Ladies,
I'm asking for your prayers again. I don't want to be that person who continually comes asking for prayer, and truth be told, I'm struggling so hard to trust God. Some moments, I feel as if I have absolutely no faith in God. I feel soo double-minded. I mean, I know that He's blessed me in the past and that His favor is upon me, but then I keep looking at my "state" and just feel so frustrated.
I just want/need positive change in my life. I sometimes think, well, if everything were going exactly as I wanted, would I pray? I can't honestly say I would be praying. Then again, when I'm struggling, I get so depressed and despondent that I don't even have the energy to pray.
Maybe I'm being ungrateful and impatient (getting frustrated b/c God is not answering my prayers fast enough). I just know that the Word says that He came so that we could have life and have it abundantly, and I feel like I'm not living. It can't be the will of God for His children to suffer - to suffer with anxiety, depression, worrying. This can't be right....
Please pray for me, because I'm so frustrated and I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
SDW