Sasha Fierce
Active Member
I am not sure what His will is for me and I don't know how to reconcile personal pursuits with his plan for me.
For instance, I was just rejected from one PhD program I applied to. I am waiting to hear from three others but I am honestly not feeling to good about my prospects and I'm thinking this time around may not be for me.
Anyway, I have struggled for years trying to figure out what I should do with my life. I finally decided PhD was a good choice for me and that I could build a good career around that and hoped that God could use me through it all.
But when I applied for these programs there was no sense of awe and feelings of knowing that I was doing the right thing. I just felt that it was time to be active and not be stagnant in a job which would limit me professionally.
So I'm asking myself is PhD just my desire and not God's plan for me? Or does God give us freedom to do things we may like and the choice is ours to make it happen with his grace and guidance? Or are we predestined to do a certain thing?
I am clueless. I know God is with me but He seems to have remained silent on this issue in my life. I really don't know what to do. I pray. I ask. But I am still clueless.
I am grateful for my health and job that I currently have. I know He provides for me. But I just don't know what to do.
For instance, I was just rejected from one PhD program I applied to. I am waiting to hear from three others but I am honestly not feeling to good about my prospects and I'm thinking this time around may not be for me.
Anyway, I have struggled for years trying to figure out what I should do with my life. I finally decided PhD was a good choice for me and that I could build a good career around that and hoped that God could use me through it all.
But when I applied for these programs there was no sense of awe and feelings of knowing that I was doing the right thing. I just felt that it was time to be active and not be stagnant in a job which would limit me professionally.
So I'm asking myself is PhD just my desire and not God's plan for me? Or does God give us freedom to do things we may like and the choice is ours to make it happen with his grace and guidance? Or are we predestined to do a certain thing?
I am clueless. I know God is with me but He seems to have remained silent on this issue in my life. I really don't know what to do. I pray. I ask. But I am still clueless.
I am grateful for my health and job that I currently have. I know He provides for me. But I just don't know what to do.