Here's a summary of what's going on. I have issues...personal issues, financial issues, everything issues. My family life is hard, I just feel like life is closing in on me. I am aware there is Jesus, I have read the Bible, been on choir at school...but all what I've done means nothing for me for the simple fact that I don't have desire for Jesus. In my heart, when I am pissed at this world n what's going on, I don't see the point in doing good. I wanna continue on the wrong path. In my mind, I know this is wrong. I know Jesus is the only way. My mind knows I will be going to hell, my mind knows that this whas going on in my life is not my real life, that my real life is purposeful and peaceful and only through God.
So, my question is...how can I get my heart n mind to coincide? I was thinking fasting or something like that...something extreme to jolt me into the life I am to lead. I know you can't "make" your heart love Jesus but this feeling...I gotta make it go away...
So, my question is...how can I get my heart n mind to coincide? I was thinking fasting or something like that...something extreme to jolt me into the life I am to lead. I know you can't "make" your heart love Jesus but this feeling...I gotta make it go away...