Troubling dreams every night....

[kayte]

I'm doing a special 30 day prayer vigil with a prayer partner,
fasting once a week during this time...along with other personal rituals and ever since it started..I've been having bad dreams or troubling dreams or nightmares....
I'm puzzled.....

pretty much every night..I wake up from a weird or upsetting dream
I used to have theme dreams ....door dreams ...exhusband dreams..etc
and those came in series...of six or seven with same recurring theme
but none for a while except maybe transportation dreams.

so this is a new series? of vaguely bad dreams with no connecting thematic thread
and why ..during a vigil?
I am so confused...

And then in one dream..I saw the word Godspell...and the instruction
I felt was to watch it..I didnt want to although I love Godspell
so I did and
now I am obesessed with two songs sung by the AA cast members
Oh Bless the Lord my Soul
but especially ...All Good Gifts.....
and kind of realizing this on the eve of Rosh hoshana

 

[Guitarhero]

L'Shana Tova, Kayte. I hope you get the answer to your dreams.

 

[PinkPebbles]

Kayte -

It sounds like you are experiencing spiritual warfare. Whenever you intercede in prayer, especially for a lengthy time you have to cover yourself.

During your 30 day prayer vigil read Psalm 91, and Ephesians 6:10-18 out loud..

 

[kayte]

L'Shana Tova, Kayte. I hope you get the answer to your dreams.

L'shana tova Volver_Alma_Gitana..
The sweetest NewYear to you
I went to a Messianic Rosh Hoshana service it was so beautiful.....
And I am stayng vigilant..and calm and curious..not panicked

I am not someone who seems to have regular bad dream...
occasional ..sure..like everybody....

but every night ..one after the other?

I just know things are changing..
my book...is changing..it's a completely different reality with it...
and my dad
my dad was in one of the dreams
he died two years ago. and here's something kind of scary to me...but
when he passed before he did ..he could only eat ice chips in the hospital...and after awhile
they were not good for him and he argued with my mother after she refused to give him some
and I didn't know this but one or two months before he died
I began obsessively compulsively eating ice chips. You just go to Starbucks and ask them for a a tall Breve Miso and then I always add AND TWO VENTE CUPS OF ICE.

it got to be so that my local baristas knew me and would always have the extra cups of ice ready..without asking or being prompted

I'm talking like at least half a dozen Starbucks....that's been two years. My friends all knew..my dates knew...
people at work knew..and would joke...

I could not get through a day without six Vente cups of ice..I'd store a couple in the freezer while crunching on the others and I tried to give it up like quitting cigarettes..I'd be down to only two cups a day...then in two weeks back to six..I also thought....so sad...it was becauseof my dad...cas I could not let him go.
and I didnt even know about the ice with him...... it was just some thng I did independently
until my mother told me how he died...and about the ice...and that's how I knew
and it just got worse with me and ice

well..I am sick of ice....
the thought makes me ill...like repelled ..like who would do ..that?
It's unbelievable to me ..I was someone who did that?
but even more unbelievable ..is that I stopped...

I am being watchful..odd things seem to be happening is all
and It's bizarre..my life feels bizarre..I'm still freaked out ..my picture book cost almost $ 400.
it's a collector's item...that is soooo WEIRD...
but years ago ...I got a full page..full color NYTimes review
and that too ...felt very very weird
it still does...

so I am being vigilant...and yes will be praying Psalm 91...

 

[kayte]

Kayte -

It sounds like you are experiencing spiritual warfare. Whenever you intercede in prayer, especially for a lengthy time you have to cover yourself.

During your 30 day prayer vigil read Psalm 91, and Ephesians 6:10-18 out loud..

Thank you..I will definitely do this and your advice was gratefully received
During the Rosh Hoshana service..I cannot even say what happened..it's too weird...
but I can attest it felt like an attack..and I identified it as such and addressed it


I can also call on and claim the blood of Jesus...

Prayers appreciated in this odd time~

 

[nathansgirl1908]

I am not someone who seems to have regular bad dream...
occasional ..sure..like everybody....

but every night ..one after the other?

what are the personal rituals you are doing in addition to the fasting? Could they be opening you up to the presence of bad spirits?

my dad was in one of the dreams
he died two years ago. and here's something kind of scary to me...but
when he passed before he did ..he could only eat ice chips in the hospital...and after awhile
they were not good for him and he argued with my mother after she refused to give him some
and I didn't know this but one or two months before he died
I began obsessively compulsively eating ice chips. You just go to Starbucks and ask them for a a tall Breve Miso and then I always add AND TWO VENTE CUPS OF ICE.

it got to be so that my local baristas knew me and would always have the extra cups of ice ready..without asking or being prompted

I'm talking like at least half a dozen Starbucks....that's been two years. My friends all knew..my dates knew...
people at work knew..and would joke...

I could not get through a day without six Vente cups of ice..I'd store a couple in the freezer while crunching on the others and I tried to give it up like quitting cigarettes..I'd be down to only two cups a day...then in two weeks back to six..I also thought....so sad...it was becauseof my dad...cas I could not let him go.
and I didnt even know about the ice with him...... it was just some thng I did independently
until my mother told me how he died...and about the ice...and that's how I knew
and it just got worse with me and ice

It probably got worse once you found out because you wanted that connection with him still.

well..I am sick of ice....
the thought makes me ill...like repelled ..like who would do ..that?
It's unbelievable to me ..I was someone who did that?
but even more unbelievable ..is that I stopped...

You shouldn't be repelled. It was just ice. Nothing wrong with eating lots of ice.

I am being watchful..odd things seem to be happening is all
and It's bizarre..my life feels bizarre..I'm still freaked out ..my picture book cost almost $ 400.
it's a collector's item...that is soooo WEIRD...
but years ago ...I got a full page..full color NYTimes review
and that too ...felt very very weird

Why weird? Isn't this good? Shouldn't this be considered a blessing? I'm not sure I follow what you mean by this.


I have gone on prayer vigils and fasts, but I have never experienced a series of bad dreams during that time.

 

[ultrasuede]

I am praying that your bad dreams will cease and you are that you are able to complete the remainder of your prayer vigil without this distraction. And that the Lord would give you peaceful sleep.


Psalm 127



1 Unless the LORD builds the house,
They labor in vain who build it;
Unless the LORD guards the city,
The watchman stays awake in vain.
2 It is vain for you to rise up early,
To sit up late,
To eat the bread of sorrows;
For so He gives His beloved sleep.

 

[kayte]

what are the personal rituals you are doing in addition to the fasting? Could they be opening you up to the presence of bad spirits?

Occasionally defer to privacy
so purposely didn't mention what they were......
hence the word personal......lol

but I appreciate why you are asking!
suffice to say..it's nothing untoward,nathansgirl1908....or bizarre....
they are good rituals.... positives..
and promising results are unfolding....no doubt....

It probably got worse once you found out because you wanted that connection with him still.

my life is not linear...so rational thinknig and logic do not always follow or precede my actions
It's more that I am an intuitive,by grace and the Spirit of God,and out of that my life evolves
but once you accept that premise..as I am learning to
then you can make room for supernatural God-given reality ..inexplicable by natural logic
I was given a message about my father first without any knowledge it was about him.
that's not logical in the natural .....

I mentioned a story of this woman who sent me a e-forward that stated how Jesus avenged
himself with non believers who had sudden deaths and that was the forward
a horrible thing to send anybody.... and the one person I immediately shared about it with
when it freaked me out ...the one man who was like a father figure and big brother died the
following week of a sudden death...he was hailing a cab to go to the doctor and literally
dropped dead on the ground..he'd died suddenly...
things like this occur in my ALL the time ..not about death...but on ALL levels

I was already compulsively eating ice two month BEFORE he dies
not knowing that it was the last thing my father really enjoyed until AFTER he had passed...for a while.... I did not know ...

You shouldn't be repelled. It was just ice. Nothing wrong with eating lots of ice.

yeah,but sugar..is not inherently bad,either...if taken occasinally or in moderation
it's when you consume pounds of it and then disrupt your life to
get ten bags of Snickers at the all night Duane Reade
at midnight ...just when you were getting in your pajamas
that it's problem

that's kind of a close analogy of me and the ice
lolol
anything that is out of balance ..for me...is not healthy
I mean my day and night would be planned around when I could get six Starbucks vente cups of ice
I would be home happily doing whatever and ..at just before midnight
rush to Starbucks before they closed and claim my vente cups
and the baristas giving me sour grins or openly joking depending on how exhasuted they were.

Starbucks..it was a weird addiction
I am NOT sorry it's gone.....
but it was part of my identity..for two years!!! my friends...romantic
everyone knew joked accepted KAYTE HAS TOHAVE HER ICE

and now..I don't..
yuck...

Why weird? Isn't this good? Shouldn't this be considered a blessing? I'm not sure I follow what you mean by this.

As an artist with some past limited success
with an out of print picture book now SUDDENLY worth over
$300 brand new...

that's exactly what I mean by my life not being linear...
like-why is that happening...there are a zillion picture book authors..
not all out of print books brand new...are going to cost that much
like ..why and with today's economy and the picture book market is ..terrible
the big bad seller on today's market is the hands down the The Crossover Young Adult Novel
with either dystopian communities..etc

when I got the email from my friend who said GO LOOK ON AMAZON....
See how much your book is
I thought ..my book retails at 16.00....so I thought he was gonna say..its now $25.00
but when I saw...my jaw dropped..until he sent links to the others...
then I was speechless
I know again THE LORD God is speaking to me but It's not revealed what is being said...
if not for that..Supernatural meaning
it's way toooooo arbitrary and abstract to make ANY sense of...
in the natural
and why..now?
thi is GOD...I am waiting and seeing what will be revealed

I have gone on prayer vigils and fasts, but I have never experienced a series of bad dreams during that time.

me either!..until this round...which is why I posted
that's unusual for me

but today I had a dream
on a black old fashioned typewriter key was the word... JOY....
collect antique typewriters and I have an old black one ...just like my dream

thanks for your input...ng1908!
blessings..

 

[kayte]

I am praying that your bad dreams will cease and you are that you are able to complete the remainder of your prayer vigil without this distraction. And that the Lord would give you peaceful sleep.


Psalm 127



1 Unless the LORD builds the house,
They labor in vain who build it;
Unless the LORD guards the city,
The watchman stays awake in vain.
2 It is vain for you to rise up early,
To sit up late,
To eat the bread of sorrows;
For so He gives His beloved sleep.

I love this psalm especially
thank you UltraSuede for your prayers