Sometimes you hear Him or sometimes He uses people and situations as signs but you have the willpower to heed on it or do as you will, but He knows best and His ways are greater as He knows better than you what are your real needs and will bring you thru the worse situations. But you have to learn to spend time with Him and get to know Him through his Word where He speaks to you directly. But when you pray and read the bible, first ask Him to give you a spirit of discernement to comprehend what you read and distinguish what is of him cause not everybody is saved and the enemy hates prayer and will try to throw you off.Sometimes God allows things to happen in your life that people write off as unsurmountable or impossible, where you reach rock bottom, to show you that He is God. He is your only refuge. so you know that He is indeed God.
i know that s the way i was directly introduced to him at my lowest point where i could not go further down. matter of fact, i felt God's presence three times very strongly that i remember it vividly. to me they were the strongest signs that not only led me to stay in NY but led me to Him as i was not saved and was wondering about the meaning of life, i was tired of living it did not make any sense. One instance was a few years ago i felt stuck,lost everything and wanted to go back to France but did not have the money and was about to jump under a train and end my suffering, and at the same time the train was arriving and as i was about to commit suicide, my pager went on so i did not jump and went to call back the number and directly a friend knew what i was about to do i dont know why i cant explain it and just told me he needed to speak to me but he wanted me to go home he had something important to tell me. So curious after he convinced me for 5 mns i went back to my place and there he got mad and told me something told him i was in a bad predicament and quickly called me like he felt it in his spirit and talked me into going home so i would be out of danger. I took it as a sign that God still wanted me alive and made it possible.
One day after crying for a long time and asking God why? He did answer me.Because about 7years ago, when i got my bag stolen after i had just freshly arrived from France in a new country i did not know anything about, i lost all i had that day all my money i had on me, my passport everything my cell, my keys and got evicted from the place i was renting cause i was bringing my rent money but the person was cold-hearted and felt no compassion for me. it was all about the money. I beg her she still kicked me out that was 1999. I thought i was finished, my family had moved and i did not have their info and on the moment when you just in a new city, without my notebook i felt so loss i felt like God i m gonna die right here and my family wont even know. i was homeless for a couple of months but i never beg it was so not in my nature, crying everyday i would go to parties at night and during the day sleep on a bench i elected right in front of the public library in Brooklyn next to Nostrand, i remember crying and not having eaten for a week being on the bench crying and saying i want to die , why you have forsaken me God, even though i was not really a believer before. I fell like broken, i was just saying to myself life is unfair i was lost i i needed a sign and then something came unto me it was not a voice it was a feeling of peace i felt something so loving i found God that day when i felt i was nothing that did not need to live and something inside told me that day i was gonna be alright i slept on my bench with no cover nothing happy.
The next day i was changed. I went to the library and started to spend my days there i was in awe reading all the greatest orators, napoleon hill, dale carnegie, the bible i saw they all started poor, i was changed i was a new person, a success inside. I took it as a sign that God had placed a library next to my bench the next day filled with ambitious and my american dream back i went to clean myself at mc donalds and even though i was hungry i resolved to go to Utica, bed stuy and all day look for a job and not stop till i found one and i found my job that same day at a carpet place as a receptionist. And never told nobody i was homeless for 6 months. i did not want the shame, the way people look at you when you lose everything, my parents dont know either. I m the type i never ask for help. i think its my pride.
The more you will spend time with Him, you will grow and discenerment is key to see signs from God. I dont believe in coincidences i do believe that sometimes they are signs that are right in front of your face and some you just realize many years later man, it was God way of inviting me into His life or better yet me inviting Him in my life cause He was always there, even as an unsaved sinner, he was there waiting for me to cry out to Him and humble myself so He had to break me in order to make me so i can be not only my highest self but edify Him and know Him AT LAST.
. So until I know for sure, I just try to make sure that I am at least doing something that brings me closer to him in addition to what my natural desires are.
