Hello everyone. I am a 30something year old plus size woman who has a serious problem. I was introduced to a wonderful man. He was sweet caring and everything I could ever ask for. We were in a relationship for 3 years and I broke up with the man 3 times. Why? Crazy as this may sound I have this sick issue that has been lurking and I just started noticing it. I serious neglect myself. I am happy doing things for others and making solving everyone else's problems. But when it comes to me I "punish myself". I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. Or in this case, I don't deserve a nice guy. Its like something tells me Im not worthy of love and I pull away. Then I am crying and upset because I gave up something that I wanted...what should I do?