BlkHoneyLuv2U
Well-Known Member
I've been manless and sexless for six years now and these feeling that I have been experiencing for the past couple weeks are so out of character for me. I gave my life back to God six years ago and havent felt the need nor the want for a mans company. I dont date or anything like that. But lately, I just , I dont even know how to explain what I'm feeling except to say I find myself thinking about how much I would like to feel a manly embrace just someone to hold me and make me feel safe.
There has been much going on in my life lately and I know this is part of the problem but none of the things have to do with a man. I'm just so tired of carrying the load all alone. I know God is with me and on my side but lately, it just dosent seem to be enough. I need something I can hold on to, something I can feel, someone to say to me hush baby it will be alright. I'm tired and dont know which way to go, well I do know but lately it just dosent seem to be enough.
I'm sitting here crying as I write this because I dont like feeling this way. I'm 46 years old and will be 47 in August. All I see before me is a life alone never having known the love of a good man, leaving this world having never been loved outside my immediate family. I've been known to say, you want what you let your mind focus on. Lately thats all I seem to focus on is how much I miss the comfort of a man. Thats not me and I pray but the feelings are still there. Will you all pray with me that God will keep me strong and faithful.
I'm sorry but these feelings are making me feel like such a failure because I've never been the type to get lonely, as a matter of fact, I have always prided myself on my love for being alone and not lonely. But now, I'm alone and lonely. Pray for me please.
There has been much going on in my life lately and I know this is part of the problem but none of the things have to do with a man. I'm just so tired of carrying the load all alone. I know God is with me and on my side but lately, it just dosent seem to be enough. I need something I can hold on to, something I can feel, someone to say to me hush baby it will be alright. I'm tired and dont know which way to go, well I do know but lately it just dosent seem to be enough.
I'm sitting here crying as I write this because I dont like feeling this way. I'm 46 years old and will be 47 in August. All I see before me is a life alone never having known the love of a good man, leaving this world having never been loved outside my immediate family. I've been known to say, you want what you let your mind focus on. Lately thats all I seem to focus on is how much I miss the comfort of a man. Thats not me and I pray but the feelings are still there. Will you all pray with me that God will keep me strong and faithful.
I'm sorry but these feelings are making me feel like such a failure because I've never been the type to get lonely, as a matter of fact, I have always prided myself on my love for being alone and not lonely. But now, I'm alone and lonely. Pray for me please.