everything the local Peace Corps recruiter had to say about moving abroad and living on another continent.
Yes, he was everything I had asked for it seemed. And yet when it was actually there, I saw that I really had no intentions whatsoever of getting married and having children any time soon. I still have lots to do. But, I didn't have the guts to let such a good one go. I was honest with him, though, that I wasn't sure exactly what I wanted. He didn't want to risk getting his feelings hurt and let down, and so he bowed out. Fair enough.
So, for those to whom this applies, are you really ready for something real, or do you just want it because you think that it's what you should want or because you think you might be missing out on something? Only a few may be able to relate, but how many of us are like kids who don't really *need* to have that toy until the kid next to us has it?
Do a self-assessment, and if you're really not ready, don't waste your energy running after something that you aren't ready to do what it takes to keep!