Zeal
Well-Known Member
Some of you may not remember ..... my favorite Uncle passed away on October 12. Well one of my cousins who is 4 years younger than my MOM was at the funeral. He waslike a brother to her.
He passed away yesterday. I am numb. After talking tomy sister on the phone just now. My nerves are shot. Please pray for me
"in general" that I will not allow my family to stress me out to the point of High blood pressure. I have prayed and prayed and prayed about my reaction towards my sister and mother. I don't waht it is but they really get on my nerves.
I just talked to my sister and my pressure immediately went up! I don't have a machine or anything to check it. But my stomach started hurting as soon as she started saying certain things. One thing I don't like is when people hint at things and don't say what they want. I don't like when one expects something out of me and does not tell me what it is that they want. I don't like when someone assumes that I can read their mind and think as they do. I always feel as though it is me and not them becuase that is what I have been told constantly. I really feel sick now like I am going to throw up.
I have another cousin who lives in the same city. My sister calls me yester day and says, Can you call our cousin and see if he can pick us up. I am like who????? Then she says his name.
I called him today tell him about the death. Again.. like in October, we have no where to stay. So I assumed that we were staying at a motel. My sister and Mom assumed tha I asked him if we could stay with him as no one has offered us a place to stay.
My Aunt "whose son passed" did not offer us to stay with her. My Mother from what I know did not ask her.
It really stressed me out that I was suppossed to ask my cousin if we could stay there just because I am the closest to him. I will call and ask him later.
Please pray for me. I want to be a better person and more cooperative, more patient, more kind. But it just seems as if I am not changing.
He passed away yesterday. I am numb. After talking tomy sister on the phone just now. My nerves are shot. Please pray for me
"in general" that I will not allow my family to stress me out to the point of High blood pressure. I have prayed and prayed and prayed about my reaction towards my sister and mother. I don't waht it is but they really get on my nerves.
I just talked to my sister and my pressure immediately went up! I don't have a machine or anything to check it. But my stomach started hurting as soon as she started saying certain things. One thing I don't like is when people hint at things and don't say what they want. I don't like when one expects something out of me and does not tell me what it is that they want. I don't like when someone assumes that I can read their mind and think as they do. I always feel as though it is me and not them becuase that is what I have been told constantly. I really feel sick now like I am going to throw up.
I have another cousin who lives in the same city. My sister calls me yester day and says, Can you call our cousin and see if he can pick us up. I am like who????? Then she says his name.
I called him today tell him about the death. Again.. like in October, we have no where to stay. So I assumed that we were staying at a motel. My sister and Mom assumed tha I asked him if we could stay with him as no one has offered us a place to stay.
My Aunt "whose son passed" did not offer us to stay with her. My Mother from what I know did not ask her.
It really stressed me out that I was suppossed to ask my cousin if we could stay there just because I am the closest to him. I will call and ask him later.
Please pray for me. I want to be a better person and more cooperative, more patient, more kind. But it just seems as if I am not changing.
