mellowdome
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I'm a super lurker but I'm having major problems now and I don't know where to go I orginally posted most of this in the Faith Evans thread in the Ent forum:
My bf just dumped me b/c of a lie his "friend" told him. I know for a fact that this guy hates my bf (i guess ex bf) now and he only acts like he likes him cuz he's phony and a coward. I'm so devastated
We had been having problems all summer. I originally found out what this guy said at the beginning of summer. We fought and I told him the guy was lying. He claimed to believe me at the time. I asked him a few weeks ago if he wanted to break up. He always said no and it was up to me.
Today he tells me he never believed me in the first place and thats why he's been treating me so bad. He's known this guy forever (since they were kids) thats why he believes him. My ex has major issues and although i love him, its probably better that we aren't together b/c he is a piece of work!
He has called me some really horrible things as a result of this. I'm so sad I cant even put it into words. Everytime I think about it my heart starts racing and my hands start to shake. I try to push the thoughts out but they just take over my head. I want to hurt them both (the guy who lied and my ex). I just can't deal with my reputation being tarnished like this and I don't understand what I did to deserve this or why this is happening to me.
I've started seeing a therapist. I just want to feel better! I havent eaten or slept in a week. This is killing me. I remember before when we were having problems I prayed and prayed for God to remove him from my life if he wasnt the one, or show me some sign. Last night I realized that this was probably the sign. I'm still so angry though. I'm now praying that God remove these angry, vengeful, hateful feelings from my heart. But it hurts so bad! I feel like a nutcase. I think I could deal with him wanting to break up, but I can't deal with him thinking i'm some piece of trash. I don't understand how he could just turn on me like this. This is the worst break up I've ever been through. I didnt think I could hurt more than I did after my last ex, but this takes the cake.
Ladies, any words of wisdom or encouragement?
My bf just dumped me b/c of a lie his "friend" told him. I know for a fact that this guy hates my bf (i guess ex bf) now and he only acts like he likes him cuz he's phony and a coward. I'm so devastated
We had been having problems all summer. I originally found out what this guy said at the beginning of summer. We fought and I told him the guy was lying. He claimed to believe me at the time. I asked him a few weeks ago if he wanted to break up. He always said no and it was up to me.
Today he tells me he never believed me in the first place and thats why he's been treating me so bad. He's known this guy forever (since they were kids) thats why he believes him. My ex has major issues and although i love him, its probably better that we aren't together b/c he is a piece of work!
He has called me some really horrible things as a result of this. I'm so sad I cant even put it into words. Everytime I think about it my heart starts racing and my hands start to shake. I try to push the thoughts out but they just take over my head. I want to hurt them both (the guy who lied and my ex). I just can't deal with my reputation being tarnished like this and I don't understand what I did to deserve this or why this is happening to me.
I've started seeing a therapist. I just want to feel better! I havent eaten or slept in a week. This is killing me. I remember before when we were having problems I prayed and prayed for God to remove him from my life if he wasnt the one, or show me some sign. Last night I realized that this was probably the sign. I'm still so angry though. I'm now praying that God remove these angry, vengeful, hateful feelings from my heart. But it hurts so bad! I feel like a nutcase. I think I could deal with him wanting to break up, but I can't deal with him thinking i'm some piece of trash. I don't understand how he could just turn on me like this. This is the worst break up I've ever been through. I didnt think I could hurt more than I did after my last ex, but this takes the cake.
Ladies, any words of wisdom or encouragement?