Why do I feel this way?

[DonnaDi31Proverbi]

How do I fight this feeling? The past month or so, there's been a heaviness on me, like a dark cloud over my head. Despite finally feeling like things are at least starting to head in the direction I feel they should be, I think I'm one of those people who "can't win for losing". I have a great job that I start Jan 2, but I lost the job that I was working a week ago, the day before I was going to give my two week notice and this has financially hurt me. Things in general have been that way for me for awhile now. I'm so fed up and tired of constantly being down, but I don't know how to get out of it. My boyfriend had a mini-intervention with me last night on the phone, and so I know that the way I am right now is affecting other people. I don't want to hang out with my friends, I barely want to get up and get dressed for the day. I have crying spells and I can't shake this sadness. I took two quizzes on depression symptoms and both say I may be severely depressed, but I don't want to believe thats what is happening.

Interestingly enough, God gave me a revelation about why I have those feelings about not wanting to go out to the clubs and other non-Christian activities with my friends (who are Christians also). And what I got clarity on was the only reason I want to do these worldly things is because I'm spiritually unproductive. I don't really have the desire to do worldly things because I know it doesn't have a place in my Christian life/growth, but because I haven't filled my longing to do something of substance with substance (the Word, Church, etc.), I remain unfulfilled and trying to find secular pleasure. I hope that made sense. I know God has a ministry in me, something more that he wants of me, but I can't get myself out of this rut and into enjoying my blessings because I'm constantly comparing my life with that of my more successful friends and all.

Sisters in Christ, I just need some encouragement/prayer/advice. Sorry for the long rant.

 

[Ms.Honey]

Hi,
Do you have any Christian friends who are actually living as Christians? Being unequally yoked causes a "pulling down, dragged down feeling". If you are growing spiritually and they are still playing around in the world (crossing back and forth over the Jordan) they become a weight to you.

You can NOT grow past the company you keep. You will not cause them to do better if you continue to be yoked to them but they will pull you down and cause you to fall/fail. Sometimes you have to end friendships for you friends benefit also. Sometimes we hinder them from seeing Jesus because we're standing in the way.

Are you living holy, completely holy or is there something that you're partaking in that you're struggling to stop or remove from your life? Disobedience can also cause dispair.

Also stopping sin isn't enough. You have to replace it with good stuff, good works. Paying your tithe, giving your offerings and sowing alms are vital to your obedience and fulfillment. Joining the ministry in your church that God has told you He needs you to join. Fellowshipping with like-minded, equally yoked saints to stregthen and encourage each other in the Lord, filling your mind with the Word of God, listening to gospel music etc. You also need some stuff for leisure like going to art galleries, museums, finding a favorite author and getting some really good books etc. to replace the ungodly. A bored Christian is a Christian on the verge of backsliding.

 

[preciouzone]

Hi Donna,

Somehow I feel that you already know what to do. The revelation
that you stated that you received from God is a great starting point
in realizing what's not working in your life and what you can start doing
now in order for things to change. I heard an evangelist mention some
time ago that God can not begin to use you or even bless you if you
continue on holding on to things and people that may be hindering you
from moving forward.

Many ladies have recommended this book by Joyce Meyers called "The
Battlefield of the Mind". I just finished it and this book is amazing...
One of the girls here gave a testimony of how this book helped her
eliminate her depression. And I believe that this book will help you
understand why you are feeling such heaviness and dark cloud over
your head and answer questions that you may have been asking concerning your life.

I'll definitely keep you in my prayers as well.

God bless,

*Preciouzone

How do I fight this feeling? The past month or so, there's been a heaviness on me, like a dark cloud over my head. Despite finally feeling like things are at least starting to head in the direction I feel they should be, I think I'm one of those people who "can't win for losing". I have a great job that I start Jan 2, but I lost the job that I was working a week ago, the day before I was going to give my two week notice and this has financially hurt me. Things in general have been that way for me for awhile now. I'm so fed up and tired of constantly being down, but I don't know how to get out of it. My boyfriend had a mini-intervention with me last night on the phone, and so I know that the way I am right now is affecting other people. I don't want to hang out with my friends, I barely want to get up and get dressed for the day. I have crying spells and I can't shake this sadness. I took two quizzes on depression symptoms and both say I may be severely depressed, but I don't want to believe thats what is happening.

Interestingly enough, God gave me a revelation about why I have those feelings about not wanting to go out to the clubs and other non-Christian activities with my friends (who are Christians also). And what I got clarity on was the only reason I want to do these worldly things is because I'm spiritually unproductive. I don't really have the desire to do worldly things because I know it doesn't have a place in my Christian life/growth, but because I haven't filled my longing to do something of substance with substance (the Word, Church, etc.), I remain unfulfilled and trying to find secular pleasure. I hope that made sense. I know God has a ministry in me, something more that he wants of me, but I can't get myself out of this rut and into enjoying my blessings because I'm constantly comparing my life with that of my more successful friends and all.

Sisters in Christ, I just need some encouragement/prayer/advice. Sorry for the long rant.

 

[Aviah]

Try spending a little time with God in the morning each day. Read the word, ask him to prepare you for where you need to go, read the word, not only read, but understand. It doesnt have to be in the morning, (it should be throughout the day also) but some time set aside for God each day is important for growth. I personally have seen what thing are like in my life when I am consistent with God, versus inconsistent (not to say that you are). His word says seek first the kingdom of God and its righteousness and all the things you need or worry about will be added to you. (Matthew 6:33). Lay your burdens on him... I'm praying for you right now

 

[gn1g]

A bored Christian is a Christian on the verge of backsliding.

wow!


Don't forget the praise and worship, God's answer to heaviness.

 

[chicacanella]

I don't know what is going on with me. I talked about how God told me that the text message from this guy was a distaction from the enemy. You know I have been pressing in on the Lord and seeking his face, his kingdom and baptism of the holy spirit.

Everything was going so well for me until I received this phone call. I didn't answer it but now, last night I began to feel really sad. I thought the call hadn't affected me until I realize that I have started to think about things I've done in my past which God has forgiven me for. I began to feel sad because I was thinking, "Every guy I ever dealt with has only wanted to use me." It made me really sad. I started dwelling on, "Why can't they just love me for me and not what they can get from me?" It's just sad to know that they just want to use me all the time, it's always about sex or their selfish pleasure.

I'm going to go home and pray cause' this is so not like me. Just thinking about it hurts but I know that they are in the world and don't know any better. I think, "Why God, why are men always trying to use me? What have I done to make them think they can get away with mistreating me?" I mean, it is in the past when I wasn't at the level that I am now but just to think that the men I encounter are always plotting.

I am content by myself and being alone cause' God makes me happy. I just wish I wouldn't meet these men who try and use me all the time.

 

[Ms.Honey]

I don't know what is going on with me. I talked about how God told me that the text message from this guy was a distaction from the enemy. You know I have been pressing in on the Lord and seeking his face, his kingdom and baptism of the holy spirit.

Everything was going so well for me until I received this phone call. I didn't answer it but now, last night I began to feel really sad. I thought the call hadn't affected me until I realize that I have started to think about things I've done in my past which God has forgiven me for. I began to feel sad because I was thinking, "Every guy I ever dealt with has only wanted to use me." It made me really sad. I started dwelling on, "Why can't they just love me for me and not what they can get from me?" It's just sad to know that they just want to use me all the time, it's always about sex or their selfish pleasure.

I'm going to go home and pray cause' this is so not like me. Just thinking about it hurts but I know that they are in the world and don't know any better. I think, "Why God, why are men always trying to use me? What have I done to make them think they can get away with mistreating me?" I mean, it is in the past when I wasn't at the level that I am now but just to think that the men I encounter are always plotting.

I am content by myself and being alone cause' God makes me happy. I just wish I wouldn't meet these men who try and use me all the time.

Like you said yourself hon, they are in the world. Try not to be offended because they really know not what they do. Neither did you when you slept with them. The Lord couldn't send you anyone fit because you weren't fit for a godly mate. You are moving towards that place now. Once you finish allowing Jesus to heal you, the Lord will send you godly MEN (as in more than one) to fellowship with and if you decide that you want to, eventually marry. Just be patient and enjoy the process and alone time with Jesus while you can because once you marry and have kids.........

 

[**Tasha*Love**]

Wonderful words Ms Honey!

Sometimes reflecting on the past can be hurtful and will bring alot of condemnation that is unnecessary. Chicacanella you endured those worldy men and now I am sure that you can recognize the fake ones with ease. We all have to endure lessons that hurtful but are always for our good. God loves you so much that he wants you to see the person that he has for you when the time is right. You won't be able to do that if your eyes are blinded with false love. I am sorry that you have been mistreated at the hands of no good jerks but I thank God you are out of harms way!

Its OK to review the lessons of your past but don't let the hurt linger for too long. Your past is the past, let it stay in the past. Always Remember Lots Wife - looking back caused her to become a pillar of salt.

Passage Genesis 19:26:
26But Lot’s wife, behind him, looked back, and she became(A) a pillar of salt.

Like you said yourself hon, they are in the world. Try not to be offended because they really know not what they do. Neither did you when you slept with them. The Lord couldn't send you anyone fit because you weren't fit for a godly mate. You are moving towards that place now. Once you finish allowing Jesus to heal you, the Lord will send you godly MEN (as in more than one) to fellowship with and if you decide that you want to, eventually marry. Just be patient and enjoy the process and alone time with Jesus while you can because once you marry and have kids.........

 

[Duchesse]

I don't know what is going on with me. I talked about how God told me that the text message from this guy was a distaction from the enemy. You know I have been pressing in on the Lord and seeking his face, his kingdom and baptism of the holy spirit.

Everything was going so well for me until I received this phone call. I didn't answer it but now, last night I began to feel really sad. I thought the call hadn't affected me until I realize that I have started to think about things I've done in my past which God has forgiven me for. I began to feel sad because I was thinking, "Every guy I ever dealt with has only wanted to use me." It made me really sad. I started dwelling on, "Why can't they just love me for me and not what they can get from me?" It's just sad to know that they just want to use me all the time, it's always about sex or their selfish pleasure.

I'm going to go home and pray cause' this is so not like me. Just thinking about it hurts but I know that they are in the world and don't know any better. I think, "Why God, why are men always trying to use me? What have I done to make them think they can get away with mistreating me?" I mean, it is in the past when I wasn't at the level that I am now but just to think that the men I encounter are always plotting.

I am content by myself and being alone cause' God makes me happy. I just wish I wouldn't meet these men who try and use me all the time.

Chicanella, , I could have written this entire post word for word.

 

[chicacanella]

Like you said yourself hon, they are in the world. Try not to be offended because they really know not what they do. Neither did you when you slept with them. The Lord couldn't send you anyone fit because you weren't fit for a godly mate. You are moving towards that place now. Once you finish allowing Jesus to heal you, the Lord will send you godly MEN (as in more than one) to fellowship with and if you decide that you want to, eventually marry. Just be patient and enjoy the process and alone time with Jesus while you can because once you marry and have kids.........

Thanks Ms. Honey. This was something temporary I guess...just an effect of being human. But I went to the bathroom and prayed cause' being a child of God, I should have peace that passeth all understanding. I went and reflected on the Word of God and the passages to lean not to your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him. So, even though I've been hurt before I am not going to try and understand it but acknowledge that no matter what God loves me.

As soon as I started reading his Word, I felt relief...my mood had lifted. I also reflected on the scripture, "All things work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose." So even though the enemy tried to make these situations bring me down, it made me even stronger and I am a better woman because of it.

 

[chicacanella]

Can't believe what I found...this Word spoke to me directly.

4Fear not; for thou shalt not be ashamed: neither be thou confounded; for thou shalt not be put to shame: for thou shalt forget the shame of thy youth, and shalt not remember the reproach of thy widowhood any more.

Isaiah 54:4

May God bless someone through this Word.

 

[plainj]

Don't forget the praise and worship, God's answer to heaviness.

I was going to say the same thing.
"The spirit of heaviness cannot stay in the presence of the joy of the Lord, of praise to Jesus, or of rejoicing and thanksgiving to God. Instead, gladness and that inner peace which passes understanding will fill the mind and spirit of the person set free."

 

[cocochanty]

You should also have joy in knowing that you have been redeemed by the blood of Jesus. That in itself makes me happy. That God loved you so much that He sent His Holy Ghost to convict you of your sinful nature, and that sent you to your knees, crying "ABBA Father I need Your Begotten Son." Glory to God!!

 

[DonnaDi31Proverbi]

Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I've been feeling much better, reading, getting insight. Still have a ways to go and I know I always will, but that dark cloud is gone. I've had to remind myself of Romans 8:28 after something else happened, but I know its all in HIS hands, and I have so many other things to be thankful for, like cocochanty mentioned...SALVATION.

Please continue to pray for me. I sometimes feel like falling back into that overwhelming feeling, but I know where my strength lies when I have none (and even when I do).