Kinkyhairlady
Well-Known Member
A past love? In my case it's someone I used to communicate with who was in another country and I never ended up going to meet him. He ended getting married 2 years ago and came to the states about 9 months ago. Well he contacted me even if we basically have had no communication for 2 years and wanted to meet me face to face. I know he's married and I should have declined but part of me wanted closure because I've been hurt by all that he did and I wanted to see what was I really missing out on. Well I went and we laid everything out on the table. He pretty put the blame on me saying that I did not make the effort to travel for several years we kept talking but no actions were being made. He then went on to say I could of had a good husband but I let fear stop me from coming to meet him.
I went home still sadden and right now I feel so upset with myself and decisions in life. Meeting with him did help because I wanted for us to hash things out but a part of me has major regrets not traveling to meet him. I can tell I would have fallen for him had I given it a chance. It seems these past few years he's been keeping track of how I've been and me I've just be heartbroken that he got married. I am seeing someone now that I don't even feel measures up but I don't know yet. I need to let go but I keep blaming myself
Fear sometimes makes us lose out on opportunities in life. I'm still working on not letting fear control me.
I went home still sadden and right now I feel so upset with myself and decisions in life. Meeting with him did help because I wanted for us to hash things out but a part of me has major regrets not traveling to meet him. I can tell I would have fallen for him had I given it a chance. It seems these past few years he's been keeping track of how I've been and me I've just be heartbroken that he got married. I am seeing someone now that I don't even feel measures up but I don't know yet. I need to let go but I keep blaming myself
Fear sometimes makes us lose out on opportunities in life. I'm still working on not letting fear control me.