aribell
formerly nicola.kirwan
I don't know whether this is asking for advice or venting, but I just find it so difficult to let go of things sometimes and leave them with the Lord. I'll start off with an example of when I did just leave it to God and it worked out:
A couple of years ago when I was finishing up the last year of my undergraduate degree, I was taking classes, working, and writing a senior thesis. I also needed to find a full time job before graduating because I was 1000 away from any family members and needed to have a place to live and a way to pay bills. I also needed to find an apartment and a roommate. But I had absolutely no time to do this, and didn't even know where to look since all the leads that I followed didn't lead to much of anywhere. I ended up just saying, "Lord, you know what I need and you will not allow me to do without. Please bring me a job and a place to stay." And I let it go and didn't think about it anymore. No fretting at all. Well, it was about one month before graduating that I randomly met up with an old friend who also needed a roommate and we got an apartment together. Then there was a sudden opening at my PT job and my supervisor asked me to become his assistant, which was a salaried FT job w/benefits. The job ended up being the perfect stepping stone to entering into law school (where I am now) and my roommate ended up renewing her faith in Christ through our friendship.
I couldn't have orchestrated that if I tried. I learned from that that the Lord is completely faithful. But it is so difficult to remember things like that and to know that if we can just let things go and stop worrying that he will take care of it--and in better ways than we could have thought.
Right now I just need help/encouragement in letting go of a relationship/friendship with a young man because I know in my spirit that now is not the time for us. And I need to stop worrying about what will be and just trust the Lord and His plan. It's really very difficult.
A couple of years ago when I was finishing up the last year of my undergraduate degree, I was taking classes, working, and writing a senior thesis. I also needed to find a full time job before graduating because I was 1000 away from any family members and needed to have a place to live and a way to pay bills. I also needed to find an apartment and a roommate. But I had absolutely no time to do this, and didn't even know where to look since all the leads that I followed didn't lead to much of anywhere. I ended up just saying, "Lord, you know what I need and you will not allow me to do without. Please bring me a job and a place to stay." And I let it go and didn't think about it anymore. No fretting at all. Well, it was about one month before graduating that I randomly met up with an old friend who also needed a roommate and we got an apartment together. Then there was a sudden opening at my PT job and my supervisor asked me to become his assistant, which was a salaried FT job w/benefits. The job ended up being the perfect stepping stone to entering into law school (where I am now) and my roommate ended up renewing her faith in Christ through our friendship.
I couldn't have orchestrated that if I tried. I learned from that that the Lord is completely faithful. But it is so difficult to remember things like that and to know that if we can just let things go and stop worrying that he will take care of it--and in better ways than we could have thought.
Right now I just need help/encouragement in letting go of a relationship/friendship with a young man because I know in my spirit that now is not the time for us. And I need to stop worrying about what will be and just trust the Lord and His plan. It's really very difficult.
