HELP! I believe I have a spirit of fear...Y?

[ocean74]

Hello to ALL,

I need your advice, thoughts and prayer... Okay, let me explain...

About 2 years ago, I was asked to step up as an Asst. Supervisor at my job. As a matter of a fact they asked 5 of us... of all 5, I was the only one to pass the test, 3 months had past and no one ever interviewed me, even though my supervisor was continuously telling me I would be getting interviewed every other week....Never happened! So of course I started getting discouraged and decided to give up! After several months had past, they started asking me to step up again(3 times since the first time)... I told them NO , even though something deep down inside of me was PUSHING ME to say YES. They asked why? I told them it wasn't for me...even though I knew i'd make a difference, but that first time they prolonged me for so long, it just shut me down inside.


Now about 1 1/2 year later and a whole new management team, they're asking me again! I looked at the Manager and tried my hardest to say NO, but those words would not come out of my mouth today...I just told him i'd think about it....

Yall I am so scared, but i can't tell yall why i'm scared, bc i don't even know why.

I've been trying soooo hard to find me another job since the first time i was shut down. i've been praying and asking for it, but for some reason...Something is keeping me there and i don't understand it!

What is it? What do I do? How do i pray about that?

I know this sound a bit confusing, but my mind is just as confused. PLEASE HELP!

 

[ocean74]

Bump...Bump....erplexed

No advice? Comments?

 

[HeChangedMyName]

2 Timothy 1
6 Therefore, I remind you to keep ablaze the gift of God that is in you through the laying on of my hands. 7 For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness, but one of power, love, and sound judgment. 8 So don't be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord, or of me His prisoner. Instead, share in suffering for the gospel, relying on the power of God, 9 who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace, which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began.


Now, I bolded the things that seem to speak to your circumstance. God has gifted you to be in this type of position, otherwise, your supervisors whould not have even asked you. God didn't give you the spirit of fear. That is a trick of the devil to keep you from what is rightfully yours. If you overcome this hurdle, you will have a testimony to share about how God brought you through a situation that you "thought" you were fearful of. In the face of any and all tricks from the devil, including but not limited to FEAR, you must rely on the power of God. For in Matthew 11, Jesus says, 28 "Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Afterall, you were created for God's purpose and his glory. He knows what he had in mind when he created you and perhaps, he wants you to be in this position so that he can position you for a blessing, either for yourself, or for someone else. You may encounter someone seeking to find a way to the Lord, and low and behold, there you will be in that position available to someone. God may want to strengthen your faith in him and your trust in him that he may open up the windows of heaven and pour down all the blessings that he has stored up for you. Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." God already knows the plan. I would pray about it and ask him why this opportunity keeps presenting itself to you and I pray that you will be open to the words that God gives you and that whatever he tells you, you take it and run.

 

[discobiscuits]

About 2 years ago, I was asked to step up as an Asst. Supervisor at my job. of all 5, I was the only one to pass the test, After several months had past, they started asking me to step up again(3 times since the first time)... I told them NO , even though something deep down inside of me was PUSHING ME to say YES. They asked why? I told them it wasn't for me...even though I knew i'd make a difference, but that first time they prolonged me for so long, it just shut me down inside.


Now about 1 1/2 year later and a whole new management team, they're asking me again! I looked at the Manager and tried my hardest to say NO, but those words would not come out of my mouth today...I just told him i'd think about it....

Yall I am so scared, but i can't tell yall why i'm scared, bc i don't even know why.

I've been trying soooo hard to find me another job since the first time i was shut down. i've been praying and asking for it, but for some reason...Something is keeping me there and i don't understand it!

What is it? What do I do? How do i pray about that?

I know this sound a bit confusing, but my mind is just as confused. PLEASE HELP!

Ocean, sweetie, I think you answered your own question(s).

You think that you will make a difference, you were recruited, you were the only one to pass the test, you are being recruited again, something inside won't let you say no.

Perhaps, the reason for the shut down in the 1st place was because the team before was the wrong one for you to work with or report to. There is a new management team now. Try to consider this: you were recruited and passed the test and your name was in the hat. The old regime may have been detrimental to you or may have inhibited the difference you can make. You were put on hold but not turned away or turned down. Now there is a new regime so they may be better at supporting you and complementing what you bring to the table. Maybe your spirit won't let you say no because deep down you know that all is right and the "fear" as you call it may just be simply you not wanting to get your hopes up only to be disappointed again.

My suggestion: go for it. When you get the offer you can STILL turn it down. Do not fear that you will be "shut down" again. If you are, that too may be a blessing in disguise and this may all be about testing your confidence and tenacity or preparing you for a different job with more challenges and disappointments so you are being honed now.

If you want to pray and seek God, just do it. I don't even think this decision is about should I or shouldn't I, it may be as simple as "Father, is this promotion of you and something that You want for me? If not, I will wait for You to direct my path elsewhere." You can ask God to speak to you or to show you or whatever. But so far, based on what you wrote, there is no downside and you believe that you can make a difference.

God needs His people in places of influence to set a Godly example. (Influence as I am using it, does not mean position of power or authority but can be an Administrative Assistant to a CEO or a baby sitter who reads bible stories or sings Christian songs to the children or even a janitor in the White House who carries him/herself in such a way that they have an impact in their sphere of influence. YOU have an opportunity to have an impact in your sphere of influence, what ever that may be.)

I wish you well what ever you decide.