Kinkyhairlady
Well-Known Member
I posted in here because I really am trying to communicate better with God but sometimes I get confused. I am single and over 30 and at times I cry cause I'm not married yet nor do I have kids but lately I've just given up and my self esteem is at it's lowest point because I don't feel desirable.
At my work place I've been noticing a gentlemen for some time now and when we see eachother we say hello. Well last week I was caught off guard when i bumped into him in the lobby waiting for the elevator, I said hello and looked away. It was the most awkward and silent moment and when we got on, I told him to press my floor and said thanks. Again it was dead silence, when he got off he said have a good one, did not even look at me. Ok that day I figured maybe God is saying he's not for me and that is why he did not take the opportunity to make conversation. I was nervous and probably looked like it who knows.
Well today I'm sitting in the lunch room and there was some appetizers at the table, people came and went and took some but then he came but I was looking down and when I looked he was walking away but looked back at me. First I know he wanted some appetizers and probably did not take any cuz I was sitting there and second why did he look back while leaving?
I'm trying to incorporate God in all my decisions now which is why I'm not approaching him myself but I am growing frustrated, why is God not making this a clearer sign for me? I've been single for a while to the point I have become too comfortable I don't even care much but it does not mean I don't desire a mate. I am just tired if getting my hopes up for nothing.Fellow Christians what signs did God give you when you were searching for a husband? What signs should I ask for?
At my work place I've been noticing a gentlemen for some time now and when we see eachother we say hello. Well last week I was caught off guard when i bumped into him in the lobby waiting for the elevator, I said hello and looked away. It was the most awkward and silent moment and when we got on, I told him to press my floor and said thanks. Again it was dead silence, when he got off he said have a good one, did not even look at me. Ok that day I figured maybe God is saying he's not for me and that is why he did not take the opportunity to make conversation. I was nervous and probably looked like it who knows.
Well today I'm sitting in the lunch room and there was some appetizers at the table, people came and went and took some but then he came but I was looking down and when I looked he was walking away but looked back at me. First I know he wanted some appetizers and probably did not take any cuz I was sitting there and second why did he look back while leaving?
I'm trying to incorporate God in all my decisions now which is why I'm not approaching him myself but I am growing frustrated, why is God not making this a clearer sign for me? I've been single for a while to the point I have become too comfortable I don't even care much but it does not mean I don't desire a mate. I am just tired if getting my hopes up for nothing.Fellow Christians what signs did God give you when you were searching for a husband? What signs should I ask for?