msdentist2015
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Hello ladies!Decided to post this to the Christian forum specifically, but this is a free forum, and all view points are welcome. I’ve been engaged for almost a year and a half to a great man. This year has not been the easiest to say the least. With his mom’s passing in January, things were tough, but we got through that, as we knew it was coming. I’ve always had a pretty solid faith in God, but these days, I hate to say it, but I feel like my faith is waining significantly. The way I see it, God is “not a man that he should lie” and his words should line up.
We have done everything the “Christian” way, as one would say it. Well, FI got laid off from his job a day before his birthday in August. He has been looking for a position fervently since then-and I mean fervently. Over 200 job applications, maybe 25 interviews, and still, nothing. I am in school full time as a grad student, and currently interviewing for residency, a very costly and mentally taxing process, so I don’t really have much money to contribute to getting a place of our own, etc.
6 months ago, finances were not an issue, and now they are. I try to keep his spirits up, and encourage him, but to be honest, I am very discouraged myself. I understand that one must have faith, but it almost seems like just blind faith at this point. Am I even supposed to expect God to “do anything?” I really don’t know. His field is supposed to be a stable one, as he is in IT, but for some reason, cannot get hired. I have one more semester left till I get my doctorate so I cannot just up and move with him. He has tried even applying to positions that he is clearly overqualified for, and even they will not hire him. It seems employers have wisened up to the fact that well educated people will not stay at low paying jobs for long, and are not even willing to train one, if they know you deserve better than what they can offer. The only option at this point is for him, a well educated man with dual bachelor degrees to go work in retail for 12 dollars an hour or something. That's not even enough to put a roof over our heads.
Its looking like we either live apart, though married, or move in with parents, which I feel very uncomfortable doing. I don’t understand how God can claim that husbands and wives should live together and not provide the means for us to do so. I try not to think about this situation too much because I’ve just been very dissapointed with the way the last few months have played out. Its been nothing but constant worry about how we will support ourselves once married.
I’m trying not to be “dissapointed with God” but its hard to say I’m not, to be honest. I’m just not feeling like his words line up. Life just isnt that black and white, and I feel like I am making things happen for myself, because I can’t rely on God for anything really or miracles.Its all just the worst possible timing, and I just feel very bitter towards God. I’m not seeing his “provider” abilities, or making sense of anything that is happening.Anyways maybe I’m just venting, as I’m sure I need it, but any alternative views or comments are welcome.
We have done everything the “Christian” way, as one would say it. Well, FI got laid off from his job a day before his birthday in August. He has been looking for a position fervently since then-and I mean fervently. Over 200 job applications, maybe 25 interviews, and still, nothing. I am in school full time as a grad student, and currently interviewing for residency, a very costly and mentally taxing process, so I don’t really have much money to contribute to getting a place of our own, etc.
6 months ago, finances were not an issue, and now they are. I try to keep his spirits up, and encourage him, but to be honest, I am very discouraged myself. I understand that one must have faith, but it almost seems like just blind faith at this point. Am I even supposed to expect God to “do anything?” I really don’t know. His field is supposed to be a stable one, as he is in IT, but for some reason, cannot get hired. I have one more semester left till I get my doctorate so I cannot just up and move with him. He has tried even applying to positions that he is clearly overqualified for, and even they will not hire him. It seems employers have wisened up to the fact that well educated people will not stay at low paying jobs for long, and are not even willing to train one, if they know you deserve better than what they can offer. The only option at this point is for him, a well educated man with dual bachelor degrees to go work in retail for 12 dollars an hour or something. That's not even enough to put a roof over our heads.
Its looking like we either live apart, though married, or move in with parents, which I feel very uncomfortable doing. I don’t understand how God can claim that husbands and wives should live together and not provide the means for us to do so. I try not to think about this situation too much because I’ve just been very dissapointed with the way the last few months have played out. Its been nothing but constant worry about how we will support ourselves once married.
I’m trying not to be “dissapointed with God” but its hard to say I’m not, to be honest. I’m just not feeling like his words line up. Life just isnt that black and white, and I feel like I am making things happen for myself, because I can’t rely on God for anything really or miracles.Its all just the worst possible timing, and I just feel very bitter towards God. I’m not seeing his “provider” abilities, or making sense of anything that is happening.Anyways maybe I’m just venting, as I’m sure I need it, but any alternative views or comments are welcome.