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naturalgyrl5199 - My post was not meant for you to take personally. It was basically a vent on how I have felt over the years with respect to the Holy Bible and Christian religion as a whole.
I currently believe the Bible is the true Word of God and I see it as a guide for living. I really do not take everything literal as in applying everything that happened back then to today's time...I see some things as examples and pictures of how things should be, if that makes any sense. For example, animal sacrifices... we don't need to do animal sacrifices for sins because of Jesus' sacrifice on the cross for the punishment of our sins.
I do believe we cannot stop sinning physically in the flesh, but we must realize that there is only death in the law. There is no life. And the law is laid out in the bible in order to show us how filthy and unrighteous we truly are in the flesh.
Hebrews 10:26 says, "For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins."
James 2:10 says, "For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all."
I do not agree that God honors the one who falls/sins and then gets back up more than the one that does not fall/sin as much and doesn't get back up. I don't see how you find peace in that statement.
(I understand....But then can the prostitute who has had many sins ever be saved? Can the liar ever be saved? SCRATCH THAT: Can the one who confesses before the Lord all his sins, then a year later backslides once, should he waste time trying to repent for a slip-up? Or is he automatically doomed to hell? Does it mean the backslider lied from day one? I do believe no matter how many times you sin, ***IF YOU REPENT...with your WHOLE heart...and the LORD knows the difference...we humans do NOT***....you will be forgiven!) I believe that our salvation is based on our confession and heart-felt belief in Jesus as Lord and that God raised him from the dead
(Romans 10:9-10). How many times we sin and get back up does not matter. And I never felt like I needed nor wanted control over God's decision. I believe God is sovereign and only He gets the credit and glory in what happens in this world.
(I need to clarify: What I was saying is that, people will sin. Whenever you sin, repent and run away from it. I definitely am not talking about committing the SAME SIN 1000 times....no way! Thats reprobate mind! That was all. Being truly delivered from sin means you DO NOT commit that sin again. It doesn't mean you won't commit another (different) sin again. That's what I meant)
And it wasn't a matter of trying to wrack my brain over something I have no control over... it was a matter of denying myself and seeking the truths of God's Word. I for so long depended on the baptist church for my beliefs, and the teaching just was not cutting it for me as I got older and experienced more sin.
(Was the teachings leading you into sin? It may have just been your youth. You were raised in that church, so its normal to get of age and yearn for something deeper, and look for those missing links!) I kept thinking about how can I repent of a sin that I continue to do? And people would say that repentance is a daily thing and that God forgives us over and over, and I just could not believe that lie anymore.
(Good question. I don't think a person is truly delivered from that sin if they continue to commit THAT SIN. Maybe they were not talking about the SAME sin....but people don't clarify every statement every time. I would have asked them that....)
My questioning was of everything...the Bible, Christianity, and people's interpretation. After exploring other's interpretations and comparing them with each other, I can actually see where different interpretations come from. Most interpretations come from hidden agendas in order to keep the "man-made church" afloat (I am not talking about the Church which is the true Body of Christ that the bible speaks of).
(I understand that too....I will tell you what....You may find that church you love, after a while, they may say something you don't 100% agree with....but also remember---you'll be looking forever before you find a church that agrees and believes everything you agree with.....But its a journey, just a means to an end...)
I also never felt like I was subjected to what other people think. That's why I questioned it all to begin with. And I guess you don't worry or never worry about things? I guess you get a good nights sleep every night? To me, faith and figuring out what I believe is something serious to me. I am not about to just be gullible and believe anything and everything someone tells me.
(I definitely sleep well at night MOST DAYS. Ex: Sometimes I come back in prayer and after reflection of my day I realize I may have said something to a subordinate that may have hurt them or said something out of the way. I may have had a sinful thought or mean thought, and I will get down and repent and I won't get sleep sometimes until I do because I am convicted and I listen to what I am being told. Then I seek forgiveness from that employee....And yes if you feel convicted you should believe all of what you have been told.....But here is one way to think of it: You initial upbringing introduced Christ into your life, and your maturity and deeper understanding and desire to be closer to the Lord rather than just a superficial knowledge is taking you to another level! Taking it serious is the right thing to do.)
And being away from others is what I actually ended up doing a couple of years ago. I do not care about getting flack from others which is something I did receive and still do sometimes mainly from my father because I left his church. I just did not agree with the teachings/beliefs.
(Do you feel your father is leading his flock astray? Do you believe he is leading them INTO sin rather than away from it?)
And I don't waste my time arguing with others. I only discuss, ask questions, try to understand the other person, and share my views now. And I don't try to change people's minds because I am not totally set on my beliefs just yet.
(Ah! This is why you have so many questions!) However, yesterday I studied with a woman online which has really helped me understand the Bible even more and what to truly believe.
(It takes time. You will get there!)