A few years back, an older woman friend told me that I hide too much.
For the past year, I've been making a concerted effort to treat myself more beautifully:
...wearing clothes that fit (always used to wear oversized stuff) now I love my size and will not buy something if it isn't available in my size... back then I didn't mind going up a size or two.
...doing my own waxing jobs. Cuts down on money spent, which means I can touch up my eyebrows or anywhere else for a last-minute event
...I actually wear polish now
sometimes I do my nails myself
...I DANCE!! Which has really helped me tap into my sensuality and given me even more fantastic legs
...I am TRYING to make my personal space more serene... love the idea of coming home to a feminine and serene bedroom. That's a work in progress though
...I define my waist. That's part of embracing my petiteness. I don't know what was wrong with me before lol
...I now own a lot of dresses. I love those.
How could I forget??
...I NOW wear well-fitting bras! My goodness, that was the source of my lack of confidence all my life. If I'd discovered or been taken to an Intimacy store at age 13, it would have saved me nearly a decade of awkwardness and self-loathing. Most of my life I wore band sizes that were 2-3x too wide. Ugh.
...I keep my skin super soft (with unscented and natural products), and I honestly love getting comments on it
...I grew my hair to waistlength and kept it at BSL to MBL most of college.
*Frankly, my natural hair is the biggest issue right now. Makes me look less polished (bc it's so damn frizzy)... but as of this wknd, I am changing that
I think this post makes me sound incredibly self-absorbed
but it really took a lot for me to get to a point where I am *starting* to notice and enjoy/embrace all the little pleasures of being a woman