@Shimmie thank you! I just want to glorify God after everything He’s done for me.
I was inspired to start this thread because of some things that God has been showing me lately.
To give a piece of background I’ve had a spirit of anxiety since my early teens. But it was to a level that I could mostly hide from people I didn’t live with.
In the last 3-4 years it has escalated to a point where it has affected important life events, my day to day performance, my relationships and my physical well being. When my symptoms reached a new extreme that I couldn’t ignore I felt the need to reach out for help. This lead to a months long process in which I ultimately strengthened my relationship with God. After many months of reconnecting, He showed my something. Having GAD was actually a gift from him.
I’ve always had this spirit of anxiety and wasn’t going to change because my outcomes in life were still great. For example I was the first of my friends to get married, I was accepted into a prestigious career path at a prestigious institution, etc. He stepped in and made it so that my body literally rejects a spirit of anxiety before I even know that I’ve become anxious. Now, I have to take care of my physical and mental well being and most importantly I’ve learned how to actually trust in Him.
For example, When I start idolizing my own ability to predict and control my world (this in my opinion is the root cause of anxiety) I will suddenly have poor sleep or other symptoms.
Beyond that I learned that whatever his plans are for me, my spirit of anxiety would have stopped his plans from coming to fruition. To further back this up, I’ve been able to help two people almost immediately after He and I reached a new level in our relationship.