I can identify with you on this. Sometimes I find myself being indecisive. I have discovered the root of it and its quite simple for me...its fear. Fear of making the wrong decision. Fear of building expectation only to be disappointed. Fear of limiting myself to one option when their may be a better option. Its fear and fear is paralyzing.
Read this snippet of an article below and maybe it will help you understand a bit more:
1. Indecisiveness
Indecisiveness is the inability to take a reasonable risk, to make a decision in a timely manner with limited information. The classic image is the 35-year-old guy who can't commit to marrying his girlfriend of three years, but the pattern generally extends to other areas, like church membership or employment.
Commitment involves the cost of investment, the creation of expectations on the part of others who can then be disappointed, and, at least in the case of
church membership, lifestyle and even financial implications.
Regardless of the context, to make a decision is to
intentionally limit oneself from other, potentially good options. As a single guy, it was a challenge to think of
marrying the woman God had clearly given me, since I would no longer have the option to pursue the women I
might meet someday.
An indecisive man is recognizable by a perpetual inability to make and keep commitments — a failure to "swear to his own hurt and not change" (Ps. 15:4). A decisive person, by contrast, can choose what he loves, and later (when the going gets tough) nurture the love he previously chose.
Indecisiveness renders significant accomplishment (and the deep joy that often comes with it) out of reach. It hinders our progress in the Christian life, because God calls us to steward our gifts and talents. Non-growth is not an option.
The Fruit of Immaturity