thatscuteright
Well-Known Member
I know that you might need the background, but what is your impression and what do you get from this:
I cannot follow through with pain, no marriage, and poor decisions that are not my own in my private life.
Nothing's worse than appearing like the best in the world, not producing for superiors, and feeling bad because of no marriage, pain, and bad decisions. Instead of being assessed as ok, those above me think failure. Mediocre results from someone as gifted as me is like dropping someone off a cliff. High expectations+Prejudice+Mediocre Results (from pain, no marriage, bad decisions not my own)+ = People Who Think They Can do Mistreat me Without Consequence!?
When I loose in this way, it takes a piece of me. Because I knew how to succeed, guided my personal life properly, but was ignored; resulting in that which I was trying to prevent-failure, pain, no marriage!
I cannot follow through with pain, no marriage, and poor decisions that are not my own in my private life.
Nothing's worse than appearing like the best in the world, not producing for superiors, and feeling bad because of no marriage, pain, and bad decisions. Instead of being assessed as ok, those above me think failure. Mediocre results from someone as gifted as me is like dropping someone off a cliff. High expectations+Prejudice+Mediocre Results (from pain, no marriage, bad decisions not my own)+ = People Who Think They Can do Mistreat me Without Consequence!?
When I loose in this way, it takes a piece of me. Because I knew how to succeed, guided my personal life properly, but was ignored; resulting in that which I was trying to prevent-failure, pain, no marriage!