HeChangedMyName
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Lately that old enemy of stress has been creeping in on me. You all know I have been looking for work and unable to find it. Well, I have finally accepted that God will let me work outside of my home on his time and not on my own. It is actually better since I have two toddlers to raise. Since I have accepted that, it seems like I have a whole new type of stress
I have been really stressing because it is just me and them, EVERYDAY, ALL DAY. Plus I don't know if it is the change of season or what but have been really missing both my parents lately. They are both deceased--mom passed 2003 and father passed 2006. I have really been thinking about how much of a help it would be if they were still here. They were not together but I just know I would have been able to drop their grandbabies off to them so that I could get a breather. I've been dreaming about my mother a lot and in my dreams she is always just doing normal things to help me out. When I wake up, I'm like
because my dreams are so stress free with her there having my back.
My siblings all work and there isn't anyone in my family who is just available to keep my kids whenever. My sister and aunt are active in Church and work so that cuts them out. There father is a DJ so he pretty much sleeps during the day.
The other night, I had a dream about snakes being in my house and of course my mommy was in it trying to help me but in the dream a snake was about to strike and she grabbed my hand at the same time I grabbed hers. We were both trying to keep each other from being bitten, but we each got hit with one fang. I was telling her I was immune(???) so I did like in the movies and sucked the venom out her hand and we continued to protect the kids by keeping them in high places in the house until we could make a break for it, because the snakes were everywhere under the furniture and were apparently hungry/vicious. I have been stressing since that dream. I am not superstitious anymore, but I just remember my mother always warning me about snake dreams. I've been on edge ever since that dream.
About a week prior to that, I picked my brother up to give him a ride home(where my father lived) and when I pulled in the driveway, it was as though I forgot my father had died. His old Vet is still in the driveway, the truck he had been working to restore is still there---It felt weird, like he was about to walk out to the car like he use to do.
Maybe I'm tripping or maybe it's just a change of season that I'm in, but please remember me in your prayers. I don't sleep until late at night and I know from the past that when God has me up at night, there is something up.
I have been really stressing because it is just me and them, EVERYDAY, ALL DAY. Plus I don't know if it is the change of season or what but have been really missing both my parents lately. They are both deceased--mom passed 2003 and father passed 2006. I have really been thinking about how much of a help it would be if they were still here. They were not together but I just know I would have been able to drop their grandbabies off to them so that I could get a breather. I've been dreaming about my mother a lot and in my dreams she is always just doing normal things to help me out. When I wake up, I'm like
because my dreams are so stress free with her there having my back. My siblings all work and there isn't anyone in my family who is just available to keep my kids whenever. My sister and aunt are active in Church and work so that cuts them out. There father is a DJ so he pretty much sleeps during the day.
The other night, I had a dream about snakes being in my house and of course my mommy was in it trying to help me but in the dream a snake was about to strike and she grabbed my hand at the same time I grabbed hers. We were both trying to keep each other from being bitten, but we each got hit with one fang. I was telling her I was immune(???) so I did like in the movies and sucked the venom out her hand and we continued to protect the kids by keeping them in high places in the house until we could make a break for it, because the snakes were everywhere under the furniture and were apparently hungry/vicious. I have been stressing since that dream. I am not superstitious anymore, but I just remember my mother always warning me about snake dreams. I've been on edge ever since that dream.
About a week prior to that, I picked my brother up to give him a ride home(where my father lived) and when I pulled in the driveway, it was as though I forgot my father had died. His old Vet is still in the driveway, the truck he had been working to restore is still there---It felt weird, like he was about to walk out to the car like he use to do.
Maybe I'm tripping or maybe it's just a change of season that I'm in, but please remember me in your prayers. I don't sleep until late at night and I know from the past that when God has me up at night, there is something up.
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so everything is bit behind....
