Shinka.... The ladies in this thread have poured so much love into you. And it is proof positive that God loves you so very, very much.I'm really frustrated today. I feel like I've been praying, and I had the honest talk with God and I've read some helpful scripture ( especially Psalm 25). I still feel lost, depressed, and sad. Anxiety is really getting a hold of me. I keep asking God to help me. I hear nothing but my own thoughts.
My thoughts: I don't know if I should trust them or not. I was talking to my brother yesterday and he told me to just be joyous and think of all the people who are worst off.
The mentality and thought process doesn't help me. Of course there are people in worst situations and there always will be no matter how low at the bottom one is. I'm not in their situation. I'm in my situation, and I need help and it's too much for me right now.
Anyway, I need to vent and I feel like I've been venting to God and nothing is happening. Off to the psychriatrist to spend my last few dollars on a copay and medicine. Maybe once my mind quiets itself, I can hear.
I just read this post of yours and it never occurred to me until a few moments ago to ask you about your diet?
All this time, the enemy has had you bound with a 'spirit of depression'. And this is one of his greatest weapons of warfare against the Body of Christ. And that's what this has been all along. Angel you haven't forsaken the God who loves you. Instead, you been attacked and bound and satan has clouded your view with his lies and illusions of being separated from God.
satan has used people, places and things to grip you and to hold you captive from flowing in the things of God which we as Christians, God's beloved children, have been so greatly endowed with.
Shinka, your love for the Lord never died, you've been with Him all along, heart, body and soul and whole being. Your heart has been faithful to the Lord all this time and you haven't turned your back on Him.
In a spirit of depression there is always hopelessness and feelings of abandon and a thick empty void of lost hope and despair. Shinka, I've been there. I've been there...
One of the triggers that satan uses to fuel despression is Diet. It is a scientific fact that Diet has an extreme effect upon depression.
Staying in the 'Word', Prayer, Praise and Worship, and Christian Fellowship, and asking God to place the right people into your life to calm your spirit, is more key than ever, for the Holy Spirit will be able to direct you with pivotal changes, in your Diet which can help alleviate the symptoms and what satan has been using to his advantage over you.
Fruits, raw vegetables, Daily Multi-Vitamin, Vitamin B's, and Omega 3 oils (Cod Liver Oil is Excellent). Our bodies require a balance of nutrients to not just help us physically, but emotionally. Derpression and Anti-Depression medications deplete the body of the precious minerals and vitamins needed for optimal health and healing.
Your body is trying to heal itsself and it may not have the nutritional resources to pull from. This is the 'back and forth' syndrom of trying to force yourself to 'do right'.
Serotonin is key. Eating bananas, tomatoes, greens (spinach, brocoli) are natural ways to build our Serotonin levels.
Here are some websites which may help you.
http://naturalmedicine.suite101.com/article.cfm/depression_and_food
http://www.overcoming-depression.com/depression-diet.html
http://yourtotalhealth.ivillage.com/depression-relief-diet.html?pageNum=1
There's more to this and you don't need an overload of facts and figures. I'm hoping that this will help you in some way.
I am in prayerful agreement to commit this all to the Lord and He will surely direct your paths. He'll do so for His namesake and He'll do it for your sake, because you are just that special to Him. Indeed you are.
You are at Peace, Shinka. God's peace and the peace that God gave you can NEVER be taken away. You will always have it. Always and forever.