Going through a lot in my life, losing a grip on everything
Hey ladies.
I remember posting about my relationship issues not so long ago and I remembered how helpful and encouraging you ladies were, for those who saw me through my plight, gave advice and PMd me God bless you.
I really wish I could go in detail (LHCF needs to invest in an anonymous feature honestly guys thats a basic thing) and be explicit but I'll just give a summary and you ladies wanting to know more can pm me.
Its been rough to say the least. I no longer have a relationship with my mother which by default have left me estranged from my siblings who have sided with her and dont get in touch with me. My lil sis is too small to know whats going on and I miss her, dearly.
This isnt a typical mother daughter spat. Her mental and verbal abuse and paranoia towards has been rife since before I got my first period so dont come with the patronising "shes still your ma, time heals" bs I dont wanna hear that.
Ive been enduring it for years cos we have our good moments but she always thinks im plotting against her with my dad and shes done **** like seizing my passport leaving me stranded in a foreign country at age 15, saying I should die and that im the spawn of the devil etc, kicking me out at aged 13 leaving me out of school for 6 months, beating me up when I told her my uncle molested me at age 10 and shes actually molested me herself so so long ago. I havent said this to anyone. Not a soul, its a release finally letting this all out. I'm crying all over my keyboard lol.
I dont have much of a relationship with my father anymore since he remarried and had kids. I remember when we were so close. I lived with him when my ma threw me out but later went to africa for 2 years. Pure hell but im grateful for my experiences. Me and the stepma didnt get along, shes really young and we always had problems. this made me feel isolated and none. Due to my constant moving around and lack of attachment ive never been able to maintain good relationships.
This was one of the problems bw me and my stepma i never looked after my brothers never played with them, never connected but God knows my heart and he knows i love them. I just dont know how to love. so my stepma and pa assumed i disliked them cos they wernt my blood.
We are all cool now me but im still not close to any of my family.
How ive gone downhill is because i fell out with my friend and didnt resolve it properly and because of that ive lost my whole group of friends at university. minus a few who im not as close with.
Im so alone and miserable.
Im doing things i never thought I would mostly for the money but now because Im carefree.
I dont attend university anymore even though im on a scholarship. i lost my virg only last year but since then ive had countless meaningless hookups. im not even sex crazy.
I have a crazy internet addiction too simply because I have nothing else. its crazy cos im really popular.
Ive persuaded my ex to start sleeping with me again secretly with the wish we could get back together again.
I'm rambling now I'm sorry.
Hey ladies.
I remember posting about my relationship issues not so long ago and I remembered how helpful and encouraging you ladies were, for those who saw me through my plight, gave advice and PMd me God bless you.
I really wish I could go in detail (LHCF needs to invest in an anonymous feature honestly guys thats a basic thing) and be explicit but I'll just give a summary and you ladies wanting to know more can pm me.
Its been rough to say the least. I no longer have a relationship with my mother which by default have left me estranged from my siblings who have sided with her and dont get in touch with me. My lil sis is too small to know whats going on and I miss her, dearly.
This isnt a typical mother daughter spat. Her mental and verbal abuse and paranoia towards has been rife since before I got my first period so dont come with the patronising "shes still your ma, time heals" bs I dont wanna hear that.
Ive been enduring it for years cos we have our good moments but she always thinks im plotting against her with my dad and shes done **** like seizing my passport leaving me stranded in a foreign country at age 15, saying I should die and that im the spawn of the devil etc, kicking me out at aged 13 leaving me out of school for 6 months, beating me up when I told her my uncle molested me at age 10 and shes actually molested me herself so so long ago. I havent said this to anyone. Not a soul, its a release finally letting this all out. I'm crying all over my keyboard lol.
I dont have much of a relationship with my father anymore since he remarried and had kids. I remember when we were so close. I lived with him when my ma threw me out but later went to africa for 2 years. Pure hell but im grateful for my experiences. Me and the stepma didnt get along, shes really young and we always had problems. this made me feel isolated and none. Due to my constant moving around and lack of attachment ive never been able to maintain good relationships.
This was one of the problems bw me and my stepma i never looked after my brothers never played with them, never connected but God knows my heart and he knows i love them. I just dont know how to love. so my stepma and pa assumed i disliked them cos they wernt my blood.
We are all cool now me but im still not close to any of my family.
How ive gone downhill is because i fell out with my friend and didnt resolve it properly and because of that ive lost my whole group of friends at university. minus a few who im not as close with.
Im so alone and miserable.
Im doing things i never thought I would mostly for the money but now because Im carefree.
I dont attend university anymore even though im on a scholarship. i lost my virg only last year but since then ive had countless meaningless hookups. im not even sex crazy.
I have a crazy internet addiction too simply because I have nothing else. its crazy cos im really popular.
Ive persuaded my ex to start sleeping with me again secretly with the wish we could get back together again.
I'm rambling now I'm sorry.
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