My precious sister @
sweetvi, your candor and honesty about your weakness in this heart-felt confession, I must admit is refreshing.
To all the bolded in the order that are highlighted:
Let the weak say I am strong. The Lord is strong and wants when we are weak to draw on His strength and as we do, we call ourselves strong. The Holy Spirit is still doing a refining and holy work in us IF we let Him. Our surrender of our will to Him is critical in this endeavor.
Try not to handle this area of weakness without seeking Him for His help to strengthen you. If you ask, He will and if you begin to confess His word over and into every situation, the tempter, the devil, will flee. This is what it means to resist the devil.
As you confess His word, you will feel stronger and stronger but you cannot stop - you must stedfastly resist the devil and God will help you overcome the temptations. So you see, you can start
and finish strong. The race in this holy battle is not given to the swift nor the strong, but to those who endure to the end. You can win, you have already won!
See yourself as victorious and not as a failure. Cast down those vain imaginations of failure for they are exalting themselves against the knowledge of our Lord and Master. He is not a failure and neither are you. See it, say it, believe it!
Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God. hear yourself speak His word to your circumstance and give it the life it needs to move in divine favor.
Begin commanding your day according to the will and word of God
OR your day will command you. Take your rightful authority as a child of the Most High God, open up your mouth and speak. Give your faith a voice, speak God's word over your life and your body, soul and spirit and shut fear and doubt up. If you don't shut them up, they will get bolder and bolder and louder and louder and guess what?
You will obey the voice and words you are hearing and speaking the most. STOP obeying the fear and STOP IT NOW! Educate, train and develop your human spirit. Meditate on God's word more and you will make your way proseraous and have good success in every area of your life.
Finally, you cannot have two masters. You will love the one and hate the other. Pleasing man is an absolute slap in God's face for to live to please man is to displease God. Man is fallible, God is not! It is okay for man to be upset with you if you tell him "NO!"
Just remember, if you are saying no to man you are saying yes to God! I don't see anything wrong with that. Man can not save your soul or keep it qut of hell, but God can. Ask yourself the question "Which of these is more important to me? The opinion of man or the blessed assurance of God?"
You want to desperately honor God with your body and your soul, well guess what? That is a great start - You have given Him something to work with and that is your desire. Give Him a little more daily, and I mean daily!
Fill yourself up with His word everyday - this way, you are literally filling yourself up with God Himself. And when the battle comes around again - and it will, you will be armed with what you need to fight - not only fight - but fight and win.
My beloved sister, be the victor you are called to be in Christ Jesus our Lord! You are not a failure, you are victor, you are not a man-pleaser, but a God-pleaser, you are not weak, but you are strong, you are not the conqoured, but a conquorer, you are not defeated, but an overcomer! you are the head, and not the tail, you are above and not beneath. Command your morning my sister.
Look to the hills from whence cometh your help - your help comes from the LORD! Seek Him first! His face and not His hand - seek Him!
i used to read mine at work a lot
. My heart was just....filled when I saw that post. I couldn't help but reach out to her - I was compelled to do so. I didn't even mean to keep writing such a long post, but the words just kept coming into my spirit to speak to her spirit. 
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Jesus!
sweetvi. You are indeed on the right track. Continue on this path and you are destined for divine success. 
