Kinkyhairlady
Well-Known Member
I've been thinking about this lately and I'm not sure how to comprehend. Like everything we as Christians do we should put God first but I always feel like the Devil always tries to mess things up and at times it causes confusion. Right now I'm going through something in a relationship that I'm not totally content with. Too much disagreements and lack of trust but at the same time I'm like what does God want from me. I've been praying for a mate for years why can't he send that mate, why do I meet the wrong ones. This current person I care about and I'm constantly giving him chances thinking maybe God will develop him but not yet. I cry so much to God due to loneliness so I know if I walk away from this person I will continue to cry. I just don't know what to do. This person is Christian but at times the things he says and does are not Christ like and when I complain he says I act like I'm holier than everyone. That he doubts I even like him and that hurts. I'm not perfect but I try to live a clean life cause I don't want God mad at me. It's caused me to come off as judge mental but I'm just trying to help others walk better with Christ. I've been reading the bible and hoping it gives some clarity. I'm just afraid to make any decisions now in fear I'll be all alone. Yes I have God but I yearn for companionship. I'm getting older I just feel miserable.