poeticmusiqu
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I recently just got out a bad relationship a couple days ago. The truth is I should have left a long time ago. This guy was a total loser and still is but I feel so dumb and stupid for believing and falling for his lies.
For the past yea in a half I have but up with nothing but physical and mental abuse. He has torn down my self respect and esteem and it is really hard for me to star over.
He has never been faithful to me the entire. There has been at least 6 to 7 females. He was living with me for a while and come to find out that he was cheating on me with some girl i knew who i thought i was cool with. I go to work early mornings and every time I would leave he would call her on my phone and talk for hours and invite her while i was at work.
My grandfather died four months go (he had a heartattack in front of me) and he wasn't even there for me. Instead he was with her and then that same night came in drunk and abuse me because I confronted him.
This guy has done so much damage to me it's un real and all the while i stuck with. I was there for him when he's on momma wouldn't deal with him. He's always cheated and even pulled my hair out one time.
But still like a damn fool I took him back. He kept saying that he loved and was going change and I believe him. But just recently I found out that he was with another girl that he have been talking to and he told me that he was just using me this whole time, never loved me, and that it was so easy to find other *****.
I feel so low and stupid for taking a him back. Im crying as I write this now. I never cheated and stood by him thinking he was gonna changed. I don't why i stayed. The only think I can think of is that I had a wonderful man (my finance) and he was killed back and 2005. This guy was the first guy I been with since my finance was murdered and I guess I was looking for what I had with him in this guy.
I don't know what to do. I don't have anyone. I have alinated my entire family for being with this guy and now I am all alone.
For the past yea in a half I have but up with nothing but physical and mental abuse. He has torn down my self respect and esteem and it is really hard for me to star over.
He has never been faithful to me the entire. There has been at least 6 to 7 females. He was living with me for a while and come to find out that he was cheating on me with some girl i knew who i thought i was cool with. I go to work early mornings and every time I would leave he would call her on my phone and talk for hours and invite her while i was at work.
My grandfather died four months go (he had a heartattack in front of me) and he wasn't even there for me. Instead he was with her and then that same night came in drunk and abuse me because I confronted him.
This guy has done so much damage to me it's un real and all the while i stuck with. I was there for him when he's on momma wouldn't deal with him. He's always cheated and even pulled my hair out one time.
But still like a damn fool I took him back. He kept saying that he loved and was going change and I believe him. But just recently I found out that he was with another girl that he have been talking to and he told me that he was just using me this whole time, never loved me, and that it was so easy to find other *****.
I feel so low and stupid for taking a him back. Im crying as I write this now. I never cheated and stood by him thinking he was gonna changed. I don't why i stayed. The only think I can think of is that I had a wonderful man (my finance) and he was killed back and 2005. This guy was the first guy I been with since my finance was murdered and I guess I was looking for what I had with him in this guy.
I don't know what to do. I don't have anyone. I have alinated my entire family for being with this guy and now I am all alone.