Sazzy4Evr said:
I'm writing to you all in tears because I feel so lost and don't know what I want to do with myself or with my life. I have been depressed for so long now and I just don't know how to come out of it. I have been going to counseling but most importantly I need God to carry me through. In my life I have felt like so much has gone wrong and I tend to blame myself for everything. And I feel even worse because I am more fortunate than some because I have been blessed with a family and people who care about me but I still feel low. I just feel like I am sabotaging myself and that I will never be happy and that I have no reason to live. I don't look forward to the next day and I know that's a problem. Furthermore I'm trying to get over a broken heart but it's hard. Please pray for me.
I need you Lord God
In Jesus name I pray
Amen.
Sweet Child of Love, you who has been created in the express image of God...you who has been in the very heart of God and in His mind, before the foundations of the earth. You to whom He lovingly says, I love you with an everlasting love.
You whom He knew before you were formed in your mother's womb. You whom He has engraved in the palm of His hands. And you who has not failed Him and neither have you failed anyone else.
Child of Love, no man possesses your soul. No man defines who you are. No man can break your heart to where God Himself cannot heal and renew it. For your very heart and soul were purchased with so great a price...the cost of the Blood of Jesus.
Child of Love, with this experience you are simply growing in the Lord. God is not only right there with you, but He dwells on the inside of you. His word even says so...."The Greater One lives on the inside of me..."
There is nothing 'bad' about you. There is nothing weak about you. There is nothing undesirable or unattractive about you. The annointing that God has placed inside of and upon you is not for this man. That's all it is.
Get up the way King David had to (after the death of his first child with Bathsheba). Wash your face, change your garments and move on to the next level of life and love that God has for you.
Let me put it in 'street terms'.
Don't waste anymore of your time crying over this man. For this is time that can and will be better spent on getting yourself back on track. This is your time to heal and healed you shall be.
Cry some more if you have to, afterall you are grieving which is the most normal process to healing; especially those such as you, who have such a loving heart such as yours. But each time your cry, remember that this is not the end for you. It's simply your new beginning that God has before ordained, before the foundations of the earth.
Sazzy, don't you love surprises? Well, let your 'Daddy' (God our Father) surprise you. Guess which hand? The surprises are in both...straight from His heart.
Sazzy, you are more than a conqueror through Jesus Christ who loves you.
Blessings and Love...
"Shimmie..."
I am laughing at the "rushing through my time with God like I am crazy or something " which can be so true at times.
