aribell
formerly nicola.kirwan
My family has been through the ringer and it just will not let up. I have gone to a family member's funeral every year since 2003, and this morning my mother called to tell me that her brother passed away. He was in his 40s. The others were in their 20s or 40s, all before their time.
My grandmother, the matriarch of the family suffered a severe stroke a few years back and went from being completely independent, landlord and property owner, to being an unable to speak or walk, or do anything. Seeing her decline more and more is so painful, especially as she outlives her sons and daughters and grandchildren.
My mother just finished her breast cancer treatments, and she is well, but I'm genuinely afraid that she will be next, as one after another her siblings are passing away.
For the longest time I've had the feeling that the Lord was judging my family for all of the generational sins within it. Everyone who passed, except one, I could look at and say that the life they led is what ultimately caused their death or sickness, that "the wages of sin is death." But still I want to know if there is redemption left for us.
I am one of few believers in my family. I came to Christ, followed by my aunt, then my sister. But other than that, I can't really say that anyone else believes. I pray for repentance and redemtpion, but then I look and it just seems like the Lord's hand is heavy on us.
No one is changing their ways, no matter how much they're pleaded with, how many interventions are done, how much they know what is right. And that really scares me, because I just have a deep and abiding feeling that it's not over. And my sister says the same thing. My cousin, a buddhist, says she fears that we're cursed. I don't know about being cursed, but if this is the Lord's judgment, I just pray that He would make way for redemption. I guess I write all of that to ask for you all's prayers for my family.
My grandmother, the matriarch of the family suffered a severe stroke a few years back and went from being completely independent, landlord and property owner, to being an unable to speak or walk, or do anything. Seeing her decline more and more is so painful, especially as she outlives her sons and daughters and grandchildren.
My mother just finished her breast cancer treatments, and she is well, but I'm genuinely afraid that she will be next, as one after another her siblings are passing away.
For the longest time I've had the feeling that the Lord was judging my family for all of the generational sins within it. Everyone who passed, except one, I could look at and say that the life they led is what ultimately caused their death or sickness, that "the wages of sin is death." But still I want to know if there is redemption left for us.
I am one of few believers in my family. I came to Christ, followed by my aunt, then my sister. But other than that, I can't really say that anyone else believes. I pray for repentance and redemtpion, but then I look and it just seems like the Lord's hand is heavy on us.
No one is changing their ways, no matter how much they're pleaded with, how many interventions are done, how much they know what is right. And that really scares me, because I just have a deep and abiding feeling that it's not over. And my sister says the same thing. My cousin, a buddhist, says she fears that we're cursed. I don't know about being cursed, but if this is the Lord's judgment, I just pray that He would make way for redemption. I guess I write all of that to ask for you all's prayers for my family.
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