MamitaLolita
Well-Known Member
Its been literally years since I've been in a relationship and after awhile I stopped looking. Finally I found the person who really might be 'the one'. I've never made it this far in a relationship. We've met each others parents and we travel to see each other (he lives hours away). I finally feel like I've met someone I can be myself around.
Things started great but they've been going downhill.
I frequently find myself pulling away. He tells me I'm beautiful every day but I still feel unattractive. I constantly compare myself to his friends who are always incredibly gorgeous. I feel like they look at me funny, like 'wtf is he dating'. When I tell him my insecurities, he comforts me, but lately he tells me that my insecureness is pushing him away when I voice my feelings. So I've stopped talking to him about it. But then it builds up inside me and Idon't want to talk to him atall. He tells me this is something I need to fight and get over, but it's only gotten worse with time and distance makes it even harder since we only get to see each other a couple times a month.
I've been cheated on and treated very badly in the past and it's starting to all catch up to me. I never felt as insecure in a relationship as I do now just because I supposed I'm 'damaged'. I feel like i don't deserve him and eventually he'll realize how unattractive I am.
I've been fighting it but it's a losing battle. What should I do?
Ever since he told me that I'm pushing him away I've been pulling away myself even harder. To spare my feelings I guess. I just can't afford to get hurt again.
Things started great but they've been going downhill.
I frequently find myself pulling away. He tells me I'm beautiful every day but I still feel unattractive. I constantly compare myself to his friends who are always incredibly gorgeous. I feel like they look at me funny, like 'wtf is he dating'. When I tell him my insecurities, he comforts me, but lately he tells me that my insecureness is pushing him away when I voice my feelings. So I've stopped talking to him about it. But then it builds up inside me and Idon't want to talk to him atall. He tells me this is something I need to fight and get over, but it's only gotten worse with time and distance makes it even harder since we only get to see each other a couple times a month.
I've been cheated on and treated very badly in the past and it's starting to all catch up to me. I never felt as insecure in a relationship as I do now just because I supposed I'm 'damaged'. I feel like i don't deserve him and eventually he'll realize how unattractive I am.
I've been fighting it but it's a losing battle. What should I do?
Ever since he told me that I'm pushing him away I've been pulling away myself even harder. To spare my feelings I guess. I just can't afford to get hurt again.