I know that when a child of God has been living worldly ways and then decides that enough is enough and is ready to return to God (who never left them), there will be trials...or is it the devil trying to 'get you back'. I remember being taught that the devil knows that he cannot have your soul, but he will try to make life hard for you and try to hinder you from being a warrior for God and having a testimony of God's good work in you.
Ok, my job is one that if I don't work I don't get paid...no PTO and I am hourly. Now the job pays extremely well, but there are times throughout the year where there are slow downs in the work load because of data transactions...anyway, last year I was one of few who continued to work through the slow down, but this year I am not sure. I have savings but not as much as before because DH lost his job because he called in sick during his 90 probation period...(he was extremely sick and they knew it, and had him work 2 weeks after he called in before they 'fired' him...I was so mad I wanted to spit! They knew he was sick, they sent him home one day...then 2 weeks later to say it was because you called in 2 weeks ago...!) and he is having a hard time finding a new job because of the 'fire' status...he has never been fired before, ever...so he is trying to deal with that...I am trying to be strong and encouraging to him...but I find myself snapping at him and getting easily annoyed by him when I am home (I travel on the road for at least 2 weeks at a time and will return home for 3 days before leaving again, so we don't have much time together, except this week I am working from home) and then I feel bad that I am so short with him...and it comes in little burst...I am worried about making it through this slow down and am trying to be there for DH but I feel heavy burdened. I am in school via the internet going for my BS degree...I had a 3.83 GPA, up until this last semester...I did so poorly I flunk my last 2 classes...not because they were hard, but because I lost my enthusiasm for school, so much was happening other things got in the way and I literally gave up. I am so disappointed in myself.....
I wonder if this is the devil and/or his minions attacking my family? I am trying to watch my tongue but I get frustrated seeing DH on the couch! Though I know he is doing what he can. I also hear him talking to his brother about how he has had anxiety attacks and stuff since this all happened, and he is just not himself...so I think he is being attacked also. I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to get DH out of this slump he is in, nor do I know what will happen if there is a slow down and I don't work...we will truly be in trouble.
I am reading my bible, listening to the bible and asking for guidance when I read..I need to hear from God, I need some sense of comfort...is that crazy? I know you are supposed to take your problems to God and leave them with Him at the alter...my problem is picking those same problems back up again..I don't know how to leave them there?
sorry this is so long and so much like a 'pity me' post...I have been fighting myself about talking to anyone about this, I finally decided to post it here for some Christian advice from fellow women of God....any advice or verses to study?
Ok, my job is one that if I don't work I don't get paid...no PTO and I am hourly. Now the job pays extremely well, but there are times throughout the year where there are slow downs in the work load because of data transactions...anyway, last year I was one of few who continued to work through the slow down, but this year I am not sure. I have savings but not as much as before because DH lost his job because he called in sick during his 90 probation period...(he was extremely sick and they knew it, and had him work 2 weeks after he called in before they 'fired' him...I was so mad I wanted to spit! They knew he was sick, they sent him home one day...then 2 weeks later to say it was because you called in 2 weeks ago...!) and he is having a hard time finding a new job because of the 'fire' status...he has never been fired before, ever...so he is trying to deal with that...I am trying to be strong and encouraging to him...but I find myself snapping at him and getting easily annoyed by him when I am home (I travel on the road for at least 2 weeks at a time and will return home for 3 days before leaving again, so we don't have much time together, except this week I am working from home) and then I feel bad that I am so short with him...and it comes in little burst...I am worried about making it through this slow down and am trying to be there for DH but I feel heavy burdened. I am in school via the internet going for my BS degree...I had a 3.83 GPA, up until this last semester...I did so poorly I flunk my last 2 classes...not because they were hard, but because I lost my enthusiasm for school, so much was happening other things got in the way and I literally gave up. I am so disappointed in myself.....
I wonder if this is the devil and/or his minions attacking my family? I am trying to watch my tongue but I get frustrated seeing DH on the couch! Though I know he is doing what he can. I also hear him talking to his brother about how he has had anxiety attacks and stuff since this all happened, and he is just not himself...so I think he is being attacked also. I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to get DH out of this slump he is in, nor do I know what will happen if there is a slow down and I don't work...we will truly be in trouble.
I am reading my bible, listening to the bible and asking for guidance when I read..I need to hear from God, I need some sense of comfort...is that crazy? I know you are supposed to take your problems to God and leave them with Him at the alter...my problem is picking those same problems back up again..I don't know how to leave them there?
sorry this is so long and so much like a 'pity me' post...I have been fighting myself about talking to anyone about this, I finally decided to post it here for some Christian advice from fellow women of God....any advice or verses to study?