This is an area that I once was very strong in
I have had many miraculous healings, first one in 1999, A complex mass in my ovary was healed in the ultrasound room the day before surgery, I had demanded that ultrasound because i was believing for a healing, I FELT God heal me in the ultrasound room, when the Tech 'said I will be right back' I said to God , 'Lord well, this is the last minute' I immediately felt flutters and things moving around , something like a baby moving, I almost jumped up , LIKE WHATS THAT? But then the tech came back and it stopped, did the ultrasound, he was making strange faces , took the wand out and said 'NO SURGERY, THEN I DID JUMP UP AND ALL THAT, I had the before and after films and gave my testimony many places, the Doc AND the hospital called me at home in amazement the doc saying, 'Someone loves you'
I have had many other miracles that were only between me and God with nobody to witness, but He knows , he knows I know
But again, I was healed of Mono (EBV VIRUS) Sept 2003 had it for exactly two years, at about 18 months a Bishop (McClendon) was stopped by God in the middle of a prayer just for me, I had started just a month or so prior to really talk to God about my healing, he had told me to go to this Church exactly 3 Sundays before this one. He stopped in the middle of the prayer and said 'Someone here is being healed' my daughter was there, I had my head bowed, she did not -shame on her LOL-just a kid tho, so anyway she saw everything and told me later, that others responded to that word immediatly , putting their hands up, I did not, but next he said 'You have a Blood Condition" I only quietly said in my spirit 'Is that for me Lord' Then he called out a symptom, I said it to him again, with a little more curiosity, never met this man, I did not look sick , the symptom he called out would have 'appeared' to be for the older people putting their hands up ' You have Arthritic pain through your whole body' , not me. My daughter said he was looking and looking around ,then came to me, all I felt was 'blam' his hand land on my head, took me a minute for it all to sink in before I started sobbbing-but to back up a minute here-it was an alter call this happened at, I did not think to go up, because it was salvation and taking folks in the back for membership-but suddenly I got a strong urge to go, next thing I was grabbing my purse and going, I was trailing way behind everyone, but he saw me and waited, so methinks (speculation) thats one way God told him it was me when he told him. My symptoms increased double tripple fold from the moment his hand landed on my head-right there in church satan was mad and fighting me, I barely made it back to my chair, the next day I could not get out of bed, I told my daughter I CANT take you to school sweetie, but dont worry, this means God is healing me, three days later I FELT him burning my blood, FUNNY , I thought i couldnt take it, it was sooo hot, then it stopped after a couple hours, I said 'God you sure you got it all' yes I was serious, all tho that cracks me up now, anyway, it took six months for it to manifest in the medical testing, but not my body yet, the test turned negative, the doc double tested and was tripped out, I didnt know how to explain to her that although the test was Negative I was still fighting the enemy for the rest of my healing (not a believer) I did tell her the story, her answer, 'hmmm interesting' I asked had she ever seen this happen before, she was a specialist, she said only once, it never happens once someone has had it chronically like I did, she didnt doubt and gave me more time, thankfully, cause I was not better, but was about to lose everything with my healing, no disbability check with NO illness, the next six months , I got stronger and stronger ,I noticed it when I would walk up stairs and do certain things, Amazingly that summer I walked all over Magic Mountain all day and night with no issues, I kept 'trippin' hard I was doing it.
Basically I have been attacked in my health almost back to back, soon after I had heart skips day and night for 7-8 months, tormenting me, literaly, docs wouldnt do much, in fact they did nothing, gave me a halter monitor , read the report and said for some these skips are normal, I Had PVC's and Supraventricular contractions, all day , all night , driving me crazy, and they wouldnt do nothing, they wont do anything until it gets into double/tripple skips, forgot what thats called, bigemy/trigomey? anyway I cried out to God and he spoke to me finally, simply said POTASSIUM. I jumped up and got my blood work, I was low normal 3.8. just points stil within range, now why didnt a doctor trigger that? blah, ugh! makes me mad still, I suffered, behind a simple answer, they also did not tell me I needed Magnesium for the K to absorb, had to find that out through prayer too.....sigh. They said they didnt believe it was it, 'There is no evidence you will be symptomatic while still in normal range, but I have no problem giving it to you to bring you into the four range' Geesh , thank you, I knew it was it, BECAUSE GOD SAID SO
I was just walking around with such relief after God giving me that answer, thanking him and two weeks later I had a lump rechecked in my breast that had been checked a year prior with them sending me away with just a mammo saying it was benign, nothing more, this time, they did an ultrasound and I was about to leave and the doc came back and said 'Where you going'
I knew this was a bad sign, I said um home, he said sit down , my gut sank, He explained to me the mass was lobular and suspicious, next thing you know I was sent to another room for a biopsy, three needles shot through the mass, OMG, the next 24 hours waiting, biopsy benign, but suggest surgery, because its suspicious of being a aggresive tumor, called a phyllodes, I fought for my healing a whole year, the mass shrunk one time so much the doctor was freaking out, 'I Have never....what did you do?' She was freaking out HARD, I was giggling SO was my daugher, it was her that prayed over my 'boob' (So cute-God please heal my mommy's boob *hehe*) 'I/WE prayed' I told her, she said ' I want to know what God you pray to cause he listens' still really freaking out, I said ahhh another doctor is being set up to know God is a healer, I just knew it was coming, She had canceled the surgery because as she put it ' it seemed to be regressing' , I had called her and told her' you might wanna check this, its smaller' She told me during the visit that she thought I was crazy with that call LOL, Said she had never seen anything like that, I spent months working out this healing, and did not get it, ran from the doctors and surgery for months and had everyone stressed, my family , my doctor etc. Because it still was suspicious for Cancer/ not totally ruled out till they get it out, another surgery was scheduled finally after running for a long time waiting on my healing and working it out spiritually, I decided that i would go forth but know God could/would still heal me, that surgery was canceled because I had a cold/congestion/fever, everyboby was stressed, I WAS REJOICING, thinking yup I am going to get healed, nope, again another surgery was scheduled, almost didnt make it to have it (strange but 2 days before my surgery was my daughter's first PMDD rage OMG she almost took us down flights of stairs) my whole body hurt like I was hit by a truck, I did not want to have surgery , told my Mother I was going to cancel, she begged pleaded and cried, I couldnt take her turmoil anymore, I went through with it for her, I could not take seeing the pain/fear in her eyes anymore. Turned out It WAS that 'agressive type' as suspected, but totally benign THANK GOD, Praise the LORD OMG!
But it was hard to understand all the miracles I had seen then all of a sudden I had to walk through surgery, I KNOW it taught me to trust him in a new way-but man that was not the route I wanted to go, I fought and stood hard for that healing that did not come/at least not the miraculous way God had spoiled me with prior/ I have to say though from the first day/ I had this sinking feeling that this time he might have me walk through surgery and I was afraid, I still wonder to this day, did that little seed of fear keep me from my miracle, but then I remember I was never totally without fear with the other miracles and had more faith this time than ever before having had so many miracles before-I dont understand it all fully
But now its harder for me to believe in the huge miracles I had seen or JUST KNOW its going to happen, now I know he chooses the way, not saying i didnt get healed, through surgery and God did have his hand on the doctor, I had shook her hand once, and I felt that was 'MY DOCTOR' GOD wanted me with, I thought God was telling me it was because she was the one he wanted to witness the miracle, but that was the hand he would use to heal me instead, she did such a good job you can never even tell I Had surgery whatsoever.
so anyway, I went from knowing I would get miracles with no doubt, to knowing it doesnt always go that way, now my faith is changed, and sometimes that saddens me, especially since of course I AM STILL being attacked in this area, Sometimes I wish i could stir up that same faith I once had for a miracle, but its just not there anymore like it was. I want it back
so anyway, just wanted to share that ............