Hair Confused...

[CoCoEspresso]

As the title states, I am just not sure where I want to go with my hair.

Right now, I am relaxed, collar bone length, and currently on a 16-week stretch. I have been wearing back to back sew-in weaves since December, and am now rocking a wig. I am on a self-imposed bootcamp. In order to realize my hair goals, I need to return to full-time protective styling. I decided that I will not be wearing my hair out until I reach my goals as punishment for not taking care of my hair (at least by my/LHCF) standards.

Anywho, during my lunchbreak I returned home to get something and had to readjust my wig. I wear a baggy underneath everyday (it's that intense yall), and I took it off and I inspected my hair. I was soo in love with my natural texture. I couldn't believe it.

I immediately was saddened because I thought that I should try transitioning. Last week at a party I saw a girl with natural hair that looked to be about my texture, and it was soooo cute on her. She had it in the cutest puff, and her outfit was cute as well. I immediately thought, "Damn, that could be me." About 2 years ago, I transitioned for well over year with braids, and by the time I took the last set out, I was about 80% natural. For 3 months, I tried wearing my out. The problem was that my shrinkage was out of this world, and I would straighten it constantly. For the health of my hair, I relaxed because I thought that that would be better than using high heat every week.

Now, a year and a half later, I'm like . I simply adore natural hair, but the reason that I have not committed to transitioning is because I'm so impatient. I want my hair long yesterday, and I have never had my hair past this length. I really want to reach my goal length relaxed, and then transition. I just don't want to start over. I'm too scared.

Has anyone felt this way before?

 

[lana]

Hi there, I'm sure many ladies have felt the exact same way. I know I was natural for years thanks to LHCF and did that successfully but I wanted to wear my hair straight most of the time, so finally I decided to texlax 3-4 times a year. It's been the best of both worlds. I can wear my hair curly with less shrinkage (which I barely EVER do) or I can wear it straight with WAY less heat (which I do almost 90% of the time). It's great! Have you ever considered texlaxing?

Also there is no need to punish yourself. Hair is just hair, it grows, we cut it and guess what? It grows back. It's just hair and it's our choice how we wear it. Do your thang!

 

[CoCoEspresso]

Hi there, I'm sure many ladies have felt the exact same way. I know I was natural for years thanks to LHCF and did that successfully but I wanted to wear my hair straight most of the time, so finally I decided to texlax 3-4 times a year. It's been the best of both worlds. I can wear my hair curly with less shrinkage (which I barely EVER do) or I can wear it straight with WAY less heat (which I do almost 90% of the time). It's great! Have you ever considered texlaxing?

Also there is no need to punish yourself. Hair is just hair, it grows, we cut it and guess what? It grows back. It's just hair and it's our choice how we wear it. Do your thang!

Thanks, I'm just gonna go with the flow. I will be visiting the hair dresser for the first time in nearly two years in July for a retouch. I will treat myself to a week of enjoying my own hair, then after that it's wigged up. I will relax again after that in November. Maybe I just want to see my own hair again. The temptation is always there to transition though. I'm just too damned lazy to do it .