This realy makes me think I am crazy! Ya'll I need help

[Plenty]

My one promplem is the fact that I (LMAO and ducking in shame at the same time!) accociate the #2 with bad luck/God's disapproval. I feel like (LMAO) a sigh from GOD or something. For example. My tution was 506.00. 5+6=11. 1+1= 2! So I stoped going to school... I know...I am a crazy fool. But I cannot help it! I stated a shot session class. The class code was 2018 2+0+1+8= 11

1+1=2! So I have not completed one assignment in 1 week. I know...I need Jesus... I about to call the prayer line...Seriously.

Anyhow. I think the fact that the #2 is associated with somehting I want or am involved in effects my performs/actions and it does!

What do you think?

 

[mkh_77]

Seriously, you might have a mild form of Obsessive Compulsive disorder. Maybe you should seek some professional help.

 

[poetist]

I think you should call the prayer line ASAP. This is getting out of hand.

 

[Plenty]

So this isn't a God thing? That's all I need to know realy.

 

[poetist]

So this isn't a God thing? That's all I need to know realy.

Absolutely not. Why would God want you to drop out of school? Think about the people who did finish the class. Did they die or get attacked by satan simply because they took a class or paid $506 for tuition? No, they finished the class and are that much closer to accomplishing they're dreams.

You really need to seek the counsel of a pastor or call a prayer line, because this is absurd.

 

[Sistaslick]

brb...

 

[Sistaslick]

Its weird, but I have an issue with the number six. See, I can't even really type it out. Not to the point where I am dropping out of school or anything but it is a nuisance in my life. Its little things like not letting a bill at the store come out with a six on the end or two sixes side by side. I'll throw in a pack of gum to change the balance. And don't let it be three sixes If I have to put cookies in my son's lunch, I won't ever put six--either five or seven...and I am like that with objects. I don't like the microwave to stop on a number with six in it either...its so strange. One time, someone's thread had six hundred and sixty-six views on it and I HAD to click to make six sixty seven or I just couldn't sit right. Girl, I don't know where that came from, but it is real in my life I'm still praying on this one.

eta: When I originally hit post on this thread--guess what number my reply was Delete and come back. Guess, I still need a lil work.

 

[Plenty]

Its weird, but I have an issue with the number six. See, I can't even really type it out. Not to the point where I am dropping out of school or anything but it is a nuisance in my life. Its little things like not letting a bill at the store come out with a six on the end or two sixes side by side. I'll throw in a pack of gum to change the balance. And don't let it be three sixes If I have to put cookies in my son's lunch, I won't ever put six--either five or seven...and I am like that with objects. I don't like the microwave to stop on a number with six in it either...its so strange. One time, someone's thread had six hundred and sixty-six views on it and I HAD to click to make six sixty seven or I just couldn't sit right. Girl, I don't know where that came from, but it is real in my life I'm still praying on this one.

eta: When I originally hit post on this thread--guess what number my reply was Delete and come back. Guess, I still need a lil work.

I am feeling a bit sceptical about your last thread. Look at the time 11:55 1+1+5+5= 11=2. Members with 2 associated with them never have helped me with my post. And see you couldn't help me with my post eighther. You ended up having the same problem as me. I am so sad. I can tell the frustration in the other people post. But please know that I really cannot help it...

 

[goldensensation]

I am feeling a bit sceptical about your last thread. Look at the time 11:55 1+1+5+5= 11=2. Members with 2 associated with them never have helped me with my post. And see you couldn't help me with my post eighther. You ended up having the same problem as me. I am so sad. I can tell the frustration in the other people post. But please know that I really cannot help it...

or maybe she will help you... 1+1+5+5= 12

 

[Plenty]

or maybe she will help you... 1+1+5+5= 12

Oops. I am normaly excellent at math. Its the medication, it's making me dizzy...

I am remember this script something like "be careful for nothing." And to think that I am sit'n up here counting eveything before I make a decision is actually being disobediant(sp?)... I am just not going to let my heart be troubled. I have overcome some many things. If I can just get over this big hurdle...I know that I can go full spead ahead.

 

[Sistaslick]

or maybe she will help you... 1+1+5+5= 12

see! Plus, the times are relative depending on where you live, so technically . . . Girl maybe we both need to calm on down over here But then again you do have that 7-0- six at the end of your screen name

eta: look at this... 2nd page...11th post (1+1).... okay maybe I am really NOT helping afterall

 

[Plenty]

see! Plus, the times are relative depending on where you live, so technically . . . Girl maybe we both need to calm on down over here But then again you do have that 7-0- six at the end of your screen name

eta: look at this... 2nd page...11th post (1+1).... okay maybe I am really NOT helping afterall

Do you see what I mean. I would love to believe that I am crazy and ignor it all, but when I keep getting conformation everyday that 7:good 2:bad it makes me believe it is a sign from God. Oh. I want it to end so bad!

 

[Sistaslick]

Thats interesting though... hmmmm I wonder where you got the number 2 from?:scratchch I can pretty much trace where my general distrust of six came from. Just wanted you to know you aren't alone girl. I have gotten better at it, but its always there in the back of mind.

 

[poetist]

Do you see what I mean. I would love to believe that I am crazy and ignor it all, but when I keep getting conformation everyday that 7:good 2:bad it makes me believe it is a sign from God. Oh. I want it to end so bad!

I'm sorry but God does not tell you this. You're beginning to make me believe that you are emotionally unstable or that you simply enjoy making excuses for your failures.

Really, where do you draw the lines with "2's"? Have you considered cutting off one of your arms, gouging an eye, or severing a leg so that you will only have 1, instead of 2?

You need to get this under control ASAP, otherwise you will NEVER become a doctor. Medical school is NO JOKE. No successful med students has time to spend obssessing over imagined numerical "signs." Moreover, no patient wants a doctor who walks out in the middle of a surgery because they have 2 gunshot wounds that need to be removed or 2 babies (twins) that need to be delivered.

 

[mkh_77]

Please see the attached link. Notice under "What are some common compulsions?" where it mentions, "Counting over and over to a certain number." I really think you should seek some professional help.

http://familydoctor.org/133.xml

 

[beyondcute]

God is not a God of chaos. If he didnt wat you in school it would be more than the number 2 to make you stop going. Im praying fro you

 

[Plenty]

I'm sorry but God does not tell you this. You're beginning to make me believe that you are emotionally unstable or that you simply enjoy making excuses for your failures.
Really, where do you draw the lines with "2's"? Have you considered cutting off one of your arms, gouging an eye, or severing a leg so that you will only have 1, instead of 2?

You need to get this under control ASAP, otherwise you will NEVER become a doctor. Medical school is NO JOKE. No successful med students has time to spend obssessing over imagined numerical "signs." Moreover, no patient wants a doctor who walks out in the middle of a surgery because they have 2 gunshot wounds that need to be removed or 2 babies (twins) that need to be delivered.

I am really not. I am really working on it though. I am not afraid of hard work. I love to be excellent and do exciting things. But my emontion stablity or lack thereof has killed a lot of opportunties I have been blessed with. A lot of them. Almost all of them. I got the forgiveness thing down, which I am really blessed and proud of. My mother is 46 is she still hasn't even tried to get better. I am going to look up all the factors it takes to be emotionally stable, because I am really not and neither is my mother.

10:59 I just realized that it may be to avoid making common sense decisons or a lazy way of not having to think things through. I don't want to use my critical thinking skills to make a decison so I let the # decide sorta thing...

12:53 I also don't do stuff becuase I am so afraid something bad might happen. I was constanally yelled and screamed at for not being perfect when I was a child. That I jsut too afraid to do anything. I was rushed and yelled at w/o anytime to think or collect my thoughts. Now that I am grown I rush do things w/o any thought and w/ overwhelming fear that something bad is going to happened or that I have done something wrong.

By the way thanks for all your prayers and advice.

 

[Bunny77]

I agree with everyone else here that seeking professional help would be the best idea. Mental illness is no joke and what you're saying sounds like a form of mental illness.

Also, look at what you do on the board. You ask a lot of questions and get good advice, but then you come back a few days later with the same questions. There's almost a sense of desperation in your posts in which you feel that if you don't get THE ONE right answer or make THE ONE right decision, your entire life will be screwed up for eternity.

This is not healthy. This is no way to live. But I am happy that you seem to recognize that something is wrong... now you have to go get some help and do something about it.

All of this is said in love. We all want you to get better and become a successful person.

 

[CandiceC]

I agree with everyone else here that seeking professional help would be the best idea. Mental illness is no joke and what you're saying sounds like a form of mental illness.

Also, look at what you do on the board. You ask a lot of questions and get good advice, but then you come back a few days later with the same questions. There's almost a sense of desperation in your posts in which you feel that if you don't get THE ONE right answer or make THE ONE right decision, your entire life will be screwed up for eternity.

This is not healthy. This is no way to live. But I am happy that you seem to recognize that something is wrong... now you have to go get some help and do something about it.

All of this is said in love. We all want you to get better and become a successful person.

I have noticed this as well. I thought there might be something wrong, but I didn't want to comment on it. I thought I might have been the only one to notice.

Plenty, your issue does sound like a form of OCD.

 

[Zeal]

So this isn't a God thing? That's all I need to know realy.

Ummmm.. No. Do you have a persoanl relationship with God? What makes you think this comes from God? Where you dealing in something in the past that has made you feel this way?

You are just disecting numbers and equations. It is not that serious! No offense, but if you want to disect something like this, why not take a Bible verse and break it down. Find a verse that is realated to your issue and take the time to break it down like you did these numbers. I do not think you are crazy. Confusion is not of God.

I was thinking that you were kidding. But you are serious.

 

[Plenty]

I agree with everyone else here that seeking professional help would be the best idea. Mental illness is no joke and what you're saying sounds like a form of mental illness.

Also, look at what you do on the board. You ask a lot of questions and get good advice, but then you come back a few days later with the same questions. I agree, but a lot of times I just need clarification because I didn't understand somthing. sorry .There's almost a sense of desperation in your posts in which you feel that if you don't get THE ONE right answer or make THE ONE right decision, your entire life will be screwed up for eternity.

This is not healthy. This is no way to live. But I am happy that you seem to recognize that something is wrong... now you have to go get some help and do something about it.

All of this is said in love. We all want you to get better and become a successful person.

Wow. I am really crazy. I think I have emotional/mental promblem. I wasn't born crazy. I think it was the way i was raised. So hopefully it can be fixed.

 

[Plenty]

Ummmm.. No. Do you have a persoanl relationship with God? What makes you think this comes from God? Where you dealing in something in the past that has made you feel this way?

You are just disecting numbers and equations. It is not that serious! No offense, but if you want to disect something like this, why not take a Bible verse and break it down. Find a verse that is realated to your issue and take the time to break it down like you did these numbers. I do not think you are crazy. Confusion is not of God.

I was thinking that you were kidding. But you are serious.

I am an intelligent person(I think). I not the crazy ole lady down the street. I promise you would not look at me and think this. But I have always had one issue concernig one emotional promblem or another.

I was in middle school and I had a lot of friends, but this one girl in particular who was not in our group was like "-------" has problems." She was right.... I guess my other friends just accepted my crazy self as is...

 

[Bunny77]

Wow. I am really crazy. I think I have emotional/mental promblem. I wasn't born crazy. I think it was the way i was raised. So hopefully it can be fixed.

Hey Plenty... don't apologize for asking questions on the message board! I think my point was just that it seems like you ask a lot of questions because you're scared to make a decision... and that's not a good thing because eventually, you'll have to do it.

And the thing is, there's really no "wrong" decision, so don't worry about trying to get clarification... at some point you just have to walk out on faith and be confident in yourself and in the Lord and just do it! (now I sound like a Nike ad, lol).

Don't beat yourself up about being "crazy." You are not "crazy," but you might have a touch of mental illness. And guess what? So do a LOT of people. It's no different than people having a physical illness and doesn't make you a bad person.

The only problem is when you don't get help. Just like you wouldn't ignore a 105 degree fever, you shouldn't ignore a mental illness.

I'm glad you want to get help. Again, just be positive through this process and you'll be alright.

 

[poetist]

I am an intelligent person(I think).

THis is a perfect example of your problem: self doubt! You need to start speaking more positive things into your life. What you believe you are becomes you. So you started off saying that you are intelligent, which I am sure you are. But then you totally negated the statement, by saying "I think." You don't even trust yourself enough to make decisions or as you said, use critical thinking without relying on numbers. My best advice is to seek professional help. PLEASE!!!! Even on community college campuses, they often have free counselors or can refer you to someone. Using this board is fine, but in order to truly heal yourself, you have to get serious and talk to someone who is licensed and can really sit down and work through some of your issues with you.

In the meantime give yourself positive affirmations throughout the day: I am intelligent. I am beautiful. I was created in God's image. I have a purpose in life. I make good decisions. God loves me.

 

[Plenty]

Hey Plenty... don't apologize for asking questions on the message board! I think my point was just that it seems like you ask a lot of questions because you're scared to make a decision... and that's not a good thing because eventually, you'll have to do it.

And the thing is, there's really no "wrong" decision, so don't worry about trying to get clarification... at some point you just have to walk out on faith and be confident in yourself and in the Lord and just do it! (now I sound like a Nike ad, lol).

Don't beat yourself up about being "crazy." You are not "crazy," but you might have a touch of mental illness. And guess what? So do a LOT of people. It's no different than people having a physical illness and doesn't make you a bad person.

The only problem is when you don't get help. Just like you wouldn't ignore a 105 degree fever, you shouldn't ignore a mental illness.

I'm glad you want to get help. Again, just be positive through this process and you'll be alright.

I appreciate it. This helps alot. Oh I had forgot about the fact that "no decision is wrong decision." I remember this quote gave so much pease when I first heard it. I guess i just forgot to hold on to it. Thank you for reminding me!

 

[Plenty]

THis is a perfect example of your problem: self doubt! You need to start speaking more positive things into your life. What you believe you are becomes you. So you started off saying that you are intelligent, which I am sure you are. But then you totally negated the statement, by saying "I think." You don't even trust yourself enough to make decisions or as you said, use critical thinking without relying on numbers. My best advice is to seek professional help. PLEASE!!!! Even on community college campuses, they often have free counselors or can refer you to someone. Using this board is fine, but in order to truly heal yourself, you have to get serious and talk to someone who is licensed and can really sit down and work through some of your issues with you.

In the meantime give yourself positive affirmations throughout the day: I am intelligent. I am beautiful. I was created in God's image. I have a purpose in life. I make good decisions. God loves me.

Thanks. I will seek professional help before this semester is over. Or go to another community college where I am not as visiable. I think this is great idea, but I thought it was against God's will or something. I going to start looking into it today, but I am really am trying. My mother is just like me, but hasn't even liften a finger or grown as much me. okay...Off I go.

I get it know. I use numbers out of my craziness because I have self-doubt about my abilities to make sound decisions. Boy, that is crazy...

 

[BerrySweet]

Its weird, but I have an issue with the number six. See, I can't even really type it out. Not to the point where I am dropping out of school or anything but it is a nuisance in my life. Its little things like not letting a bill at the store come out with a six on the end or two sixes side by side. I'll throw in a pack of gum to change the balance. And don't let it be three sixes If I have to put cookies in my son's lunch, I won't ever put six--either five or seven...and I am like that with objects. I don't like the microwave to stop on a number with six in it either...its so strange. One time, someone's thread had six hundred and sixty-six views on it and I HAD to click to make six sixty seven or I just couldn't sit right. Girl, I don't know where that came from, but it is real in my life I'm still praying on this one.

eta: When I originally hit post on this thread--guess what number my reply was Delete and come back. Guess, I still need a lil work.

Not to make light of your issue at all, but how did you feel about being in the 6th grade? Or things like that? Like being in 6th position, or such?

 

[Sistaslick]

It hasn't always been this way though girl--I'd say it really started getting to me around my junior or senior year in highschool. But that's interesting, I'm sitting here thinking back to the sixth grade and that was the exact grade I was in when my parents divorced each other. A terribly, terribly low point in my life.

Then with my two babes, they were both born early around six months gestation--so you know that only affirmed and deepened my distrust of that number. Honestly, it makes me uncomfortable but I wouldn't say the implications of my concern with this number are seriously life altering. I mean, I can make it through the day alright but . . . but the nagging in the back of my mind. Its more of an annoyance than anything else. Just today, I was making a list of groceries and stopped on six items and I had to think quickly of something else to add to make the list not end on that number. Its a strange quirk I have. Sixes just bother me...they just feel like a wrong , bad, terribly unlucky number to me. Like I said though, I am praying on it because I know this has nothing to do with God or his will for me

 

[BerrySweet]

It hasn't always been this way though girl--I'd say it really started getting to me around my junior or senior year in highschool. But that's interesting, I'm sitting here thinking back to the sixth grade and that was the exact grade I was in when my parents divorced each other. A terribly, terribly low point in my life.

Then with my two babes, they were both born early around six months gestation--so you know that only affirmed and deepened my distrust of that number. Honestly, it makes me uncomfortable but I wouldn't say the implications of my concern with this number are seriously life altering. I mean, I can make it through the day alright but . . . but the nagging in the back of my mind. Its more of an annoyance than anything else. Just today, I was making a list of groceries and stopped on six items and I had to think quickly of something else to add to make the list not end on that number. Its a strange quirk I have. Sixes just bother me...they just feel like a wrong , bad, terribly unlucky number to me. Like I said though, I am praying on it because I know this has nothing to do with God or his will for me

Understood. I can see where the mistrust could come from.

 

[alexstin]

Plenty,

How are you doing?