Irresistible
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Facing possible Breast Cancer, In warfare for her healing she rambled as she wrote desperate to renew her faith in the face of such darkness, and she indeed was..... ME
Saturday October 14, 2006 - 12:24pm (PDT)
I HAVE SEEN HIS GRACE, I HAVE BEEN GIVEN HIS MERCY
I SHALL NOT COUNT THOSE TIMES
IT WAS NEEDED, IT ALWAYS WILL BE NEEDED
I HAVE BEEN SHOWERED IN HIS LOVE
AND
chastening
*OUCH*
I LIVE IN HIS FAVOR
IT IS UPON ME
NONE CAN TAKE IT
NONE
THEY WOULD IF THEY COULD
THEY CANNNOT
THEY CANT DENY IT
ALTHOUGH SOME MAY TRY
'FOOLISHLY'
I AM HIS CHILD
HE HAS CALLED ME
NOT ONLY THAT
HE CHOSE ME
LITTLE OLE ME
I HAVE SEEN HIS DELIEVERANCE MIGHTY DELIVERANCE
HE IS ALL POWERFULL
LORD OF LORDS
I HAVE HEARD HIS VOICE
still
small
voice
URGENT
WHEN NEED BE
I AM HELD IN HIS HAND
THE HAIRS ON MY HEAD ARE COUNTED
BY HIM
I HAVE FELT HIS HEALING POWER
I HAVE COLIDED WITH MIRACLES
HUGE MIRACLES
ASTOUNDING MIRACLES
I HAVE SEEN HIS PROVISION
I HAVE SEEN HIM IN THE 11th HOUR
AND 59 SECONDS
HE LIKES THAT TIME
FOR SOME REASON
LOL
BUT
HE WAS THERE
FOR ME
LIL OLE 'ME
I HAVE FELT HIS UNCTION
SUBLTLE
AND
URGENT WHEN NEEDED
HE HAS LEAD ME
TO GO HERE,TO STAY THERE
TO LEAVE THIS PLACE
TO GO THAT PLACE
TO LET THIS GO,TO LET THAT GO
TO HOLD ON
TO ALLOW
TO NOT ALLOW
TO SPEAK
TO BE QUIET
TO CALL UPON THIS PERSON
TO NOT CALL UPON THAT PERSON
TO TAKE THIS STEP
TO STAND
TO WEEP
HE SAYS
"ITS OK MY CHILD"
AND TELLS ME WHEN
TO WEEP NO MORE
HE CALLS ME
TO LOVE, LOVE
AND LOVE SOME MORE
AND THEN
WHEN I THINK I GOT IT
HE SAYS LOVE MORE
AND MORE
AND
THEN SOME MORE
IN MY DARKEST HOURS
WHEN NOONE WAS THERE
AND ALL WERE POWERLESS
BUT HIM
HE WAS THERE
WITH ME
ALWAYS
HE HAS LET MY ENEMY
COME SO CLOSE
AS TO BE ABLE
TO SMELL HIS BREATH
HIS HOT BREATH
BREATHING DOWN MY NECK
TAUNTING ME
ATTEMPTING TO TORTURE ME
YET
I KNEW I COULD SAY
'YOU CAN DO NOTHING TO ME'
THAT HE HAS NOT PERMITTED
I CAN BOLDLY CALL HIM A LIAR
FROM HELL
"GET THEE BEHIND ME"
AND SHUT UP!
AND KNOW
THE LORDS WORDS
ALWAYS
COME TO PASS
ALWAYS
THAT SETTLES IT
I NEVER HAVE TO BELIEVE A LIE
FROM HELL
ONLY THE TRUTH
HE PRUNES ME AS A TREE
PULLING OFF THE DEAD LEAVES
REMOVING THAT WHICH DOES NOT BELONG
SETTING IN PLACE A PERSON
REMOVING A PERSON
A THING
HE MOVES
I GO
HE DOES NOT MOVE
I DO NOT MOVE
I SAY WOW LORD
IT HURT WHEN THIS PERSON DID THIS
OR THAT
ALOT
BUT I THINK
I LIKE THE PRUNING
IT HURTS
SEASONS CHANGE
THINGS FALL AWAY
BUT I AM THANKFULL
FOR NOW I SEE
THAT PERSON
OR THING
WAS
A DEAD LEAF
ON MY TREE
LOL
HE SAYS
"I CONTROL THE SEASONS"
BUT LORD IT LOOKED AS THOUGH
MY WHOLE TREE WOULD BE ROOTED UP
GEESH
THAT WAS HARD
TO COMPREHEND
BUT I SEE
MORE GREEN LEAVES
SPRINGING FORTH
SO PLEASE
ALWAYS PRUNE ME
HE SAYS
"I SHALL"
HE REFINES ME IN THE FIRE
ITS HOT
I CRY OUT
I LOOK
THROUGH THE TEARS
AND HE IS IN THE FIRE WITH ME
HE SEE'S GOLD
I SEE SMOKE
FLAMES
I HURT
I AM SCARED
HE IS THERE
THATS ALL THAT MATTERS
WHO LEFT
WHO DID WHAT
WHO DIDNT DO WHAT
HE IS WITH ME
THATS ALL THAT MATTERS
IN THE FIRE
HE
IS
WITH
ME
I AM BURNING
OR SO IT SEEMS
THEN
HE PULLS ME OUT
AND I AM SHINING
BRIGHTLY
'REFINED'
BUT LORD THAT WAS HOT!
OH MY GOD
IT WAS HARD
BUT THANK YOU
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
I KINDA LIKE THE FIRE
I THINK
I MEAN I SEE
THIS GOLD BEING FORMED
SURELY I DO
AND THERE IS NO DENYING
I AM
BETTER THAN BEFORE
THAT FIRE
"NO WORRIES YOU WILL SURELY
SEE THE FIRE AGAIN"
HE MOLDS ME
ON THE POTTER'S WHEEL
I AM HIS VESSEL
HE FIXES ALL THE CRACKS
WHERE WATER WOULD LEAK OUT
WHERE THE SUN WOULD CRACK IT
SO THAT I MAY HOLD
ALL THAT HE HAS FOR ME
AND BE ALL THAT HE HAS FOR ME TO BE
HE FILLS ME TO THE BRIM
NO
UNTIL I RUNNETH OVER
FEELS LIKE I WANNA RUN AWAY
BUT ALAS
I DONT
I NEVER DO
I SAY
OK
MOLD ME
UGHHHH
IT HURTS
THAT TOO LORD?
I MUST LET THAT GO
CHANGE THAT?
OK
SO BE IT
HELP ME
MANY TEARS ARE SHED
I CANNOT DO THIS APART FROM YOU
HE BENDS ME
HE SPINS ME
HE UPLIFTS ME
SHAKES EVERYTHING UP
HE TAKES ALL MY FOOTING
THAT I THINK CAN FIND HERE ON EARTH
THEN SETS ME BACK DOWN
OK
WHEW, LORD THAT WAS HARD!
GEESH
BUT
I LOVE THE POTTER'S WHEEL
UM, I THINK I DO
FOR I SEE
I AM MOLDED
INTO A NEW PERSON
MUCH BETTER
THAN BEFORE
"NO WORRIES MY CHILD YOU WILL SEE
THE POTTERS WHEEL AGAIN'
HE PUTS ME IN A BOAT AND SAYS "LETS GO TO THE OTHER SIDE'
OK
STORMS RAGE, AND RISE UP
BUT LORD
YOU SAID
*AHEM*
WHAT IN HELL IS GOING ON HERE?
AM I GOING TO DIE IN THIS BOAT?
"NO"
I SAID "LETS GO TO THE OTHER SIDE"
'THINKING'
OK WELL THAT MEANS
NO MATTER WHAT THIS LOOKS LIKE
FEELS LIKE
SEEMS LIKE
WHAT OTHERS THINK
OR SAY
IM GOING TO THE OTHER SIDE
'RIDING OUT THE STORM'
HE CALMS THE SEA
HE STILLS THE STORM
I SAY
LORD
I LIKE THE STORM
UM I THINK I DO
IT WAS UM , KINDA
COOL
LORD
WOW I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE
I DIDNT SEE YOU LORD
BUT
HERE
YOU ARE
WITH ME
AND LOOK
THE STORM
ITS GONE
WOW
YOU ARE SO POWERFULL
AND NOTHING AND NO ONE
HAS FINAL SAY
OVER YOU
HE SAYS
"NO WORRIES
I SEE MORE STORMS AHEAD
NOW YOU WILL KNOW
I AM WITH YOU IN THE STORM
I CONTROL THE STORM
I HAVE YOU ON MY WHEEL
FORMING YOU
MOLDING YOU
YOU ARE MINE
I STAND WITH YOU IN THE FIRE
TO REFINE YOU
YOUR SOUL IS MINE
NOTHING SHALL BY ANY MEANS HARM YOU
AND NOTHING CAN SEPERATE YOU FROM MY LOVE,
NOTHING"
YES LORD
WILL I EVER STOP HITTING THE FLOOR
WITH FEAR
WITH DOUBT
WITH WEARINESS?
WILL I GET IT?
WHY LORD? I ASK......
I KNOW THEM SUPER 'HOLY FOLKS' DONT ASK WHY
BUT I AM YOUR CHILD
I ASK WHY
BECAUSE
SOMETIMES
YOU ANSWER ME
EVEN THOUGH
BY NOW
I KNOW WHY
BECAUSE
I AM YOURS
AND BECAUSE
YOU SAID SO
NO MATTER WHO LEAVES, WHO STAYS
NO MATTER WHAT SEEMS 'LOST'
WHAT IS GAINED
WHAT MOUNTAINS I HAVE TO CLIMB
I AM
TRULY BLESSED
VERY BLESSED
AMAZINGLY BLESSED
MY CUP
MY APPEAR EMPTY
TO THE FOOLISH
AND UNWISE
OH
BUT IT DOES RUNNETH OVER
'BELIEVE THAT'!
AND SOMETIMES
ITS ME
THATS
FOOLISH
AND UNWISE
AND I SEE NOT
BUT THEN
HE LETS ME SEE
AGAIN
IT MATTERS NOT
THE SIGHT OF OTHERS
IF THEY ARE BLIND
THE WORDS OF OTHERS
IF THEY ONLY FILL THE ATMOSPHERE WITH
THEIR NOISE
LOUD
SELF RIGHTEOUS
NOISE
IT HURTS MY EARS
AND
MY HEART
BUT
I PRAY
I CAN AND WILL BE
PLEASING
IN YOUR SIGHT
ALONE
LORD
I WANT TO RUN
SOMETIMES
BUT
THERE IS NOWHERE FOR ME
TO GO
THERE IS NO ONE
NOTHING
I LOVE MORE
THERE IS NOTHING FOR ME
NOTHING HERE
GREATER
NOTHING
OF MORE WORTH TO MY SOUL
NOTHING
AND YOU HAVE BLESSED ME
WITH GREAT LOVE AROUND ME
BUT
IT ALL WILL
ALWAYS
FALL SHORT
ME TOO
I FALL SHORT
BUT
I LAY DOWN ALL
I MEAN ALL
FOR YOU
I DONT HAVE TO SAY IT
YOU WILL ASK IT
YOU WILL DEMAND IT
YOU ARE WORTHY
AND MY SOUL WILL FIGHT
BUT
MY WILL
WILL SLOWLY SURRENDER
MORE AND MORE
AS ALWAYS
TO YOURS
FOR YOU
AND
REALLY I KNOW
ITS FOR ME
FOR THERE IS NOTHING GREATER
AND I AM GREATLY BLESSED
I DO NOT MISTAKE THIS
ANYMORE
I AM BLESSED
AND I AM THANKFULL
THANK YOU LORD, FOR THE FIRE, THE POTTERS WHEEL, AND THE STORMS.
THEY ARE FOR MY OWN GOOD
SORRY FOR COMPLAING SO MUCH
HAHA
I KNOW
YOU DONT MIND
YOU KNOW ME
WHERE I AM
WHAT I FEEL
AND WHY
I HOPE TO SEE YOU MORE LORD
I WILL STOP LOOKING FOR YOU WITH MY FACE DOWN IN THE CARPET
SOMEHOW
HAHA
BUT WITH MY EYES LIFTED TO YOU
KNOWING FULL WELL
BY NOW
YOU ARE ABLE
TO CARRY ME
THROUGH
ALL THINGS
THE HITS& THE STORMS HAVE NO POWER OVER ME
BECAUSE
THEY HAVE NO POWER OVER YOU!!
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!
I SHALL NOT COUNT THOSE TIMES
IT WAS NEEDED, IT ALWAYS WILL BE NEEDED
I HAVE BEEN SHOWERED IN HIS LOVE
AND
chastening
*OUCH*
I LIVE IN HIS FAVOR
IT IS UPON ME
NONE CAN TAKE IT
NONE
THEY WOULD IF THEY COULD
THEY CANNNOT
THEY CANT DENY IT
ALTHOUGH SOME MAY TRY
'FOOLISHLY'
I AM HIS CHILD
HE HAS CALLED ME
NOT ONLY THAT
HE CHOSE ME
LITTLE OLE ME
I HAVE SEEN HIS DELIEVERANCE MIGHTY DELIVERANCE
HE IS ALL POWERFULL
LORD OF LORDS
I HAVE HEARD HIS VOICE
still
small
voice
URGENT
WHEN NEED BE
I AM HELD IN HIS HAND
THE HAIRS ON MY HEAD ARE COUNTED
BY HIM
I HAVE FELT HIS HEALING POWER
I HAVE COLIDED WITH MIRACLES
HUGE MIRACLES
ASTOUNDING MIRACLES
I HAVE SEEN HIS PROVISION
I HAVE SEEN HIM IN THE 11th HOUR
AND 59 SECONDS
HE LIKES THAT TIME
FOR SOME REASON
LOL
BUT
HE WAS THERE
FOR ME
LIL OLE 'ME
I HAVE FELT HIS UNCTION
SUBLTLE
AND
URGENT WHEN NEEDED
HE HAS LEAD ME
TO GO HERE,TO STAY THERE
TO LEAVE THIS PLACE
TO GO THAT PLACE
TO LET THIS GO,TO LET THAT GO
TO HOLD ON
TO ALLOW
TO NOT ALLOW
TO SPEAK
TO BE QUIET
TO CALL UPON THIS PERSON
TO NOT CALL UPON THAT PERSON
TO TAKE THIS STEP
TO STAND
TO WEEP
HE SAYS
"ITS OK MY CHILD"
AND TELLS ME WHEN
TO WEEP NO MORE
HE CALLS ME
TO LOVE, LOVE
AND LOVE SOME MORE
AND THEN
WHEN I THINK I GOT IT
HE SAYS LOVE MORE
AND MORE
AND
THEN SOME MORE
IN MY DARKEST HOURS
WHEN NOONE WAS THERE
AND ALL WERE POWERLESS
BUT HIM
HE WAS THERE
WITH ME
ALWAYS
HE HAS LET MY ENEMY
COME SO CLOSE
AS TO BE ABLE
TO SMELL HIS BREATH
HIS HOT BREATH
BREATHING DOWN MY NECK
TAUNTING ME
ATTEMPTING TO TORTURE ME
YET
I KNEW I COULD SAY
'YOU CAN DO NOTHING TO ME'
THAT HE HAS NOT PERMITTED
I CAN BOLDLY CALL HIM A LIAR
FROM HELL
"GET THEE BEHIND ME"
AND SHUT UP!
AND KNOW
THE LORDS WORDS
ALWAYS
COME TO PASS
ALWAYS
THAT SETTLES IT
I NEVER HAVE TO BELIEVE A LIE
FROM HELL
ONLY THE TRUTH
HE PRUNES ME AS A TREE
PULLING OFF THE DEAD LEAVES
REMOVING THAT WHICH DOES NOT BELONG
SETTING IN PLACE A PERSON
REMOVING A PERSON
A THING
HE MOVES
I GO
HE DOES NOT MOVE
I DO NOT MOVE
I SAY WOW LORD
IT HURT WHEN THIS PERSON DID THIS
OR THAT
ALOT
BUT I THINK
I LIKE THE PRUNING
IT HURTS
SEASONS CHANGE
THINGS FALL AWAY
BUT I AM THANKFULL
FOR NOW I SEE
THAT PERSON
OR THING
WAS
A DEAD LEAF
ON MY TREE
LOL
HE SAYS
"I CONTROL THE SEASONS"
BUT LORD IT LOOKED AS THOUGH
MY WHOLE TREE WOULD BE ROOTED UP
GEESH
THAT WAS HARD
TO COMPREHEND
BUT I SEE
MORE GREEN LEAVES
SPRINGING FORTH
SO PLEASE
ALWAYS PRUNE ME
HE SAYS
"I SHALL"
HE REFINES ME IN THE FIRE
ITS HOT
I CRY OUT
I LOOK
THROUGH THE TEARS
AND HE IS IN THE FIRE WITH ME
HE SEE'S GOLD
I SEE SMOKE
FLAMES
I HURT
I AM SCARED
HE IS THERE
THATS ALL THAT MATTERS
WHO LEFT
WHO DID WHAT
WHO DIDNT DO WHAT
HE IS WITH ME
THATS ALL THAT MATTERS
IN THE FIRE
HE
IS
WITH
ME
I AM BURNING
OR SO IT SEEMS
THEN
HE PULLS ME OUT
AND I AM SHINING
BRIGHTLY
'REFINED'
BUT LORD THAT WAS HOT!
OH MY GOD
IT WAS HARD
BUT THANK YOU
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
I KINDA LIKE THE FIRE
I THINK
I MEAN I SEE
THIS GOLD BEING FORMED
SURELY I DO
AND THERE IS NO DENYING
I AM
BETTER THAN BEFORE
THAT FIRE
"NO WORRIES YOU WILL SURELY
SEE THE FIRE AGAIN"
HE MOLDS ME
ON THE POTTER'S WHEEL
I AM HIS VESSEL
HE FIXES ALL THE CRACKS
WHERE WATER WOULD LEAK OUT
WHERE THE SUN WOULD CRACK IT
SO THAT I MAY HOLD
ALL THAT HE HAS FOR ME
AND BE ALL THAT HE HAS FOR ME TO BE
HE FILLS ME TO THE BRIM
NO
UNTIL I RUNNETH OVER
FEELS LIKE I WANNA RUN AWAY
BUT ALAS
I DONT
I NEVER DO
I SAY
OK
MOLD ME
UGHHHH
IT HURTS
THAT TOO LORD?
I MUST LET THAT GO
CHANGE THAT?
OK
SO BE IT
HELP ME
MANY TEARS ARE SHED
I CANNOT DO THIS APART FROM YOU
HE BENDS ME
HE SPINS ME
HE UPLIFTS ME
SHAKES EVERYTHING UP
HE TAKES ALL MY FOOTING
THAT I THINK CAN FIND HERE ON EARTH
THEN SETS ME BACK DOWN
OK
WHEW, LORD THAT WAS HARD!
GEESH
BUT
I LOVE THE POTTER'S WHEEL
UM, I THINK I DO
FOR I SEE
I AM MOLDED
INTO A NEW PERSON
MUCH BETTER
THAN BEFORE
"NO WORRIES MY CHILD YOU WILL SEE
THE POTTERS WHEEL AGAIN'
HE PUTS ME IN A BOAT AND SAYS "LETS GO TO THE OTHER SIDE'
OK
STORMS RAGE, AND RISE UP
BUT LORD
YOU SAID
*AHEM*
WHAT IN HELL IS GOING ON HERE?
AM I GOING TO DIE IN THIS BOAT?
"NO"
I SAID "LETS GO TO THE OTHER SIDE"
'THINKING'
OK WELL THAT MEANS
NO MATTER WHAT THIS LOOKS LIKE
FEELS LIKE
SEEMS LIKE
WHAT OTHERS THINK
OR SAY
IM GOING TO THE OTHER SIDE
'RIDING OUT THE STORM'
HE CALMS THE SEA
HE STILLS THE STORM
I SAY
LORD
I LIKE THE STORM
UM I THINK I DO
IT WAS UM , KINDA
COOL
LORD
WOW I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE
I DIDNT SEE YOU LORD
BUT
HERE
YOU ARE
WITH ME
AND LOOK
THE STORM
ITS GONE
WOW
YOU ARE SO POWERFULL
AND NOTHING AND NO ONE
HAS FINAL SAY
OVER YOU
HE SAYS
"NO WORRIES
I SEE MORE STORMS AHEAD
NOW YOU WILL KNOW
I AM WITH YOU IN THE STORM
I CONTROL THE STORM
I HAVE YOU ON MY WHEEL
FORMING YOU
MOLDING YOU
YOU ARE MINE
I STAND WITH YOU IN THE FIRE
TO REFINE YOU
YOUR SOUL IS MINE
NOTHING SHALL BY ANY MEANS HARM YOU
AND NOTHING CAN SEPERATE YOU FROM MY LOVE,
NOTHING"
YES LORD
WILL I EVER STOP HITTING THE FLOOR
WITH FEAR
WITH DOUBT
WITH WEARINESS?
WILL I GET IT?
WHY LORD? I ASK......
I KNOW THEM SUPER 'HOLY FOLKS' DONT ASK WHY
BUT I AM YOUR CHILD
I ASK WHY
BECAUSE
SOMETIMES
YOU ANSWER ME
EVEN THOUGH
BY NOW
I KNOW WHY
BECAUSE
I AM YOURS
AND BECAUSE
YOU SAID SO
NO MATTER WHO LEAVES, WHO STAYS
NO MATTER WHAT SEEMS 'LOST'
WHAT IS GAINED
WHAT MOUNTAINS I HAVE TO CLIMB
I AM
TRULY BLESSED
VERY BLESSED
AMAZINGLY BLESSED
MY CUP
MY APPEAR EMPTY
TO THE FOOLISH
AND UNWISE
OH
BUT IT DOES RUNNETH OVER
'BELIEVE THAT'!
AND SOMETIMES
ITS ME
THATS
FOOLISH
AND UNWISE
AND I SEE NOT
BUT THEN
HE LETS ME SEE
AGAIN
IT MATTERS NOT
THE SIGHT OF OTHERS
IF THEY ARE BLIND
THE WORDS OF OTHERS
IF THEY ONLY FILL THE ATMOSPHERE WITH
THEIR NOISE
LOUD
SELF RIGHTEOUS
NOISE
IT HURTS MY EARS
AND
MY HEART
BUT
I PRAY
I CAN AND WILL BE
PLEASING
IN YOUR SIGHT
ALONE
LORD
I WANT TO RUN
SOMETIMES
BUT
THERE IS NOWHERE FOR ME
TO GO
THERE IS NO ONE
NOTHING
I LOVE MORE
THERE IS NOTHING FOR ME
NOTHING HERE
GREATER
NOTHING
OF MORE WORTH TO MY SOUL
NOTHING
AND YOU HAVE BLESSED ME
WITH GREAT LOVE AROUND ME
BUT
IT ALL WILL
ALWAYS
FALL SHORT
ME TOO
I FALL SHORT
BUT
I LAY DOWN ALL
I MEAN ALL
FOR YOU
I DONT HAVE TO SAY IT
YOU WILL ASK IT
YOU WILL DEMAND IT
YOU ARE WORTHY
AND MY SOUL WILL FIGHT
BUT
MY WILL
WILL SLOWLY SURRENDER
MORE AND MORE
AS ALWAYS
TO YOURS
FOR YOU
AND
REALLY I KNOW
ITS FOR ME
FOR THERE IS NOTHING GREATER
AND I AM GREATLY BLESSED
I DO NOT MISTAKE THIS
ANYMORE
I AM BLESSED
AND I AM THANKFULL
THANK YOU LORD, FOR THE FIRE, THE POTTERS WHEEL, AND THE STORMS.
THEY ARE FOR MY OWN GOOD
SORRY FOR COMPLAING SO MUCH
HAHA
I KNOW
YOU DONT MIND
YOU KNOW ME
WHERE I AM
WHAT I FEEL
AND WHY
I HOPE TO SEE YOU MORE LORD
I WILL STOP LOOKING FOR YOU WITH MY FACE DOWN IN THE CARPET
SOMEHOW
HAHA
BUT WITH MY EYES LIFTED TO YOU
KNOWING FULL WELL
BY NOW
YOU ARE ABLE
TO CARRY ME
THROUGH
ALL THINGS
THE HITS& THE STORMS HAVE NO POWER OVER ME
BECAUSE
THEY HAVE NO POWER OVER YOU!!
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!
Saturday October 14, 2006 - 12:24pm (PDT)
