Nella
Member
I dont even know how to begin this but, this is in regards to relationships that I've had in the past and present. I guess I always get the short end of stick. I am admitting that I have prayed for GOD to send me someone meant for me and I mean that honestly.
My life is not a fairy tale....I feel like I'm going through so much. I guess I just don't know where to begin at times I have problems everywhere. Well, for the most part they aren't that big because, I have put them in GOD's hands. I pray alot. I don't go to church alot and I know the stresses that I have been through. At one point I used to go to church every sunday. Then I used to go to my sister's church. I want to find my own church within my neighborhood and I believe I will start that this Sunday. I want to get my life totally in order.
When I first started dating - my very first boyfriend. We thought he was the husband for me but, he wasn't something happened in his life and he ran off and married the girl.
I've dated different people with hopes each time that one of them was my husband. I guess I just have it all wrong. My baby's father - so many issues with him that it just wasn't possible and he had asked me to marry him. One of my male best friends back at the time I thought because, we knew and understood each other so well and always encouraged each other that he was the one. Things got rough after college graduation and then we fell out and I swear to you all I had to beg GOD to remove this man from me because, I was devastated. I just felt like I couldn't go on without him. He did as I asked and I must admit the morning after that prayer I woke up feeling like all of my burdens had been lifted from me. GOD does answer prayers.
Now I'm seeing a guy and he has some issues and right now I just want to let it go. I try to be understanding, caring, and compassionate. It just seems like I'm giving too much. He doesnt know what he wants and I just want something serious this time and I really believe that I haven't found it in him. I have told him this but, when I talk it appears that he cares but, there hasn't been a change.
So, I guess at this point I just want to be free and allow GOD to tell me. I have been praying seriously about everything and I know all prayers aren't always answered at once and if its not my time to know he won't show me. I've watched my sister, cousins, and girlfriend get married and occassionally I find myself longing for the relationships they have. I'm usually not one to be jealous but, in this department it just seems like I always get the short end of the stick. I don't want to rush anything so I'm going to be patient and let GOD do his work.
Sorry, for being so long winded but, you all are becoming like family.
Hugs n Kisses,
My life is not a fairy tale....I feel like I'm going through so much. I guess I just don't know where to begin at times I have problems everywhere. Well, for the most part they aren't that big because, I have put them in GOD's hands. I pray alot. I don't go to church alot and I know the stresses that I have been through. At one point I used to go to church every sunday. Then I used to go to my sister's church. I want to find my own church within my neighborhood and I believe I will start that this Sunday. I want to get my life totally in order.
When I first started dating - my very first boyfriend. We thought he was the husband for me but, he wasn't something happened in his life and he ran off and married the girl.
I've dated different people with hopes each time that one of them was my husband. I guess I just have it all wrong. My baby's father - so many issues with him that it just wasn't possible and he had asked me to marry him. One of my male best friends back at the time I thought because, we knew and understood each other so well and always encouraged each other that he was the one. Things got rough after college graduation and then we fell out and I swear to you all I had to beg GOD to remove this man from me because, I was devastated. I just felt like I couldn't go on without him. He did as I asked and I must admit the morning after that prayer I woke up feeling like all of my burdens had been lifted from me. GOD does answer prayers.
Now I'm seeing a guy and he has some issues and right now I just want to let it go. I try to be understanding, caring, and compassionate. It just seems like I'm giving too much. He doesnt know what he wants and I just want something serious this time and I really believe that I haven't found it in him. I have told him this but, when I talk it appears that he cares but, there hasn't been a change.
So, I guess at this point I just want to be free and allow GOD to tell me. I have been praying seriously about everything and I know all prayers aren't always answered at once and if its not my time to know he won't show me. I've watched my sister, cousins, and girlfriend get married and occassionally I find myself longing for the relationships they have. I'm usually not one to be jealous but, in this department it just seems like I always get the short end of the stick. I don't want to rush anything so I'm going to be patient and let GOD do his work.
Sorry, for being so long winded but, you all are becoming like family.
Hugs n Kisses,