Diva, I do identify with your feelings. I have tried to close my eyes and not hear or see what is going on but I cant. I find myself asking Lord what can I do, the only thing comes to my mind is PRAY, but like you, I dont know how. I didnt know about the rapes until reading it here. I keep asking what is wrong with these people!!! why, why!!! Like you I am trying to make sense of it all. Why is it that most of the faces I see on tv black faces. Why does it look as if I am looking at some thrid world country and not my own. It breaks my heart that I am sitting here safe and unharmed worring about how I'm gonna pay a superficial something when all this is going on.
This tragedy has made me take a closer look at myself. Through this I've come to realize that I am self centered, just plain selfish something I never thought of myself as being. It hit me like a ton of bricks yesterday when I got some bad new that funds I was expecting to receive this month to get me out of my delemma would not be received till December. I got so angry and asked God why, just then a news flash about the hurricane came on showing all the sadness going on in LA, at that point I bowed my head and said Thank you Jesus and forgive me for being petty and selfish. I then asked God to forget my needs and to send help to the people with real needs. I told him that my need could wait. I thanked him for my life, health and strength and for the good as well as the bad. I asked him to dispatch angels to protect the sick and the needy. To touch my heart and the heart of the rest of the world to reach out to those in need.
dont know why God allowed this to happen, and will never know. Maybe it was allowed to show that racism is still alive and well here in America and this incident will be used to bring about much needed change. I do know that if God can use this tragedy to change just one heart, to save one soul, then it was justified. As Latia said, we just have to trust that He know what is best and it will all work out for good.
