Very discouraged

I wish I could grab you hug you so tightly.I know how you feel and I know I may be a unpopular poster but from what your sharing it may be time to release some things in your life in order to stop the unrest.
I'm no super spritual christian but I know that why things in my life that shouldn't be things crop up to get my attention.I have had jobs that I hated and I would become so ill.I would often be physically sick and once I was no longer there fired by the way my issues stopped.

Maybe its time to take a leap of faith and step out.Is God telling your something you dont want to hear about your career path.And don't allow folks who aren't willing to step out tell you anything about your current issues.Some older folks believe you should just brush it off and that bc you got a good job you should be happy..but when you go home and your soul won't rest then its another beast.

Love you hun feel better.
 
I don't think that this career is worth it...I'm in healthcare and when I'm looking back over my adult life, I'm really looking at how many sacrifices I have made for this and it just doesn't seem to be worth it. Depression, anxiety, weight gain, lack of relationships (friendships, other relationships), cannot go to church on a regular basis or Bible study due to work/fatigue, too tired to work out, new health problems, all of this in pursuits of a career. Maybe I'm not just managing my time well but anytime I try to take off some time to do some of these things to better myself, something in my career/schooling goes awry.

I'm wondering is this the life that God really wants for me. Just to walk each day in fear and anxiety and not being able to do anything. Whenever I tell family they say God has blessed you with this, you don't know what I had to deal with as a black person back in the day you have it so much better, you need to stop letting this and that affect you. Thats just not it. But it doesn't even matter though because I'm trapped in this situation for several reasons.

I mean I do have interactions where I feel like I'm being an impact to people's lives and I feel like I'm being a blessing to other people. But I'm questioning is this worth me sacrificing my physical and mental health. I'm trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong. I'm not looking for advice or a solution, but just some prayer I guess. I don't know.

The bold says a lot. I pray that you would live in the reality of God's Kingdom, which is righteousness, joy, and peace in the Holy Spirit.
 
Praying for God's peace and no longer shall you been anxious for your honest feelings about this.

Not everyone is called to the career you're in. It's not a sin that you are unhappy there. You may simply be out of place and the stirring you feel is the key ... God's permission... to release you to move on where you will not only be at peace and happy, but you will be 'called'.

Make room for the one who belongs there and room for you to be where you will be at peace. You've done nothing wrong feeling as you do; it's simply the Truth rising to the surface to set you free where you should be instead.

Love and hugs to you, precious one. :bighug:
 
I'm late reading...but I understand. Everybody's "slavery" is relative. What abuses another could endure might not be the ones you can. G-d does definitely care and this might be the impetus designed for this point in time for you to see where G-d might be leading you. Feel no guilt over your dissatisfaction and don't allow others to make you feel you are being unappreciative of your blessings. If we pray for you, can you likewise pray for others right there beside you, feeling the very same things? It might make this process more bearable in knowing there are those who comprehend and that you are not going to be left lonely in this. :bighug:
 
Thank you all for the prayers and kind words. There are absolutely many that I know in my same stage in training who are feeling the same way and we need to pray for each other as well. I think this is a combination of burnout and a series of events recently that has made me question this so much. Regardless of what I do, I need to get my priorities straight and seek God for some answers and the peace that I know is available. Thanks once again.
 
Praying for God's peace and no longer shall you been anxious for your honest feelings about this.

Not everyone is called to the career you're in. It's not a sin that you are unhappy there. You may simply be out of place and the stirring you feel is the key ... God's permission... to release you to move on where you will not only be at peace and happy, but you will be 'called'.

Make room for the one who belongs there and room for you to be where you will be at peace. You've done nothing wrong feeling as you do; it's simply the Truth rising to the surface to set you free where you should be instead.

Love and hugs to you, precious one. :bighug:

So I have been doing much better since this time. I think this post came from a combination of a family death, dealing with a very ungodly atmosphere day in and day out and lack of sleep. But the reason why I'm attaching this post is because I guess it nagged at me for a while. I DO feel like I was called to this career and thats why I chose it. But my question is, I don't think ANYONE is called to work sooo many hours a week and neglect their health (lack of sleep, eating properly) and home life. But that is what is required of many specialties in the field. And this is the norm. I mean there are some people who work 100+ hours a week now and don't even know their kids. And they are fine with that, especially if it means that they be the top this and that, get research published, get recognition, etc. I don't feel that that is what God requires when he calls us to a career. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe some people can multitask more than I can, survive off less sleep and balance their outside life better. But throughout this year I have come into contact with so many people in this field who talk about missing so many important things in their families with a sense of deep regret, while others embrace being a workaholic and love the satisfaction of getting to the top regardless of neglecting outside responsibilities. I don't want to be in either category. So currently I have chosen a specialty where I will be doing what I feel that I was called to do, but has enough flexibility so that I will be able to get back to doing some things that I love, especially some church activities that I have had to give up while in training. Still praying that this will all work out.

This is just a constant struggle for me and my Christian friends who have decided to pursue this field.

But I do admit...I really re-evaluated myself after this post. And realized alot of the time I "thought" I didn't have was time being wasted...playing on the internet, oversleeping to avoid reality, talking to people out of loneliness. I do have time to get in my Word, cook, and workout to improve my wellbeing. I've started getting back in the Word and it has made a world of difference.

Once again thanks Shimmie, and thanks for all the other responses.
 
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So I have been doing much better since this time.

I think this post came from a combination of a family death, dealing with a very ungodly atmosphere day in and day out and lack of sleep.

But the reason why I'm attaching this post is because I guess it nagged at me for a while. I DO feel like I was called to this career and thats why I chose it.

But my question is, I don't think ANYONE is called to work sooo many hours a week and neglect their health (lack of sleep, eating properly) and home life. But that is what is required of many specialties in the field. And this is the norm. I mean there are some people who work 100+ hours a week now and don't even know their kids. And they are fine with that, especially if it means that they be the top this and that, get research published, get recognition, etc. I don't feel that that is what God requires when he calls us to a career.

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe some people can multitask more than I can, survive off less sleep and balance their outside life better.

But throughout this year I have come into contact with so many people in this field who talk about missing so many important things in their families with a sense of deep regret, while others embrace being a workaholic and love the satisfaction of getting to the top regardless of neglecting outside responsibilities.

I don't want to be in either category. So currently I have chosen a specialty where I will be doing what I feel that I was called to do, but has enough flexibility so that I will be able to get back to doing some things that I love, especially some church activities that I have had to give up while in training. Still praying that this will all work out.

This is just a constant struggle for me and my Christian friends who have decided to pursue this field.

But I do admit...I really re-evaluated myself after this post. And realized alot of the time I "thought" I didn't have was time being wasted...playing on the internet, oversleeping to avoid reality, talking to people out of loneliness.

I do have time to get in my Word, cook, and workout to improve my wellbeing. I've started getting back in the Word and it has made a world of difference.

Once again thanks Shimmie, and thanks for all the other responses.

I'm so glad you're feeling better now. You just need someone to listen.

Stay strong and always know that you are blessed. I admire you for taking on such a demanding position. I wish nothing but God's Best and His favour and blessings to always be upon you and that your heart will always be at peace and your mind will know which direction to flow.

:bighug:
 
Just wanted to encourage you... I have so much admiration and respect for people in the healthcare field, who are gifted by God with the love, care and patience to save lives. I'm glad it's all working out well for you!

:bighug:
 
Im praying for you DreamLife *hugs*

ETA: Praise the Lord!! I just read a comment that things are better now. I should have read the thread first. Im glad youre feeling better
 
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