Something on my heart.

LucieLoo12

Well-Known Member
Good morning ladies,

I just had something on my heart that I wanted to share. It's amazing how God will continue to reveal things about you that you had no clue about or thought you was delivered from. But God wants us whole and complete, so he shows us these things not to discourage or depress us, but that we may call upon His name and be delivered.
I am engaged and set to be married November 2nd to a wonderful man of God. :grin::drunk:. But through this engagement process I have noticed things in me that I didn't even know were there. My father has never been active in my life. My mom and him was divorced when I was 3 and my mom remarried when I was 6. My stepdad was there for me as far as a provider but there was no emotional connection at all with him. And me and my real dad didnt really start talking until I was in the 11th grade. So what I didn't realize was the emotional damage I had concerning my dad and the void of having a father that was left in my life.I didn't notice it until I got engaged. I found myself almost expecting my fiancee to hurt me, or not wanting to open up to him because fear of him not being consistent in my life. I would always tear myself down in my mind and find reasons for him not to want me. And I would think to myself "Why are you doing this? This man loves you." And one day he looked at me and said "Why do you keep shutting down on me, what have I done wrong"? And I began to realize this man has done nothing but love me and respect me. So I begin to bring this thing before God and see why was I acting this way. And God began to show me that I had not being healed from the hurt of my father and I was taking it out on my fiancee. I knew at that point I needed healing. I couldn't let this man fully love me until I got delievered.
I always associated my dad not being active in my life with something that I had did wrong. Why didn't he want me? Why wasn't I important enough to come back for? Or sometimes we may even go looking for that acceptance in realtionships, when it can only be found in God.So what I realized is me being healed wouldn't be me going to run to my dad and asking him to fill the void, but realizing that God fills all voids, He is that "I am". So I didn't go to man, I went to God. And God has been doing just that in me:grin:. I have been loving my fiancee more and trusting him and wanting to be more open with him. We can't love completely, until we have been healed completely.
So I wanted to write this to any woman that may have that void in their life from their father not being present in their life to encourage you that God is truly all that you need. Our relationships with our fathers can reflect how we will treat other men in our lives, but God said He makes all things new.

Some scriptures for you: :yep:

" For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father." (Romans 8:15)


“Your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” (Matthew 6:8)

" A father of the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, is God in his holy habitation." (Psalm 68:5)

“How great is the love the Father has lavished on us that we should be called children of God!” (1 John 3:1)


Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us…. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his [children].” (Ephesians 1:3-5)


So let God heal you, that you may love freely.God bless
 
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[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]My Child,[/FONT]​


[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]You may not know me, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]but I know everything about you. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 139:1 [/FONT]​

[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I know when you sit down and when you rise up. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 139:2[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I am familiar with all your ways. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 139:3[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Matthew 10:29-31[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]For you were made in my image. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Genesis 1:27[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]In me you live and move and have your being.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Acts 17:28 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]For you are my offspring. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Acts 17:28 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I knew you even before you were conceived. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Jeremiah 1:4-5 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I chose you when I planned creation. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Ephesians 1:11-12 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]You were not a mistake, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]for all your days are written in my book. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 139:15-16[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I determined the exact time of your birth [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]and where you would live. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Acts 17:26 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]You are fearfully and wonderfully made. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 139:14 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I knit you together in your mother's womb. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 139:13 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]And brought you forth on the day you were born. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 71:6[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I have been misrepresented [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]by those who don't know me.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]John 8:41-44[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I am not distant and angry, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]but am the complete expression of love. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]1 John 4:16 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]1 John 3:1 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Simply because you are my child [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]and I am your Father. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]1 John 3:1[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Matthew 7:11 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]For I am the perfect father. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Matthew 5:48 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]James 1:17[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Matthew 6:31-33 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Jeremiah 29:11 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Because I love you with an everlasting love. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Jeremiah 31:3 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]My thoughts toward you are countless [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]as the sand on the seashore.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalms 139:17-18[/FONT]
 
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]And I rejoice over you with singing. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Zephaniah 3:17 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I will never stop doing good to you. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Jeremiah 32:40 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]For you are my treasured possession. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Exodus 19:5 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I desire to establish you[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]with all my heart and all my soul. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Jeremiah 32:41 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]And I want to show you great and marvelous things. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Jeremiah 33:3 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]If you seek me with all your heart, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]you will find me. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Deuteronomy 4:29 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Delight in me and I will give you [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]the desires of your heart. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 37:4 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]For it is I who gave you those desires. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Philippians 2:13 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I am able to do more for you [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]than you could possibly imagine. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Ephesians 3:20 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]For I am your greatest encourager. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]2 Thessalonians 2:16-17[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I am also the Father who comforts you [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]in all your troubles. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]2 Corinthians 1:3-4 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]When you are brokenhearted, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I am close to you. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Psalm 34:18 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]As a shepherd carries a lamb, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I have carried you close to my heart. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Isaiah 40:11 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]One day I will wipe away [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]every tear from your eyes. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Revelation 21:3-4 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]And I'll take away all the pain [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]you have suffered on this earth.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Revelation 21:3-4 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I am your Father, and I love you [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]even as I love my son, Jesus.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]John 17:23 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]John 17:26[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]He is the exact representation of my being. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Hebrews 1:3 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]He came to demonstrate that I am for you, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]not against you. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Romans 8:31 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]2 Corinthians 5:18-19[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]2 Corinthians 5:18-19 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]His death was the ultimate expression [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]of my love for you. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]1 John 4:10[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I gave up everything I loved[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]that I might gain your love. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Romans 8:31-32 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]you receive me. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]1 John 2:23[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]And nothing will ever separate you [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]from my love again.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Romans 8:38-39[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Come home and I'll throw the biggest party [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]heaven has ever seen.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Luke 15:7 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I have always been Father, [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]and will always be Father.[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Ephesians 3:14-15 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]My question is…[/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Will you be my child? [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]John 1:12-13 [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]I am waiting for you. [/FONT]
[FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]Luke 15:11-32[/FONT]
 
Beautiful. This is something many of us are struggling with or have struggled with. I've missed you around here!
 
Thanks for sharing this LucieLoo...it's beautiful and a pure testimony for what God can do in healing our hearts and emotions. God is definitely our Daddy! Our Abba Father.

Congratulations on your Marriage.... :yay:

One Man, One Woman married unto the Lord. In Jesus' Name, Amen. :love3:
 
Thanks for posting what God has put on your heart to share with us, it's a two-fold Testament indeed.

Congratulations again on your impending marriage!!! :heart2:
 
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