aribell
formerly nicola.kirwan
Hi ladies,
If you all would offer your spiritual insight, I would greatly appreciate it. Basically, I am exactly half way through a law degree. Before starting I was supposed to go to seminary, but put it on hold because I was uncomfortable with some issues in the church and w/ the Bishop over me at the time, and my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer while caring for my grandmother. I received a very generous offer from a school in my hometown and decided to put off seminary.
A year and a half later, my mother is better, the relatives she was caring for have passed, and the church has sorted out some of its issues.
In addition to that, I feel the call to go into ministry full time so strongly that it's exceedingly difficult for me to concentrate on this degree, and I feel like I'm wasting time here. It's gotten to the point that no matter how much energy I try to put into classes, I just can't give it my all. This is something new for me. I ended up having a very very strong sense of the Spirit's leading that I was done here and needed to move now. It was so strong that I even had physical sensations in my hands and feet, telling me to go.
Since then I've been praying and seeking guidance, but various issues have presented themselves, such as finding a job in the transition and getting out of this lease. I don't know whether that's an indication that I should just stay, or simply something that I should trust in God's provision for as I go ahead and follow.
I'm trying to see with the eyes of faith, but it's scary to think that I could make this decision and be mistaken about it being God's voice.
The decision would of course upset a lot of people who believe that I would be throwing away an opportunity and not "fully realizing" my potential. However, I don't believe God sees things that way. In His economy, He exalts the lowly, and makes use of those who aren't necessarily educated, ambitious, or anything else. Because it's not about accomplishments, but about faith. And at the end of the day the return He seeks on His investment isn't going to be more lines on a resume, but the fruit of the spirit, service to those in need, etc.
In meditating on the Christmas story, Jesus was a child of the poor, had nothing to His name, and that was part of the point. If I know that I have a call to a certain ministry, why would I spend God's time and money seeking after something that could definitely be useful, but ultimately isn't that thing?
Thoughts???
If you all would offer your spiritual insight, I would greatly appreciate it. Basically, I am exactly half way through a law degree. Before starting I was supposed to go to seminary, but put it on hold because I was uncomfortable with some issues in the church and w/ the Bishop over me at the time, and my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer while caring for my grandmother. I received a very generous offer from a school in my hometown and decided to put off seminary.
A year and a half later, my mother is better, the relatives she was caring for have passed, and the church has sorted out some of its issues.
In addition to that, I feel the call to go into ministry full time so strongly that it's exceedingly difficult for me to concentrate on this degree, and I feel like I'm wasting time here. It's gotten to the point that no matter how much energy I try to put into classes, I just can't give it my all. This is something new for me. I ended up having a very very strong sense of the Spirit's leading that I was done here and needed to move now. It was so strong that I even had physical sensations in my hands and feet, telling me to go.
Since then I've been praying and seeking guidance, but various issues have presented themselves, such as finding a job in the transition and getting out of this lease. I don't know whether that's an indication that I should just stay, or simply something that I should trust in God's provision for as I go ahead and follow.
I'm trying to see with the eyes of faith, but it's scary to think that I could make this decision and be mistaken about it being God's voice.
The decision would of course upset a lot of people who believe that I would be throwing away an opportunity and not "fully realizing" my potential. However, I don't believe God sees things that way. In His economy, He exalts the lowly, and makes use of those who aren't necessarily educated, ambitious, or anything else. Because it's not about accomplishments, but about faith. And at the end of the day the return He seeks on His investment isn't going to be more lines on a resume, but the fruit of the spirit, service to those in need, etc.
In meditating on the Christmas story, Jesus was a child of the poor, had nothing to His name, and that was part of the point. If I know that I have a call to a certain ministry, why would I spend God's time and money seeking after something that could definitely be useful, but ultimately isn't that thing?
Thoughts???
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