Why do you feel as if God isn't hearing you? Are you in a prayer rut?
Try this: Tonight when you pray, start off thanking God for at least 5 things that happened today. Spend time before you pray in reflection on your BLESSINGS...start with gratitude, then petition God for the things you desire. Tell God how you feel...acknowledge His will, and if you so desire, ask Him to show it to you.
Be mindful that if you're trying to grow closer to God, the devil will come at you from every direction. He is seeking to destroy you and your marriage in the face of your prayers and hopes. Just be aware that the devil is active...particularly when we're growing closer to God.
If you don't see why your marriage is worth staying in, why are you asking God to fix it?? If you want God to reconcile you and your husband, you must believe that He will. Otherwise, you're asking for one thing but believing another. The Bible repeatedly states that according to our faith, we are granted or not granted our desires. If you truly want to remain in this marriage and have a fulfilling relationship, your THOUGHTS must be positive ones. The ENERGY that you emit in your home is contagious, and everyone around you responds to it whether you realize it or not. Throughout the day, think about the great qualities your husband has...think about why you married him and why you fell in love with him. See him doing the things you wish he'd do...think about how you would feel if the two of you were on one accord. These thoughts and feelings will manifest themselves over time.
Are you reading the Bible? This is a great way to grow closer to God. I would certainly recommend reading scriptures on faith, courage, and trust in God. These things will serve to draw you closer to God and give you stamina to get through this rough time.
Have you considered counseling? Is your husband a man of God? I'd suggest that the two of you pray TOGETHER because there is power in couples praying for and WITH each other. Also, counseling may help the two of you talk through your issues and reach a resolution.
Above all else, you must BELIEVE God for what you're asking for. As dynamic and powerful as our God is, we should walk away from our prayer feeling rejuvenated, encouraged, and confident. He loves you, and He's got your back.
You & your family will be in my prayers.
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