What's Going On Right Now in Your Life that Troubles You --Don't Be Afraid...

[Divine.]

Currently I'm in that lonely season of God stripping everything from beneath me in order to focus on him. It has been so hard.

I have lost so many friends. I have no one to talk to. For the past month it has been me, my bible, and God. I have found joy in my father, but for some reason it's not enough to overcome this loneliness.

I just graduated from college and I'm beginning to get discouraged because no one will hire me. I can't even get an admin support job and I have been doing that for 4 years! I worked my behind off in college doing internships, even interning as a P&G ambassador, and still I'm unable to get hired. I have no clue what I want to do with my life. Apart of me wants to go back to school and finish up my marketing degree (it's my minor) because I don't have enough experience to work in my major. I feel so inadequate. People have always looked up to me. I feel like a failure because I have yet to fulfill any of my goals. I don't make enough money to live on my own so I have to move back home...

Don't even get me started on my love life...I want to have a relationship God's way, but I'm so weak. I'm scared that I will run off the few prospects I have by telling them my relationship with God is more important than succumbing to sin. It's just hard.

I'm really just lost and with each day I find myself running from God. I am being tested in so many ways and I honestly can't take it anymore. My faith isn't shaken but I can't act like this is easy.

 

[Shimmie]

JudithO

I confessed to him right away when it happened. However, I can't forgive myself. I prayed about it tonight and feel a little bit better but the guilt won't go away. I don't want to make excuses for my actions. Would God put another man in my life to let me know I could do better is my question. Since meeting him all the things I have asked for I'm being bless with. New job, moving back home to be with family, and started my spiritual journey again.

proudofmynaps...

My heart is crying 'with' you.

As I'm sitting here my thoughts are a very good thing is happening with you. It's not the 'other' man, nor the new job, moving back home...none of these

It's the prayer in Psalm 51 from King David after he had sinned with Bathsheba. It's not your boyfriend that you are carrying the weight of conviction for. No, it's the Lord. Your heart is heavy because the sin was against the Lord.

Look at David's Prayer:

Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.

2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.

3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.

4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.

5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.

6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.

7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.

8 Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.

9 Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.

10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.

12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.

13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.


14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.

15 O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.

16 For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.

17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

18 Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem.

19 Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.

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Dearest One... God is calling upon your heart to be 'One' with Him. That's the pain you are feeling. He doesn't want you to sin again and neither do you, for the pain will only deepen until you yield your heart to the Lord, surrendering all there is about you.

It's not about your boyfriend nor the other man. They cannot redeem you nor ease the pain in your heart... the deep conviction.

This is about Jesus. A relationship that no man can put asunder; no man can tear apart. Your heart has been 'pricked' and you are feeling the hurt that God feels and only because of His deep love for you. He wants you to know the depth and breath of His love for you. How it hurts Him that you were being hurt and mistreated. You cannot remain nor can you return to another situation like that.

As humans we each fall short and we 'ALL' fail God. Yet He waits for the moment when He can, by the Holy Spirit, pull us back unto Him.

Somewhere along the the line, in the journey of your life, you gave your heart to the Lord and then 'Life happened'. Life's distractions (the abusive boyfriend), and now the enemy is seducing you with another distraction. Yes, this other guy is another distraction, which is why you don't have God's peace in your heart. Going back to Psalm 51 (posted above). God is calling your heart to be 'One' with Him.

He loves you O' so much and so much more. He wants to give you a peaceful life and that life more abundantly. As soon as you surrender...the pain in your heart will over. God has won, the heart of the 'girl' He loves with all of His.

No condemnation... just love

 

[Shimmie]

Currently I'm in that lonely season of God stripping everything from beneath me in order to focus on him. It has been so hard.

I have lost so many friends. I have no one to talk to. For the past month it has been me, my bible, and God. I have found joy in my father, but for some reason it's not enough to overcome this loneliness.

I just graduated from college and I'm beginning to get discouraged because no one will hire me. I can't even get an admin support job and I have been doing that for 4 years! I worked my behind off in college doing internships, even interning as a P&G ambassador, and still I'm unable to get hired. I have no clue what I want to do with my life. Apart of me wants to go back to school and finish up my marketing degree (it's my minor) because I don't have enough experience to work in my major. I feel so inadequate. People have always looked up to me. I feel like a failure because I have yet to fulfill any of my goals. I don't make enough money to live on my own so I have to move back home...

Don't even get me started on my love life...I want to have a relationship God's way, but I'm so weak. I'm scared that I will run off the few prospects I have by telling them my relationship with God is more important than succumbing to sin. It's just hard.

I'm really just lost and with each day I find myself running from God. I am being tested in so many ways and I honestly can't take it anymore. My faith isn't shaken but I can't act like this is easy.

Divine....

You have a 'Divine' Life. Really, you do. You truly have a Divine Life!

You're not weak at all, Little Sister, not at all. Perhaps a little weary, a little tired. As for the relationships, the prospects perhaps running off.

Well, remember your 'Hair Growth' journey? It seems like our hair grew faster before we began taking good care of it. However, keeping our hair healthy seemed to take longer or it seemed as if our hair wasn't making any kind of length progress, yet all along it was and then 'we' were past shoulder, past APL, headed past bra strap.

When we do right with our relationships, it's like taking care of our healthy hair to keep it healthy. It may seem like it's not growing but it is. And so shall your relationship be...healthy and strong because you're taking care of it, God's way.

You won't be in this 'season' long. It's just part of the journey and if you look ahead, there are rows of Roses along the path. The thorns are for your protection...there is no rejection for you to pick them and place them in a joyful vase.

God has this to say to you...

For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay. (Habakkuk 2)

Now, this scripture has made its rounds and it becomes a 'Yeah, Yeah, Yeah....Sure, I've heard it before.".. it becomes redundant.

HOWEVER or may I say "BUT" ?

It is not redundant for you. In a still small voice in the very deep of your belly (your spirit), you can hear God's gentle, yet strong whisper reaffirming you this:

"My Darling Daughter, I didn't forget what you asked me for. I didn't forget what I promised you in return, and I am reminding you too...do not forget and do not doubt what I have said.

Stop thinking about the other blessings which I have allowed others to reap, others who have not trusted me as you have. Yes, I know... Daughter, I know that they haven't 'earned' it. But do you realize how much more you have simply because of your faith in me? Daughter I have watched you 'Still' take a stand for me in the midst of critical and cynical quirks and attacks upon your faith in me.

Daughter, I am so proud of you for still believing in me when others around you, chose not to. And they were not nice about it. Oh' no! They were high minded and puffed up with pride in themselves and offering to help you not out of kindness but of mocking your faith in me to provide for you, in spite of.

YET, my Darling Daughter, YET, you always stood for me and you never let me down, even when it appeared that I was not around to fulfill a certain need.

You see, I don't forget. I was there then and I am here with you now, and I am telling you Daughter, I NEVER forget. I never forget those who forsake all others to stand in their faith in me. I never forget. It is during those times of trials that I --- ME --- Your Father in Heaven... It is during those times that I see who truly is for me and those who are not. And you my Darling Daughter, are so near and dear to my heart. You have clearly shown that you love me and trust me and there is nothing in this life that I will not do for you, give to you, promise to you. And I never forsake my promises. And I will not forsake my promises which I have made for and to you.

A year from now you will look back and wonder, when did I ever lack? There is so much abundance in my life, that there is no room for more. Yet, my Darling Daughter, I will enlarge your 'Territory' for the abundance is only beginning to fill the halls and rooms of your new home, your new life, your new dwelling in total peace.

Don't worry about your husband, you know that he is coming. It won't be a year before you live the manifestation. Just trust me and be ready. That's all, just be ready.

Now...what will you ask of me? I am here and I am ready to pour out my blessings upon you. Blessings which I have promised and have not withheld. I will give them unto you freely for you are mine, and I love you and I will keep no good thing from you. Not ever.

In Jesus' Name, Amen and Amen.

Your life is 'Divine'.... :Rose:

 

[proudofmynaps]

Shimmie

Thank you so much. You are blessing this board in so many ways. I'm so grateful for you. Keep doing what the Lord has put in your heart.

 

[Shimmie]

Shimmie

Thank you so much. You are blessing this board in so many ways. I'm so grateful for you. Keep doing what the Lord has put in your heart.

proudofmynaps....So are you Love...so are you.

Baby, God needs us so much here on this earth. And you are among His chosen to stand for Him.

You have such a love in your heart for God and that's the reason you feel so bad. The real 'Man' that you are in love with is Jesus and you hurt because you love Him so. That's all it is. Your love for Him, is just that deep and He loves you all the more for it.

Again, there is no condemnation. Only love. I promise you. Only love and you truly have it in your heart and you always will.

 

[LovingLady]

Divine.

Thank you for being so honest and transparent. I found this video today and I feel it was meant for you and the other lovely ladies on this board.

Have faith in God, He will never fail you.

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[Divine.]

Shimmie What you wrote touched me in so many ways. I literally was brought to tears. God is using you in such a special way. Thank you for the kind uplifting words. In this moment I realized how much God truly loves me. It's such an overwhelming yet amazing feeling! I feel so much better

Divine.

Thank you for being so honest and transparent. I found this video today and I feel it was meant for you and the other lovely ladies on this board.

Have faith in God, He will never fail you.

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LovingLady Omg I loved every second of this video! It was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing! This video confirmed a lot things I have been dealing with.

 

[AtlantaJJ]

Divine.

Thank you for being so honest and transparent. I found this video today and I feel it was meant for you and the other lovely ladies on this board.

Have faith in God, He will never fail you.

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LovingLady I had to thank you directly for posting this powerful message, I just shared it with my son and asked him to share it with his friends. Awesome message!

 

[Shimmie]

Divine.

Thank you for being so honest and transparent. I found this video today and I feel it was meant for you and the other lovely ladies on this board.

Have faith in God, He will never fail you.

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This is amazing. Thank you LovingLady for sharing this. Thank you very much. God's love and His heart is moving among us and within and it's just wonderful.

 

[Destiny9109]

I had a talk with my aunt and told her that lately I've been having strong feelings of a dark presence around me when I'm trying to go to sleep at night(during the day too),but for the most part at night. She said it was demons. I haveto admit I'm not really religious. I wanted to see what advice you ladies had to offer on this.

 

[Shimmie]

I had a talk with my aunt and told her that lately I've been having strong feelings of a dark presence around me when I'm trying to go to sleep at night(during the day too),but for the most part at night. She said it was demons. I have to admit I'm not really religious. I wanted to see what advice you ladies had to offer on this.

Destiny9109...

I am not 'sensing' that there are demons causing this 'presence' around you.

Questions:

What are you afraid of? What's been heavy on your mind for the past several months? Who passed out of your life? I'm not speaking of something who may have died, but someone who has been a deep part of your life and no longer there. Someone you've been missing. Has something like this happened in your life and you are missing this person?

Other Questions:

What time do you go to bed at night?

What do you eat at night?

How much water intake do you have during the day?

Have you been avoiding seeing your doctor about something?

These are just questions. God is going to get to the bottom of this for you. He loves you just that much and more.

Oh! And someone has been praying for you, someone in your life who really and truly cares and has 'picked up' on how you've been feeling lately. It's someone close other than your Mom.

Let's see where God is leading in this. Let's see what the Lord is trying to tell us.