Everything Zen
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So this morning I get in the car and prepare to set out on my unholy commute (sometimes over 2 hours a day- 1 way). I feel fine at first no worries- not feeling too tired or anything. Driving into the city can be stressful and as I was approaching my destination my mood plunged. I was angry, edgy, irritable and ready to pick a fight out of the blue. In the back of my mind I start trying to focus on controlling my mood being grateful and thankful for the numerous blessings that I have, being thankful that I don't live in Darfur, etc. Well by the time I got to the office I was at least one step closer to not losing it but still felt abysmally tragic.
Enter Mister Man who works in the same office (at least for the time being) He sees me and of course knows something is wrong. I just tell him I haven't started my period (We're not having sex so there's no worries in that department). He tried all kinds of ways to try to get me to laugh, asked me if he could buy me some snacks, take me to lunch. I'm just despondent and politely declined and becoming further annoyed. During our weekly meeting I just kept my head down and took the minutes and a few other coworkers noticed I was a little down and wanted to know if there was anything they could do. I again politely declined. The whole time I'm just being real quiet and trying to keep to myself and I have all of these freaks that keep getting on my nerves and wanting to help and asking if I'm alright!
Occasionally I suffer from PMDD and I know the symptoms etc... Having dealt with this for years I at least know why I feel this way and can anticipate it. This time is a little worse than usual but not as bad as it was in college (I used to get suicidal thoughts minutes before I'd actually start). Mister Man kept asking what was wrong begging to help me in any way possible. I'm thinking to myself DUDE I'm about to start my period!!!!!!!!!!!
Leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!! Getting all irritated again. Then he offered to go home and make lunch and bring it back for me. I politely declined because Ladies tell me you understand that sometimes right before you start you are very particular about what you want to eat but you might not even know what you want. All you know is that whatever you eat has to taste GOOD !!!! (Not even BE good for you) So I was still trying to make up my mind when he left and I eventually got a sandwich and soup at Panera. I called him on my way back and while I was trying to explain to him that all I need to do is start my period and I'll be fine and told him I got lunch at Panera. He was hurt becasue I turned him down when he was trying to help and had the nerve to say that HE feels helpless and emotionally shut out!!!!!!!
LOOK MAN!! YOU DON'T WANT TO BE LET INTO MY EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN THEM!!! I AM A WOMAN ABOUT TO START HER FREAKIN' PERIOD LEAVE ME ALONE I'M TRYING TO SPARE YOU YOU IDIOT!!!!!!!!
Enter Mister Man who works in the same office (at least for the time being) He sees me and of course knows something is wrong. I just tell him I haven't started my period (We're not having sex so there's no worries in that department). He tried all kinds of ways to try to get me to laugh, asked me if he could buy me some snacks, take me to lunch. I'm just despondent and politely declined and becoming further annoyed. During our weekly meeting I just kept my head down and took the minutes and a few other coworkers noticed I was a little down and wanted to know if there was anything they could do. I again politely declined. The whole time I'm just being real quiet and trying to keep to myself and I have all of these freaks that keep getting on my nerves and wanting to help and asking if I'm alright!
Occasionally I suffer from PMDD and I know the symptoms etc... Having dealt with this for years I at least know why I feel this way and can anticipate it. This time is a little worse than usual but not as bad as it was in college (I used to get suicidal thoughts minutes before I'd actually start). Mister Man kept asking what was wrong begging to help me in any way possible. I'm thinking to myself DUDE I'm about to start my period!!!!!!!!!!!
Leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!! Getting all irritated again. Then he offered to go home and make lunch and bring it back for me. I politely declined because Ladies tell me you understand that sometimes right before you start you are very particular about what you want to eat but you might not even know what you want. All you know is that whatever you eat has to taste GOOD !!!! (Not even BE good for you) So I was still trying to make up my mind when he left and I eventually got a sandwich and soup at Panera. I called him on my way back and while I was trying to explain to him that all I need to do is start my period and I'll be fine and told him I got lunch at Panera. He was hurt becasue I turned him down when he was trying to help and had the nerve to say that HE feels helpless and emotionally shut out!!!!!!! LOOK MAN!! YOU DON'T WANT TO BE LET INTO MY EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN THEM!!! I AM A WOMAN ABOUT TO START HER FREAKIN' PERIOD LEAVE ME ALONE I'M TRYING TO SPARE YOU YOU IDIOT!!!!!!!!
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Yeah I'm really lucky that he cares so much. I don't even get like this very often. We've only been together since July so we're both still trying to figure each other out. During the monthly in August he had the nerve to say that he understands how I feel because I'm bloated and crampy and tired. 
Then all better. I have just learned not to take myself too seriously around that time.
