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luthiengirlie

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I have been under attack, dealing with my adhd, dealing with depression.

Dealing with insomnia and sickness.

I failed my math class. I may now be kicked out of school. Because its been a 7 year long struggle to be finished even be a junior. And after this semester. Its all over.
Well being a junior was nice when it lasted.....

Feel so hopeless. I know YHWH loves me but..... All my dreams are over..destroyed again.
 
:giveheart: You don't know if your school career is over or not, wait to see what the school says. Regardless of what happens God makes away out of no way and your dreams will be able to come true.
 
:bighug:

Remember who keeps you. He will continue to carry you through even this season here. I know it feel like the end of it all but only He knows what is in store for you. Stay strong in your Faith.
 
Vonnieluvs08 said:
:bighug:

Remember who keeps you. He will continue to carry you through even this season here. I know it feel like the end of it all but only He knows what is in store for you. Stay strong in your Faith.
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Just don't know how much more I can take:nono: I just want one semester without struggle. :perplexed: :yep:
 
Aww ... babe :hug3: That you failed doesn't make you a failure and doesn't mean that all your dreams are over. It's a glitch in your plans but that's all it is, not an end all. Was your school aware you were ill and struggling? They could give a concession if you have a doctors note perhaps. Have you been to see your tutor to discuss your options?

It is well sis, don't worry and don't fear. This might be a surprise to you but not to God. Just trust in Him and don't let this bring you down.
 
we are >>>here<<< I just got over a serious attack and I didn't even recognize it as such until I read over Butterfly's thread about praying for an enemy. Then it struck a cord with me that I was doing fine until I really started doing right by God and being more obedient.

as far as school. . .yeah, i started a thread about that last week. Thankfully the sisters here have been praying for me and with me and also some people in my real life. After talking with my school I am not going to fail. . .per se. There is one class that I absolutely bombed on and will have to repeat, but there is hope. Don't give up.

Think back to just before you felt like you were failing and see what you were doing. What triggered it? Was it an attack or was it self sabatoge? In my case, it was a little bit of both. I am so close to graduation that its rediculous and in a strange way, I'm not ready. Are you ready to take on the responsibility that a degree may come with when you start marketing yourself as a holder of a degree?
 
HeChangedMyName said:
we are >>>here<<< I just got over a serious attack and I didn't even recognize it as such until I read over Butterfly's thread about praying for an enemy. Then it struck a cord with me that I was doing fine until I really started doing right by God and being more obedient.

as far as school. . .yeah, i started a thread about that last week. Thankfully the sisters here have been praying for me and with me and also some people in my real life. After talking with my school I am not going to fail. . .per se. There is one class that I absolutely bombed on and will have to repeat, but there is hope. Don't give up.

Think back to just before you felt like you were failing and see what you were doing. What triggered it? Was it an attack or was it self sabatoge? In my case, it was a little bit of both. I am so close to graduation that its rediculous and in a strange way, I'm not ready. Are you ready to take on the responsibility that a degree may come with when you start marketing yourself as a holder of a degree?
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I am ready. I'm now a JUNIOR what a victory after a 7 year long struggle. And then after that I promised YHWH I would do things differently. Then the attacks started. I had insomnia. No peace. I couldn't sleep till 4 am and I'd sleep until 3 giving me no time to do homework. After class I'd be exhausted. Then I began finding out things that tormented me. I had no peace. Then I prayed and finally got sleep then my ears started ringing and I couldn't focus. And then when I had an extra chance to do the homework everything broke down. I couldn't email my work. And its all happened within this month and I'd nver had problems like this. I truly wanted to succeed.

Its not offical now. But that's what my teacher said. I'm wondering if the grade isn't offical now means something. But I don't wanna hope and then be disappointed.
 
I understand about not wanting to hope and still be disappointed. I'll pray that if it is God's will for you to remain in school that you will and He will work it out somehow. Be blessed and know that God still has a plan for you, even when things seem all wrong. Jeremiah 29:11 is proof that God has it all laid out.
 
HeChangedMyName said:
I understand about not wanting to hope and still be disappointed. I'll pray that if it is God's will for you to remain in school that you will and He will work it out somehow. Be blessed and know that God still has a plan for you, even when things seem all wrong. Jeremiah 29:11 is proof that God has it all laid out.
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I guess at this Point, I can Praise Him everyday. No matter what He is with me. The enemy may have won the battle but With YHWH. He and I will win the war.
 
topsyturvy86 said:
Aww ... babe :hug3: That you failed doesn't make you a failure and doesn't mean that all your dreams are over. It's a glitch in your plans but that's all it is, not an end all. Was your school aware you were ill and struggling? They could give a concession if you have a doctors note perhaps. Have you been to see your tutor to discuss your options?

It is well sis, don't worry and don't fear. This might be a surprise to you but not to God. Just trust in Him and don't let this bring you down.
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For some reason. I'm not upset like I feel I should be :perplexed: I'm fustrated and hurt yes. But not upset. I wonder if its resignation or if its just...peace
 
luthiengirlie said:
For some reason. I'm not upset like I feel I should be :perplexed: I'm fustrated and hurt yes. But not upset. I wonder if its resignation or if its just...peace
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OMG luthiengirlie, are you my brain twin. lol

when i thought God was gonna let me slide by with quitting you wouldn't believe the awesome relaxation and peace I felt. the night i made my decision to just stop class i slept soooooooooooooooooo good. I woke up refreshed and was like. . .oh well. guess it wasn't meant for me.

I felt more disappointed at what other people might say or think, but as far as dropping out(like i thought i'd do) I didn't feel bad one single ounce. I was like :yep: yeah, imma get to sleep :yawn: like a regular person. imma have all this free time to do fun things :rolleyes: lol guess God had something different in mind.
 
luthiengirlie said:
For some reason. I'm not upset like I feel I should be :perplexed: I'm fustrated and hurt yes. But not upset. I wonder if its resignation or if its just...peace
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First of all:bighug: Now, I was going to say something very similar to what you just said. You know YHWH's ways are not our ways, his thoughts not our thoughts.:spinning: Having said that your story is far from over. Let me preface this by saying that I am a supporter of higher education. However, the current system we hold in such high esteem (like so many other things) is all jacked up:wallbash:. For example, why do we expect someone the ripe old age of 18 to decided with accuracy what they want to do for the rest of their lives? At 18-25 you are still learning who you are. You just don't have a lot of relevant life under your belt.:ohwell: That sets ppl up for failure in a lot of instances.Why do you think so many ppl get to mid-life and change jobs, have an emotional break down, or realize that they make a truckload of money doing something they HATE? Back to your specifics, are you sure you are following the path YHWH has designated for you? Are you certain you should be studying what you are studying, at the right school, right now, etc? Did you pray for guidance concerning all of those things or are you there b/c that's what ppl do? Cause it will make you a lot of money, or that's what someone close to you said you needed to do, etc? I know that all things work together for the good of them who love YHWH and are called according to his purpose. Not those who are perfect or some other unobtainable thing but those who love him and keep his commandments. There are many examples of ppl who tuned into the direction God had for them amid what they thought were epic faliures and went on to lead successful lives in every sense of the word. What I do not want is to see you do is throw in the towel b/c what you think you are supposed to be doing is not working. Sometimes, God has to get us out of his way so he can work on our behalf. I don't hear your fat lady singing:nono:. Life is tough girlie but you have the greater one inside of you. So what should you do? You need to fast and pray. Can you do it this weekend? Fast from something near and dear to you. Maybe you have dietary restrictions to consider but can fast from technology, from desert, skip just one meal, skip meats, skip your favorite TV show, a trip to the mall, you get the picture. While you are fasting ask God for direction in regards to your current academic path/ situation. Then get some quiet time and really listen for him. Open your eyes to whatever way he wants use to get his answer to you. It may come from where you least expect it. Make a concerted effort to not think about ADHD during this time. I suspect you may be focusing on it a little too much:perplexed. I want you to focus on how BIG YHWH is. There is nothing too hard for him, not even ADHD ok? Here is one of my favorite quotes concerning failure.
"Success is never final. Failure is never fatal."

When you have a sec look at this article on Thomas Edison. He is one among many who failed several times but he kept trying until he got it right. Henry Ford, Charles Darrow, inventor of television, and many others had ppl tell them repeatedly how incompetent they were. Those ppl were wrong. You have gifts inside of you from God. You just need to discover them and allow him to keep molding you into what he created you to be.
http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Thomas_Edison
 
Here is a link to a man who struggled with ADHD but he figured out what his God given calling was and is now successful beyond his wildest dreams...
(From No More Mondays post it revolution)
Look on page 5 for Jay's story
http://www.hyperfocusedcoaching.com/documents/NoMoreMondays_PostItRevolution.pdf

Fast from saying/ thinking/ typing anything about ADHD for a set time. When you feel yourself start to think about it, open your mouth and declare something good you know to be true about God. We are not in denial nor are we downplaying this part of your life.:nono: We are magnifying YHWH. I just feel led to tell you to do that.
Some examples:
God, I thank you that by your stripes, I was healed of ADHD. Help me to walk in my healing!
Lord you are Jehovah Rapha, the LORD my healer!
Lord you are Jehovah Shalom, my wholeness! There is nothing missing in my life. Because of you I am whole and complete!
Great is your mercy and compassion towards me Lord!
God I thank you that your word says there is nothing too hard for you!
 
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You would only have failed if you didn't try. You didn't fail. You learned. Keep on learning! And honor your own natural time that you need to do it. You have your entire life.

Here's a book that helped me

Delivered from Distraction

The president of Southwest Airlines has ADHD. The co-founder and president of the Nia Technique (that I teach) is dyslexic.
 
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HeChangedMyName said:
OMG luthiengirlie, are you my brain twin. lol

when i thought God was gonna let me slide by with quitting you wouldn't believe the awesome relaxation and peace I felt. the night i made my decision to just stop class i slept soooooooooooooooooo good. I woke up refreshed and was like. . .oh well. guess it wasn't meant for me.

I felt more disappointed at what other people might say or think, but as far as dropping out(like i thought i'd do) I didn't feel bad one single ounce. I was like :yep: yeah, imma get to sleep :yawn: like a regular person. imma have all this free time to do fun things :rolleyes: lol guess God had something different in mind.
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He loves both of us. Aint no way He doesn't. All of what happened was intended to make me hate/curse YHWH. But I refused to. I heard a voice in my head saying, the ringing is stopping, you can't sleep, you know the secrect things. What's the point curse Him, curse Him and you'll be free!"

I said to that voice" No I will not curse the Most High, I will serve the Most High,
I will love the Most High.

The ringing got worse. Then I really couldn't sleep
 
Prudent1 said:
First of all:bighug: Now, I was going to say something very similar to what you just said. You know YHWH's ways are not our ways, his thoughts not our thoughts.:spinning: Having said that your story is far from over. Let me preface this by saying that I am a supporter of higher education. However, the current system we hold in such high esteem (like so many other things) is all jacked up:wallbash:. For example, why do we expect someone the ripe old age of 18 to decided with accuracy what they want to do for the rest of their lives? At 18-25 you are still learning who you are. You just don't have a lot of relevant life under your belt.:ohwell: That sets ppl up for failure in a lot of instances.Why do you think so many ppl get to mid-life and change jobs, have an emotional break down, or realize that they make a truckload of money doing something they HATE? Back to your specifics, are you sure you are following the path YHWH has designated for you? Are you certain you should be studying what you are studying, at the right school, right now, etc? Did you pray for guidance concerning all of those things or are you there b/c that's what ppl do? Cause it will make you a lot of money, or that's what someone close to you said you needed to do, etc? I know that all things work together for the good of them who love YHWH and are called according to his purpose. Not those who are perfect or some other unobtainable thing but those who love him and keep his commandments. There are many examples of ppl who tuned into the direction God had for them amid what they thought were epic faliures and went on to lead successful lives in every sense of the word. What I do not want is to see you do is throw in the towel b/c what you think you are supposed to be doing is not working. Sometimes, God has to get us out of his way so he can work on our behalf. I don't hear your fat lady singing:nono:. Life is tough girlie but you have the greater one inside of you. So what should you do? You need to fast and pray. Can you do it this weekend? Fast from something near and dear to you. Maybe you have dietary restrictions to consider but can fast from technology, from desert, skip just one meal, skip meats, skip your favorite TV show, a trip to the mall, you get the picture. While you are fasting ask God for direction in regards to your current academic path/ situation. Then get some quiet time and really listen for him. Open your eyes to whatever way he wants use to get his answer to you. It may come from where you least expect it. Make a concerted effort to not think about ADHD during this time. I suspect you may be focusing on it a little too much:perplexed. I want you to focus on how BIG YHWH is. There is nothing too hard for him, not even ADHD ok? Here is one of my favorite quotes concerning failure.
"Success is never final. Failure is never fatal."

When you have a sec look at this article on Thomas Edison. He is one among many who failed several times but he kept trying until he got it right. Henry Ford, Charles Darrow, inventor of television, and many others had ppl tell them repeatedly how incompetent they were. Those ppl were wrong. You have gifts inside of you from God. You just need to discover them and allow him to keep molding you into what he created you to be.
http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Thomas_Edison
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I ve always wanted to be 3 things
1. A teacher
2. A wife
3. A mom
Those desires have NEVER changed.

I know ALLL too well that scripture of YHWH ordering steps. And the Plans of mans hearnt not prevailing over YHWH's. Just being Honest. I planned to finish college @ 19 get married @ 22. And its alll good. OBVIOUSLY it didn't work out that way! I'm still in college. I'm still single. I admit I was bitter towards YHWH and life. Everyone else is getting married and graduating and I'm still struggling and still not dating. I've halfway come to terms with the life I have now. I never intended to go to the college I'm going now. I wanted to live in Atlanta. But YHWH manuvered me to LR. I'm grateful for the growth and friendship YHWH's given me. But a part of me just wants to graduate and move on. Work and fall in love. That futre seems to keep getting delayed.

YHWH keeps leading me into the sabbath. Rest, no technology spend one day with Him and Him alone. Over and over. Now You've said it. He's tryna drive the point home. He likes to do that with me lol.
But the good news is. I failed but I can still take classes. I just looked. But that means I still need to search Him and figure things out.
 
Thank You!!

Prudent1 said:
Here is a link to a man who struggled with ADHD but he figured out what his God given calling was and is now successful beyond his wildest dreams...
(From No More Mondays post it revolution)
Look on page 5 for Jay's story
http://www.hyperfocusedcoaching.com/documents/NoMoreMondays_PostItRevolution.pdf

Fast from saying/ thinking/ typing anything about ADHD for a set time. When you feel yourself start to think about it, open your mouth and declare something good you know to be true about God. We are not in denial nor are we downplaying this part of your life.:nono: We are magnifying YHWH. I just feel led to tell you to do that.
Some examples:
God, I thank you that by your stripes, I was healed of ADHD. Help me to walk in my healing!
Lord you are Jehovah Rapha, the LORD my healer!
Lord you are Jehovah Shalom, my wholeness! There is nothing missing in my life. Because of you I am whole and complete!
Great is your mercy and compassion towards me Lord!
God I thank you that your word says there is nothing too hard for you!
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Thank YOU. I will print this out and look into it.
 
Thank You Ladies so much!! I feel love in this family of ladies. YHWH has used each one of you to bless me, give. A message from Him and encouraged me!!! And I suspect others that are reading this thread. He will NOT let His righteous be forsaken. All of you have PROVEN that!!
 
(((((hugs)))) to you because I have been where you are and I know what it feels like. I struggled in school and the devil used everything in the world to distract me from my studies. He attacked my relationship with my family and friends, he attacked my finances, he attacked my health, tried to make me think I was losing my mind....I could go on and on. But God was with me and He is with you too. Despite everything the devil threw at me I still graduated and you will graduated too. I didn't graduate with my friends and by the time I finally did graduate everyone had been living their lives for a minute, but I graduated and that is all that mattered. You will get there, so don't give up. It may take a little longer, but that is ok. The end result will be that you graduated.
 
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