Oh sweetie! I just need to give you a big cyber hug
I felt the your pain while looking at those pics.
First of all YOU ARE NOT HIDEOUS! I promise you that it seems a heck of a lot worser to you than it looks.... and it will grow back!
Now imo it looks like you maybe experiencing Postpartum Alopecia, or Telogen Effluvium to be more specific... I know of somebody who exp this... Here is some info
Another common form of hair loss, postpartum alopecia is caused by hormonal
changes during the course of a pregnancy. The changes cause an alteration in the
growth pattern of the hair follicles. There is usually very little sign of these changes
during the pregnancy itself, but rather a sudden and very excessive loss of hair from
three to nine months after the birth of the child. While this is often very traumatic for
the new mother suffering from the hair loss, the hair's growth cycle typically returns to
normal within a year after the end of the pregnancy.
There is a form of alopecia related to postpartum alopecia called telogen
effluvium [TELL-oh-jen eh-FLU-vee-um], which refers to a condition in which the growth
cycles of the hair follicles have shifted in such a way that abnormal numbers of follicles
move into the telogen (or resting) phase of the growth cycle. The diffuse hair loss
caused by telogen effluvium results in the loss of as many as 400 hairs a day - around
ten times the normal rate of hair loss. The resultant hair loss is often difficult to spot
until about 25 percent of the hair has been lost. Telogen effluvium can be aggravated
by stress.
http://www.hairfinder.com/hair-problems/alopecia.htm
If I was you I would seek a dermatologist for an accurate diagnosis but I reckon that is what it may be.