I can see how my emotions can come across as contradictory because thats exactly how I feel. I have stopped all communication with the OM not because I wanted to but because I got caught. Sounds F'd up but it's the truth.
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I understand your view on this; because to me, there is no such thing as a heartfelt
apology. As my sister would say, "never say you are 'sorry' " cuz you are sorry [meaning
pathetic] [not you, per se, that is just her opinion on the word, 'sorry' and I tend to
agree...
An apology is only a cya ploy to lessen the blow to your ego. You got caught, you had to
have a fallback. That is all it is; hence, your above quote.
Seeing my DH so broke down and humble has caused me to see a love for me that I was unsure existed anymore. As screwed up as it sounds, I almost feel like this was a necessary evil.
What you are feeling isn't love. You are feeling the high and pleasure of hurting this man.
OF hoping he feels just as desolate as you felt when you said he took you for granted.
What you are isn't benevolent; on the contrary, it is masochistic.
Remove yourself from this situation, before either your husband kills you or you wind up
giving up the pussy to make him feel better and making your situation even more
convoluted.
Men are not like women. She will only torture his visual mind by doing what you suggested. 
