LifeafterLHCF
New Member
Ok ladies I just joined Friday but I have been reading your post for a minute.I feel like Im crying inside because of the emptyiness I feel daily.I pray,I study the word,listen to my Joyce Meyer cds and I try to encourge others since I don't feel worth to encourge myself.I guess at the core I don't feel worth anything.Nothing I seem to do is impressive to myself.Im the 1st to have a college degree,car,and own apartment in my family.I dont have any kids or lazy negros laying around.But I feel so alone.I have never been a big on crying since I was raised that crying was a form of weakness.But lately its been poping out and I hate it.I don't believe that any form of help would help me.All I can think about is getting a pistol and placing on my temple and pulling the trigger.I know the devil wants that and my mother says if I was to do something it would hurt her but Im tired of living for others.I always have to think about what Im doing and how it may affect someone..if it will hurt their feelings.And I want to scream that people do stuff to me all the time and I doubt they think about my feelings.I feel alone but I know Im not alone per se.Ladies please pray I dont want to do anything but Im tired of merely existing.